Saturday, October 20, 2012

SPIRITUALITY: DAY TWO HUNDRED FIFTY TWO WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I was brought up Catholic, believe I was forced too young, but it was due to respected and understanding traditions through baptism and holy communion. My concerns have been addressed as the minumum age limit and time of education has transformed allowing older somewhat more mature children to get a more clear and grounded awareness of the truths of receiving the body of Christ through the sacrament of the Eucharist. Through the years I have distanced myself from the church community floating in and out, but relying on my own self-discovery of seeking out other practiced faiths through Kabbalah, yoga & meditation, the Red Road, and a variety of other Christian based and non-demoninational celebrations. Bring music into your day. Sing out loud and have a voice. I have always struggled with the connection of money and church. I know it takes funds to build and grow, but it is all about the approach, intention, and trusting utilization. I am turned away from place that recruit and hound people into ones church. I am a strong believer of establishing a strong, reliable, and integrity filled place of worship and I have found myself more and more distant from places that have strategy and marketing schemes of building a community. Is church SPIRITUALITY? I believe it can be a part of it, but a true sense of faith is a bond with you and your God whomever that may be. I believe in a wonderful Light-filled God that celebrates the goodness of all souls and their passionate gifts they have from within. I possess an optimistic love of self and share that love with others that are willing and able to desire and receive. The more Light I liberate in others the more Light I will receive. Having faith in your surroundings, believing in your self worth, and valuing all that you are capable of pursuing in the pursuit of true happiness and virtue, is a way to approach leading your day. Create a foundation that you can excell in. Ground yourself with faith and desire to progress on a path that you can inspire and be proud to create. How do you expand your spirituality? Do you have the desire to let go of issues that hold you back? How does your living enviornment and relationships shape your spirituality? What actions do you take to celebrate you and your beliefs? Please don't give in or give up on You.

EDUCATION: DAY TWO HUNDRED FIFTY ONE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Late Sundays returning home from one of the parents’ homes as I prepared mentally for Monday Mornings wondering what would the next day entail? Completed wrinkled homework, over packed backpack held together by over worked sticking zipper that was Pee Chee™ filled and 3-hole subjectively organized with a plastic pressed pocket place for pencil sharpeners, plastic right handed safety scissors, and erasable pens that leaked on my impatient palm side that was eager to get out for recess and Ding Dong Liverwurst or leftover Meatloaf sandwich snack time. My papa ran schools since the day I was born until his retirement in the year 2004 after he left an adult school and decided to be a retired adult in a heavily populated San Gabriel Valley ChineseViet town. I had the adventure of EDUCATION by attending 15 schools ranging from a mountain pre-school held at a high school at the Rim of the World, to receiving an international business degree with an emphasis on Supply Chain Management at a university founded by Jesuits on a hill looking over Sea World Mission Bay. In between was LAE for my K year, a 2 year stint at the Catholic OLQA, and then enjoyed 3rd grade and one third of 6th with a Harbor View of the Pacific Blue near the man made Bay of Balboa and Playa de Newport . I was then shipped north to my papa to finish the year in uncomfortable judging St. Roberts school yard and with George Washington as a wallaby. I continued onward fighting my overweight eating out diet with my Straight A’s puberty along the trail of  John Muir Junior and Middle School. There was one semester with frosh football and 1200 manboys at Loyola  for the my first high school experience while ending up Jesuit again at Providence back in my hometown. Opened up my mind near the beach for a year and half at the Bishops School with my only circle of buddies that was ended by forced rehabs by parents (not mine though) and my failure in front of the disciplinary board giving me the boot by my peers, but gifting me an extra week long Spring Break in Ireland to get my first forearm wolf tattoo thanks to red bearded Buddy, his wife, my dancing sister in Limerick, Ireland, and my mama who provided the budget.  Home school aint all that fun as it might seem teaching Me American History from Civil War through the JFK Assassination and overcoming Reaganomics. Looked into boarding schools, but they required minimum two years so I was back at papa’s at John Burroughs High where he handed me my diploma drunk on Mickeys 40 and nitrous balloons att Memorial Field where I ballboyed for the football team years before witnessing a bitter windy (70+mph) defeat in the CIF Finals in ’87 versus Arroyo Grande which ended in a brawl. On that same field I battled in the trenches as a 165lb senior lineman (center) to beat our cross-town rivals the Burbank Bulldogs against all my John Muir Middle Schools buddies in 95’.I wanted a metropolitan city for college so I went to the first school I got into. It was one of  very few I applied. I wasn’t into the college fever, but scored near Stonestown at San Francisco State where the GE world was filled with culture, variety, and more exploring openness. Life transforms when you take risk, and those were surely taken as I boarded a ship to take a voyage from Nassau Bahamas to Seattle Washington for a 100day experience that still and will be a part of me today and forever. Semester at Sea (sponsored by the University of Pittsburgh) provided 4 continents and 10 countries and brought me gifts with memories that allowed me to respect more the beauty of culture, cuisine, open water horizon travel that was vast oceans, tight bottom of the boat quarters, and amazing lifelong passions to see and feel the world in the most unique RVB way. Wouldn’t be here today sharing without those experiences that linger within me and my passionate dedicated heart. Shiplife was gone, San Francisco one more semester, and I finished back down in San Diego on top with Franciscan architecture from Spanish past and a world ahead of me after graduating and completing my degree.” Major in something Major,” my papa always states. Understand your life’s passions while educating yourself about life. How was your path of schools? Where were changes made? How did you adapt to your learning environment? Did you make the best of all the opportunities? How can you re-connect to the process of learning? What skills were you granted with? What skills do you desire NOW to grant yourself? What are your priorities of education? What is something you learned new today? How can you let others in and share with them all that you have gone through? Teach, Uplift, Set Example, Inspire, Motivate, Listen, Follow, Lead? Are the people you surround yourself with allow or provide you those actions? Bring newness into your life through optimistic knowledge and give yourself truth that lies within and beyond on this vast place we sit and call Earth.

PASSIONS: DAY TWO HUNDRED FIFTY WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

There are moments in my life where I find myself in the middle of a breath at a place in time where I am fulfilled, mesmerized, energized, and instilled with an enlightened power that lingers within my pumping  heart. Creative live solo riffs on an electric blues guitar, an end of the season or tournament  championship roaring crowds in global stadiums, a suspenseful action packed beautifully lit emotional film, or an innocently driven giving animal that comes down my way and shares the openly love I welcome. Discover elements from within; hobbies, interests, proactive activities, that provide you a faithful hope to celebrate your gifts all that it is you and all that you are capable of doing. MY PASSIONS; music, sports, film, and animals give me that wonderful energy, allow me to connect in ways that teach, guide, uplift, and stride. Surround yourself with creative curiosity, dedicated desire, and the abilities to shine with delight. Make your mark with all that you believe in. Discover Your Way. Enjoy YOUR Journey. Promise?

MENTAL HEALTH: DAY TWO HUNDRED FORTY NINE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

People have told me I am crazy (crazy to live), a little nutty (love nuts), and completely out of control (the exploring lone wolf in me).  I have endured a roller coaster of a life that has taken my emotions right alongside all the chaos, instability, and feverish encounters that all my senses have witnessed. Many people would say today that they wouldn’t change anything in their lives, and are surely happy with all the choices they have made with no regrets. I would surely agree with the latter since I am not one to dwell, but can’t say honestly that I am completely satisfied with all my choices, things I have done and said, but the important reality of my life now and today is that I am doing, making progress and creating openness with my mind, body and soul. I bring goodness into my day by not taking things too seriously or personally, I have self-respect through daily exercise and a quality loving diet, and I strive to bring the best out in others by sharing my passions in hope that others will celebrate their own. Through these visionary activities I have faith in my skills and that my ongoing optimistic MENTAL HEALTH will provide for me the consistent motivation and inspiration to lead a fulfilling loving life ahead. How do you maintain a peace of mind? What steps do you take to let go? How do you let others into your space? What kind of communication skills do you have? What do you do to overcome your challenged battles? How do you assure yourself each living day that you are living truthfully?

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

WHOLLY MAN:DAY TWO HUNDRED FORTY EIGHT WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

There are amazing moments in one's life that instill a long lasting impact and determine the ongoing passion of a soul moving forward. I reminisce and smile with a hopeful Light at times, and realize how grateful I truly am in a world that thrives and strives of bringing you down. Honestly, only if you let it since I believe I am my own freedom fighter. I have been a victim of many things, but I am no victim because I do not choose to allow mishap and unfortunate circumstance deprive me of living. No way. Certainly not my choice of leadership of me. I can't rely on anything or anyone to consistently pick me up each day and keep me going. I understand and celebrate those that love and believe in all that I am, and all that I decide to pursue, but I feel as a soldier of pursuit, the decision is all mine. Deep down that probably has to change very soon, since that is way to much pressure to put on myself, but it is in my surviving nature to breathe this way. I think being completely responsible is to be totally dependent. Which I am surely not, but through this year I plan to be. How confident am I writing this? Not as sure as I would like to be here in October, but it is my overall determination this year to make major transformations within my living environment and career path that WILL get me closer in becoming a WHOLLY MAN. I think all of us humans so deserve to experience the true freedom of being an independent human. Being in charge. Free of debt. Pressure? For me a daily thought and battle. When will my day occur? My own home, my own space, where ALL my own belongings will be owned solely by me...Never ever have I created or given myself a home just for me. Or even felt a place I can call or feel at home. Sad, but seriously true due to my decisions, my upbringing, and the ways I choose to lead my life. I never and will never dwell on this fact, but strongly believe its completion will provide a huge sense of relief, and release an ongoing burden that seeps within my writing shoulders. Until that deciding day, please root and pray for me. We all know I am so more than capable of the production of that desiring space, it is only time and my fear of commitment that stands in my way. A comittment to a place that will determine my path. Does it really have to be that way? No!

FIFTY STATES: DAY TWO HUNDRED FORTY SEVEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

When you think about being a citizen of the United States of America, what is the first thing that comes to your mind? Do you recollect on your childhood family trips or do you dwell about your current living situation? Or maybe a historical point of view comes to light on exactly how this vast, but shallow country was formed not so so long ago? There are so many times I have heard, "I am so proud to be an American living in the US of A." What does it exactly mean to be a part of the U.S.A.? When I have a mental visual of my country I normally have a coast a coast image from the Pacific North West to North Atlantic New England and then think about the vast MidWest Region, Deep Historical South, with far away thoughts of Hawaiian sunsets, and large cruising Alaskian glaciers with goldie oily miners long ago. I will someday sooner than never give my changing via mood Southern Sea blue eyes the opportunity to set foot on all FIFTY STATES and hopefully unite my vision of what country is all about. I know I take the California Coastline for granted until I miss it when I travel beyond it. I am such a water soul that is inspired by movement, sound, and the power of the rush that shapes and endures.

INTO THE FOREST: DAY TWO HUNDRED FORTY SIX WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Where in your world do you create the most peace for you? How do you maintain enough for you to enjoy and prosper in its grace? Do you allow yourself to surrender and be free within your mind? What do you do to release and let go from all your distractions, attachments, fears, and heaviness throughout your challenging, but productive day? What is your perspective outlook on balance? What do you do to pursue and achieve it? Are you in control? Yes yes yes some deep concerns and questions for all of us to understand and face. How can we create a balanced peace of mind where we can do our best, lead our potential into the promise land and feel good doing it? Exercise? Yelling? Crying? Sharing with Others? Eating & Cooking? Dancing? Crying some more? Laughter? Smiling? Restriction? Honest Communication? We surely have to enjoy our journey by understanding self. Yes celebrating who we are in our own unique style and gifted demeanor that we can seek & soar high and mighty amoung all those that we want to indulge within. Be cautious and curious, but take the powerful risk that can open us up, and present us with a sense of adventure that can build and grow our soul into a world that we can be proud and happy to dwell. We lead and live a pretty short existence that is in the NOW today. What can you do to make sure that you are in a state of happiness and love? How can I help to inspire, motivate, uplift, and maintain that bliss? Getting closer to nature is key. Jumping into moving water, strolling INTO THE FOREST, and breathing in sweet crisp mountain air can provide such amazing hope. Please do what it takes for you to be grounded, confident, and filled with lovely sunshine. Forgive me for depriving myself of all that I am capable of pursuing and believing in, but I am strides away of bringing me closer to my potential plan. I know I am far from following the expected or typical one that people remind me, but remember I am RVB the lone wolf here and there siempre, but not forever.

BROOKLYN: DAY TWO HUNDRED FORTY FIVE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

All you hackers I hope you are reading this and listenly closely to what I have to share. You know those secret password questions that ask the city where you were born? Yes those list of questions that get your through security in the password retrieval line? Well when I am asked where I was born I always say BROOKLYN. Yes that borrough over that famous vast wide bridge that takes you into my soul. I used to be a boxer in 1920s that always strived to get a break and win a fight on Friday Night at MSG. Butch Buchano from Brooklyn the Battler that thrived to battle in and out of the ring. From the back alleys to the main stage arena. Always a lover of attention under pressure enjoying the wearing of a nice suit and stiff classy hat. A bowler will do, along with a tilted Stetson, or even a knitted cap that fits just right. The bright lights and fog off the flowin East river below. There just not an energized inspiring city like New York City. Being a citizen of the United States of America with a history so short, NYC sure has a little bit of it all. Variety of culture; Chinese, Italian, Irish, Haitian, Puerto Rican, Dominican...music; jazz, opera, hip hop, folk....fashion, food, museums, cab rides, Central Park runs & rides, holiday festivities and parades, finance, publishing, and so much more surprises. Being a Dutch Irish explorer with a rich historical drive to make history, I surely strive to make strides from Battery Park to the Bronx in the city where I always arrive with my walking shoes, and leave with an unforgettable passion to share my joy with those that are curious enough to ask.

CUISINART: DAY TWO HUNDRED FORTY FOUR WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Possessing the ability to create and manifest delicious gifts in and around the kitchen gives me such fulfilling pleasure that I love to explore and share with those that appreciate a variety of sweet and savory with a slight after bite spice that lingers just right. I cook like I play the piano. It's a first for everyone and the last time we will all enjoy the exact combination of noted ingredients, since you get what you get at that moment in time, so listen closely and cherish every new bite since you'll never get to experience the same ever again. I play by ear and mix by my tasty smell. Dib and dab. Up & Down. Light and Fast. Lots of Bite. Always Just Enough, but Desire More and More. Filling with Delightful Aquired Tastes. How do you celebrate you taste buds? Are you an adventurous eater? Don't even want to know? Risk Taker? or just a bland same old daily special salt & pepper kind of fart? What the hell is a CUISINART? I've been told I should get one, utilize it, and enjoy life in the kitchen even more. Is that true?