GLORIOUS SMILE: DAY NINE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

The art of productive and proactive progress is surely a feat and action that has to include desire (not always of course), creativity, and a willingness to transform. In the past years I have made it a point for myself to engage in the education and discovery of newness to move progressively. I focused on my mental/physical health, a visionary career path, and to strive forward within a world that I find full of wonderment. As I sit and ponder, there is so much more that I have to, and WILL excel in and pursue full force. At the moment I lack security, stability, and a structural base that I have full confidence in. My self esteem is adequate (always room for improvement) and believe I could be doing so much much MORE. One of my big downfalls is the self guilt I  hold onto with things I started in the past, but didn't complete. I feel in my mind that I still have an obligation to see them to the end. Projects like EXPLORATION the Movie, INDY COWBOY, CHAMPIONS' ROAD etc...Maybe they will come to Light, but I have to prioritize with what I have TODAY. Take my daily choices, do the actions I want to do, and feel good about my accomplishments. For this project should I lay down a daily action plan? Probably YES! Will I, when will I, and how will I make sure it happens? I was once told ADD is a chemical imbalance. Within my ADD mind my brain travels through a disarray of emotions of ups and down, while increasing excitement and throwing you around the guilt wagon. How many out there understand what I go through each day? How many believe what I say or just think I am Mr. Excuse and that ADD is just a condition the medical field conjured up to see high powered overpriced Amphetamines/Anti-Depressants? I honestly struggle everyday on this roller coaster. Focus, Distraction, Memory, Priority, Losing, Forgetting, Draining, Frustration, a world of here2there, and then returning back not knowing where to start again.  Everywhere & everyday. Running and sweating has been a true lifesaver. Am I chemically imbalanced? An amazing beautiful soul told me NO once. I feel an imbalance, a physical one, a direct/instant change on the spot, night&day, but have learned the hard way, doing my best to not repeat mistakes, taking it slow, playing it simple, and engaging myself in activities that bring me peace, forgiveness, patience, understanding, and awareness for where I want to go. I want to do what I say & think for a change. ADD is a beautiful loving efficient gift. I know my capabilities and all the possibilities it brings forth upon me. Through this year I have to re-organize, throw away, let go, and re-build my structure that will allow me and all that surrounds me to be empowered to make a difference in all that I do, in all that I believe in, and all that I choose to spend my quality time on. Have to get out of Alhambra, have to create a home just for me, have to mold and shape an ongoing career, and have to build up a circle of support that can rise with me by my side. Positive Perseverance with a mind set of Productive Proud Pleasure with Pride. My glorious smile shines from sea to shining sea each and every day. I spread my sunshine and will continue on until I can completely feel free. There is so much more to celebrate in this wonderful world, so many places and people to discover and learn. I am so filled with the ambition and eager anxiousness  to get going, create my dreaming vision of providing and teaching within a place of educational worship where others can attend and discover that there dreams too like mine, are more than possible. That they can actually live them, and live them brightly, establishing a legacy that will uplift others. So this project is a continuing graceful movement of letting go, unraveling, letting more go, then taking these new discoveries/passions/dreams, and bringing them into a world that desires to live as ONE with a joy-filled harmony that we all can enjoy and prosper. SleepWell- RVB

SUNRISE<><>SUNSET: DAY EIGHT WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Opening up with a slow local palm tree sunrise down the street from my house is an idea of the opening shot of the film, then a montage of photos of my life, and actions that I desire to make with a narrative explaining that we all have a sunrise and sunset in our life, but it is in between and beyond that scope where can really put our mark on life. LIGHT is a powerful source of deliciousness and newness, that gives us the taste of discovery that can shine forever. The awareness to accept it into your heart is a huge committed choice, and then to utilize its greatness beyond ALL that you believe you can DO, truly allows your soul to be in the NOW, to smile with inspiring joy that settles peacefully all that you encounter. What will be of this project years from now? Where will I lead us manana? How can I as my creator, spread this joy I possess and really brighten up the life around us? There is a current aura around me that feels limited, but oh so present and ready to pounce and conquer respectfully. A visionary sense of going too far away lands, faced with the inner struggles to transform, and mold into something greater. Yes I AM GREAT, and have excelled through my greatness, but there is a journey to be taken head on, with an honest mind, and a determination that refuses to be distracted, thrown off course, and the willingness to sustain control. As of now, I am out of control. Distractions galore surround me in and out, Yes & No, around & around I go. Where will I be in one year? How will my perspective of myself change? Who will surround me? Where will I be living? How will I live? When will I have made it? Where am I going? A mellow sense lingers through my veins, spent I am, from all the deprived sleep, lack of water and too many salty(sugary) snacks that brings me down. Balance, Balance, oh Balance me through this endless battle of keeping it all together. Please don't cut yourself short and continue on life what you are doing. Self-pressure I agree, not all good, agreed again, but who else is going to put me straight and strap me up for game day? Sighing and Straining, Shaking & Smiling, the roller coaster life, mine of course, puts me on course. At the helm with land in sight, rough seas ahead, sails struggling, the wheel is a turning as I keep movin. Bleesings- RVB

NEVER GIVE UP HOPE: DAY SEVEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

YES this is a place/forum to be free, write from the heart and let loose. It has been a wonderful week so far for me with the passion and vision to create something day after day. I desire to do a little more than I have been, and will do my best to commit to that this week. The Australian Open is finally over after an epic (longest Grand Slam Final ever 5 hours 53 minutes) Mens Final last night and into the morning for me here in California. Thank you so much Rafa and Novak for all your courage, stamina, and tremendous endurance. Great Show For the Ages. Where should we go this evening with all of you? What do you want to know about me? What do I want to know of you? I smile and continue, deciding to focus on the art of HOPE. Hoping to be somebody someday? I am somebody of course. Hope that one of these days my hope does not let me down? Hope that your hope rises to the occasion and instills in you a motivating passion to keep on hoping? Hope surely requires action, since it is only a sensational idea and spark of faith that allows you to open up and believe what ever you are hoping for will provide you with something that will uplift you or bring you closer to your goals or aspirations. Unless you really HOPE she would leave you alone, or hope that the scale could give you just a little less output in the morning. Otherwise lets indulge in the ability to really understand you, what makes you YOU, and what you want to do with YOU on this path we call life, or this path we call YOU. I think it is SO helpful for everyone once in awhile, or some people believe daily at a certain specific time of the day, but really set aside the time/effort to appreciate and be grateful for YOU. I find when I am running long distances and really enjoying a releasing sweat that my self-analysis skills flow the best. Discover your time and enjoy it. Get ideas and get excited, plan ahead, but something I struggle with from these sessions is the ACTION part. Thats why I am here to do my best, focus on a vision of creation and DO MORE, seeing through the end. What is the end of this project, a FINAL PRODUCT that I can distribute and celebrate amongst the film festivals all over the world....a feature film documentary that opens up the senses and allows people to let go from the inside out. Yes I continue preaching that, but until you can LET GO, I really don't believe you can live your FULL POTENTIAL. How can you if you are holding back or have put something away, layering it with guilt, booze, work, food, or whatever your vice/strategy of hiding is, DIG DIG DIG...Hey maybe what has to be released is closer than you think, or too deep than you want to swim? You have that choice to be YOU. We are amazing beings, us humans, and have created such an incredible world, but we can be DOING a lot more, with a lot more respect, dedication, appreciation, and selfless action. The more Light you Liberate in others the more Light you will Receive. So share for the sake of others, but before you even do that, focus on YOU, be good to yourself in all that do, all the food you put in your mouth, all your thoughts, actions, decisions, cherish the time here NOW, and never give up hope. NEVER. Life is too grand for us to deprive our ability to shine. Boy do I love sunshine. The Golden State boy born by the sea, the Pacific Blue to be exact. I love seeking the unknown, being surprised by bliss, listening to the sounds of the South, seeing the sunset in the West, the rising morning out in the desert, and the fight to enjoy a New Day. Didn't live through the NewDeal, but was raised by a boomers generation whose parents knew what it was like to commit to dedication and earn a living from their efforts, survive and fight wars I wouldn't know how to deal, but the examples of greatness from my past, instill in me, that even though they became stubborn (which age does to the mind) they surely new what hope and love was all about. I hope today that I can continue my hope of believing in ME and all that I am, and battle from within to establish a beautiful strong life that lies ahead. I focus on TODAY though, NOW is for me, and NOW is what I can become- RVB

JUST A BUMP IN THE ROAD: DAY SIX WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE

How many things do we say no to throughout our day? Within our minds and out loud. Why do we give that response? What is the consequence or reward behind that firm decision or choice? How long have you been saying it or is it just a quick reaction since it is something you truly don't want to deal with or face? Is it for religious or moral reasons? Beliefs or commitments? Constraints or commands? NO is a powerful active gesture and I always analyze, especially young youth, how, why and with which volume NO is used. Are you a NO person? For years I surely was, then became a YES MAN, and now have created a respectful and spiritual balance between my NOs and YESs throughout my day, but still havent tweaked the exact sway that I  truly pleases me. I am determined to be a YES father, as I have glorious YES parents. A reality that has allowed me to discover amazing far away places and people, but also nailed me down in a way throughout different places/situations. Sometimes wish, BUT WILL NEVER WAIT (won't survive) around for, "Ryan its time, you must NOW and I mean NOW go and....." These days I vow to say no to alcohol, meat, dairy, masturbation, any form of smoking, and people who bring me DOWN or have a down attitude to just name a few. I am a strong believer of keeping my flow of energy flowin, and my flow energized with the proper mind set, nutrients, and will power. I desire to be secure, stable, grounded, and firm as a man. I am SO not there yet, since there is so much I desire to see, do, feel, taste, and listen to in order to coral my power into a life that will empower the lives that bring my life loving life.

Doubt is another energy I struggle to realize. People doubting my first impression, my loving charm and giving spirit, my abilities to do what I say, or the reality of my amazing gifts. Doubt brings me down. Doubt causes more doubt. Doubt is a total drag and turn off. Keep doubting and you will only keep doubting and with more doubt, doubt will keep you saying NO...No that cant be true, you are too good to be true. How could anyone continue living life to the fullest and always focusing on doubt? And what if you were a constant Doubtful No Person? Not fun, no way, no more. Not for me. So Doubt if you can hear me, please find another one to doubt and say no to, since I will surely have to add you to my NO list...

So go out today, reach up and stretch far, close your eyes, breath crisp, while living free, and just visualize and believe in your story, your power, your courage to create and build a life that is full of all that brings you joy, all that provides and lifts you up, encourage yourself to be yourself whatever that may be at the moment, and do your best to put a stop to excuses, since things that bring you down, or causes pain, are just bumps in the road, or barriers to step over, and are challenges to overcome. If it is change you desire, then change it, if its transformation you want to possess, then transform. Just don't deny the intuitive potential gifts you know you have. Share your mighty glory, and be glorious with mite. RVB

FOUNDATIONAL PURPOSE of DAY FIVE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Such a visionary dreamer dreaming with sweet productive pulsating love to please, provide, and proactively provoke a fire within to discover your fiery passions of living life's path of satisfying fulfilling bliss.  There lies ahead a transforming sea that wrestles the wind, and wonders why the waves wander through winding and whistling, while whisking away aimlessly the air that we call our breath of life with a plan for creation onward. The laying layers must be laid to rest firmly for us to stand tall and reach out. Plan and prepare. Collaboration of Certainty. Piles and Pictures. Family of Funnies.
Cool and Calm. NOW

The purpose of WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE? is to share, open up, and let go with others all that is from within. My passions to my promises, and my dreams to my dillemas, and to surrender in order to discover what MY purpose is, but side by side, soul to soul, I desire to gather and corral others to do the same and blossom together so we can all shower each other with our loving Hearts and God Given Gifts.

The action that I discovered today that is part of my purpose is SHARE (simply share honestly).

Today while at the Pond of Anaheim Home of the 2007 Stanley Mighty Ducks I continued building up the vision and getting to the details of the filming process of this vast journey, taking a break, I jotted down these responsibilities that I will pursue:

LIST OF INTERVIEWS (TBA)
DINNER TABLE/IN THE KITCHEN SETTING 

Family- Ma, Papa, Patrick, Megan, Matt, Grainne, Avery, Chip, Marie

(Mama's Side)Aunts/Uncles=Cousins (Spouses)
Patty/Don=Kim (Kevin), Hayley, Aimee
Chris/Jody=Caitlin, Chris Jr., Courtney
Terry/Mary=Meike/Nate, Cathryn/Oleg, Nick
Bonny=Scott/Deb, Pete/Tara, Jeff/Lauren
Christy=Scott, Morgan, Kevin

Father's Side Aunts/Uncles=Cousins (Spouses)
Dal=Dal III/Mel, Lori, Benjamin
Tawna=Ashley/ Polly/  Heddie, Johnnie/
Heather-Michel-Joseph
Maddie/Mike-Emily-Dana-Hailey

Celebrities/Entertainment
Dustin Hoffman, Alicia Silverstone, Tom Hanks/Rita Wilson, Steven Speilburg/Cate Capshaw, Duncan Henderson, James Duff, Michael Robbins/Greer Shepard, Meryl Streep, Jack Black, Pierce Bronson, Oprah Winfrey, Kyra Sedgwick/Kevin Bacon, Debbie Allen

Athletes/Sports
Magic Johnson, Andre Agassi, Joe Montana, Nolan Ryan, Barry Sanders, Gerlad Payton, Bill Walton, Mary Lou Retton, Nadie Comanchi, Mia Hamm, Freddie Sanchez

Spitual Advisors
Rev Michael Bernard Beckwith/Ricky Byers Beckwith, Joel Osteen, Dr. Edward Hallowell, Grant Venerable II, Indian/Shivanada yogi/guru, Chinese Old Wisdom man from San Francisco, Fr. Bill MacLaughlin, School Principals/Professors

Variety of Shots
Travel Photos: Transportation, Cultural, Sports Championships, Water, Food, Smiles, Self, Nike Boots, All Seven Continents, Animals, Sunsets
Schools (qty15): Rim of the World (pre-school), LAE, OLQA, Harbor View Elementary, St. Roberts, Washington Elementary, John Muir Middle School, Loyola High School, Providence High School, The Bishops School, Garfield Continuation High School, JBHS, SFSU, Semester at Sea (Univ. of Pitt), University of San Diego
Houses (qty TBA): Turtle Rock, Lake Arrowhead: Castanedas,Matterhorn- Woos, near LAE???), Lake Forrest, Newport Beach: Serenade, Sandune, Port Renwick, Amethyst, Burbank: Palm, Rogers Pl, Hollywood Way, La Jolla: Mt. Soledad, Revelle, Shores, Solana Beach, Rancho Sante Fe, San Francisco (SFSU), San Diego (USD & Hummingbird Ln), San Jose, Dana Point, Alhambra
Cities: Newport Beach/Corona del Mar/Balboa Island, Lake Arrowhead, Burbank, La Jolla, San Francisco, San Jose, NYC, Washington DC, Yosemite
Nature: Sea, mountains, desert, orchards, gardens of flowers, animals, farmland, ranch.
Action: Rowing, lumberjack, cooking, dancing, sprinting, pole vaulting, rope climbing, boxing, wrestling, dunking, pitching, shooting, pottery, woodcarving, ice sculpting, landscaping, hitting, golf, dog tricks/obstacle course, mixing drinks, paitings
Spirtual Encounters: Baptism in River, Vision Quest, Maum Meditaion Completion, 10 Day Silent Retreat, Road to Santiago, yoga, tai chi, massage, singing, sleeping, preaching, chanting, Kumbh Mela

As the pistol is raised and fired in the air, as the engines continue to roar, as the wings branch out and gather, a vision is seen and felt from within, and the foundational purpose is held onto tightly, In true awe that I am in, I AM pursuing with daily committed strength to take the FULL LEAP into the unknown jungle of RVB

WE ARE WHAT WE EAT: DAY FOUR WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Just finished up eating my dinner of bulgar, french, green, yellow lentils, added steamed kale, broccoli, collard greens, and mixed it all together with olive hummus with a splash of Tapatio/lime juice on top of delicious farmers' market arugula, mustard greens and a delicious spicy guacamole created by RVB. Eat it up yummy with plenty leftovers for tomorrows public transportation adventure to Anaheim to play a hockey coach in Fox's television show "HOUSE". Living the life, creating newness, and so happy to be with all of you here sharing and opening up. I believe with faith and courage to follow through, take risk, and be my wacky Random Ryan self. Today was filled with me breaking my vow to wake up early, once again slept passed 11am, woke up at 4am or so with the TV on  spread out on the couch since I dozed off watching Rafa beat Roger in another tennis grand slam dropping the first set and taking the next three to wait for the winner in the other semi between Djokovic and Murray. Up late again this evening. The sunshine was oh so shining today as I woke up, and with an empty stomach, ran 7+ miles around Almansor Park dodging duck/geese poo, but enduring a wonderful sweat and well deserved work out. I even went back for more in the evening, but ran into trouble in the parking lot, NOOOO not local Asian thugs or a punk street gang, but nasty tree ripping divits in the sidewalk that knocked me off my feet sliding across and down BAAAAAM on the asphalt....Lawsuit here I come or at least make them fix the death traps that align their establishment. I survived, shot some photos of my growdy/war wounds, cleaned up, shaved, showered, and enjoyed some delicious food that I created in our Chapel Avenue kitchen. So how are y all feeling today? I got my first reaction to my hat at Ralphs this evening. Checker Nancy Castillo kept asking me, "So What is Your Purpose? sO what is your purpose?" I responded, "I don't know yet, but I will be back to interview since you are the FIRST person to ask me." She will be waiting with anticipation as I will return with my camera. So how do all of you eat? Morning eaters? or do you skip breakfast since you don't feel like to digest anything that early? What do all of you eat? How much water do you consume? Do you consume enough? An herbalist/dietitian once told me, take your current body weight/cut in half and that is the starting minimum number of ounces that one should be drinking/per day. How close are you to that number? Should be a lot more than that if you are entertaining yourself with lots of intense exercises. We must replenish, recoup, regain, refuel, re-stabilize, and re-energize our bodies with enough quality nutrients that can assist and maintain our daily lifestyle, Sleep, sleep, sleep and more sleep...so so so important especially deep sleep. You know what your body wants? Please don't forget to move around too, change up your day, destroy your routine way of living, hydrate yourself, be kind to your body since it is such a sacred entity that has to be treated with the utmost love and respect. Do your best to provide yourself with a consistent diet that makes you feel good. Chew more... start with 20-30/per bite(put your fork/spoon down it will help) Nancy Regan used to chew 100x..take your time since all the wonderful tastes/nutrients are deep within the chewing process and your portions will deplete once your body knows and understands how much food you are ingesting..Eat things as close to the Earth as possible. Seek out some rainbow kale, fresh persimmons, nori, honeycrisp apples in season, know and have faith in the source of your food. Take the time to see who prepares your restaurant/take out orders. Understand how long it takes for your water to get to your lips. Taste is not everything, but true blissful energizing food is so tasty. Deep breaths, smile, be cool, smile some more. Remember we are what we eat,  and what we eat creates who we are and how we feel. So continue this daily journey with me and indulge with the wealth of knowledge I possess and desire to seek. Since I am here until the end, and the end is closer than we think. I will bring us joyful harmony and growing sunsets of inspiration and enduring strength. Merci & au revoir- RVB

UNLIMITED AMOUNTS OF OPPORTUNITIES: DAY THREE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

No one has confronted me about my WHAT IS MY PURPOSE? hat. There was a foreign guy on the bus  today who I thought at first was a schitzophrenic since he was rocking out to his own inner music and making horse like movements with his teeth and mouth, but he was just dealing with the uncertainty of public transportation on the bus in the Estados Unidos (U.S.A). Therefore I concluded he was sane, an explorer like me, but I have been wearing my hat with not the most welcoming body language so it is surely something I will improve and also thinking of increasing the BOLDNESS of my font on my hat, but as of now I am going to stay with the GOUDY LIGHT fonted creation. I picked it since it had Light in it but it surely hasn't gotten the light-filled attention I expected. Tomorrow I promise to break my streak of sleeping in past 10am and will get up early and get moving where ever my day leads me. Today I did some personal filming of me brushing my teeth, showering, shaving, making a yummy smoothie. Just things to show all of you that I encounter to get me ready for my day. This is a journey from the inside out, to dig from within, open up, let go, and see where this challenge will take all of us. Would love to empower others to do the same, self evaluate, self excavate, and gain the self confidence to shine, strive, and smile with loving Light. I am filled with responsibility NOW, to reach out and preach, teach and never impeach this project. NO NO NO never conceding, I am not conceded just a confident male that loves to share, loves to make others laugh, and loves to love other loving souls that enjoy a wonderful ride of discovering, exploring, and showing the way. I possess an ADD mind..what is an ADD mind? do you have an ADD mind? A mind that dreams, a mind that crosses barriers, returns over them to find out that the path that they took wasnt the same one that they went over in the first place, but a path that the senses creates and molds and allows you to get lost in. Its a mind that sees the big picture, struggles with details, but can remember details to a tee, but forgets the obvious details. With ADD I lose things, I forget, I remember with tardiness, I stutter, I interrupt, I eat fast, my heart rate increases, I get hungry, I ask questions, I repeat myself, I write here about ADD, I get frustrated, I fail, I let go, I move on, I am an excellent starter, I wonder about wandering, I want to give up, I get drained, I over fill, I read, but I don't instill the information, I spend money spontaneously, like buy a video camera and begin a year long WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE documentary, but it is a gift, a gift where I WILL soar and succeed as creator and founder of EXPLORATION CREATIONS. Yes an empire where I will get the chance to share all my passions allowing others to be educated and opened up, hopefully bringing them the reality to discover their own purpose-filled passions. It will be an empire for all to enjoy and indulge in. An empire that will be sustained/maintained and held up by EXPLORATION ENTERTAINMENT, EXPLORATION SPORTS, EXPLORATION MUSIC, EXPLORATION ANIMALES, EXPLORATION PROPERTIES, EXPLORATION TRAVEL & EXPLORATION CENTERS....A place where I will live my purpose, believe in my purpose, and maintain my daily purpose. WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE? A wonderful deep breath fact and question that I am loyally going to discover, but we have to transform, we have to ask questions, we have to seek and soar, we have to believe and become ONE, we have to dig and get dirty, we have to connect and let go with others, we have to share and smile. we have to gather and collect knowledge, we have to create and choose happiness, and we have to get to work, working on each other with each other. A whole dedicated year of creation, no real sturdy set-in-stone plan but a vision to celebrate. Please please please when all of you arrive I encourage all of you to lift me up, utilize and abuse my abilities to the best of your ability and get on me to follow through, ignite, set the foundation for the future of all that enjoy following the curiosity of the unknown. I sit here with my red and white hat, my heart pumping with joy, with inspiration, with fear, but I vow to reach out and finally blossom with all that I have, with all that I desire to do, with all that I want to excel, and really make something of all of this, to wake up our people, to get the cause root of our energy of be productive, since it is something I MUST and WILL do, God instilled the gift of creation within me, he instilled in me a warmth and tenderness to grow and show, I have sat back too long, I have waited, I have slept, I have gave in, I have turned my head, closed my eyes, and turned my back, ENOUGH enough ENOUGH...who wants on board? who wants to contribute to celebrate a life and a world that has unlimited amounts of opportunities. Who wants into my world, who wants to lead and uplift, who wants to write, sing, cook, travel, speak up, stroll with confidence, smile wide, and discover all that you have dreamed of producing by focusing on YOU, by realizing you can do as you please with a respect and joyous feeling from the inside out, who wants to be healthy, eat amazing delicious food that will sustain a wonderful life for you and all that you pursue, who desires to understand, and open up to the world that you believe didn't/never existed, who wants to set up a foundation that will provide, inspire, and support your passion to be yourself, share love, and to be loved. Take this journey with me, reach out, share your story, really take some time to KNOW YOU, figure out what it is you truly want to do with your life, and let go...you may already be on that path, then you too come along and teach us how you got there, how you maintain your strength, and how all of us can reach your similar path. I grew up in the movies, SILENCE IS GOLDEN, right now I am golden, I AM I AM IAM, I am graciously golden and committed to break out from Alhambra, California....to rise up with all that I know and want to give, and settle down with a fierce focused international development cultural center where all of us can come together to celebrate and create our legacy. I am blessed, thankful, and grateful for this mind and body of mine. Thank you for listening and believing in me- RVB

EVERY DAY IS A NEW DAY: DAY TWO WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Being in front of the camera was stomach quenching but I felt truly at home opening up, relaying my message, and really letting loose. I did it in the confines of my current living environment that WILL change through all of this. I again sulked in bed after a long night following through with my responsibilities to this quest. I rose up around 1030 or so and for the first time put on my red WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE? hat, sat on my bed, looked up into the camera and had a go at it. Today is my papa's birthday, 65 years ago in Oak Park, Illinois Timothy Scott Buchanan was born to Lorraine Little Buchanan and Dallas Ivanoe Buchanan Sr. The fourth child of five, all that we will meet. I headed out to do some birthday shopping since we had a deadline of 200pm to jump on the bus and head north to the city of Pasadena where father and son (camera in hand) hit the bus lines to enjoy a festive day discussing family, politics, collecting, but the best part of it was we were together, best friends, enjoying the sunshine of beautiful Southern California, a place I have called home for 34.9 years (35 on Feb 17). I have journeyed to 32 countries over 260 cities but have always returned to this Golden State of Eureka. It has been a place of entertainment, the Pacific Ocean, and a sense of home for me all these years, but in order for me to live up to my true potential, I believe I have to GET OUT. Recently been doing a SWOTI (Strengths Weaknesses Opportunities Threats Instinct) analysis of locations I desire to live and on my list is Los Angeles, San Francisco (lived for 2.5 years where I attended San Francisco State University) New York City (Lived there in a past life as a boxer in Brooklyn) or overseas (Italia or Holland)...but through this new beginning in my life I HAVE to move to transform. Back to today, my dad saw Meryl Streep wow him with her role as Margaret Thatcher (IRON LADY), as my dad is a fond supporter of her conservative views and her female courage within British Parliament. I being quite the liberal, and my papa on the other side, we have always seemed to butt heads as I always come in the house and catch him on Fox News and listening to Court TV, but he is still my father. He taught me how to make a difference, serve an unstoppable tennis serve, throw a curve ball, and show thanks with a consistent smile. I have always done my best to stay close with him throughout these years. Deep down I am his CONQUERING HERO, but my welcome under his roof is done. I am 35 years old yes, and many of you might think that I should be with family on my own kids career, but only if you knew my path, my decisions, my encounters, what my senses have gone through. I HAVE LIVED, I havent been responsible, I havent been independent, I havent done it alone, but I AM HERE desiring to change and discover that stable, secure, self confident lifestyle where I can completely call my own. After the show I took my papa to Tender Greens for a yummy meal  and didnt discuss much. I want to be a better meal mate, eat more slowly, good conservation, be a light to be around, since in my mind I AM ALWAYS striving to be more communicative, being open, gracious, but I believe I attract this introvert aura around me that I have experienced much of my life at school, work, around town, around everywhere...what is it about me that I feel like an outsider? Someone that doesnt fit in with the guys..is it my eyes, my mannerisms, body language, my over-excitement, my explorer-journalistic curious type of questions?? Maybe some of you can explain to me HONESTLY...always feel I am looking in from the outside..never pursued, rarely asked questions, never called (except by my mama) but I am content, strong with desire, and on my path to create a difference with all that I have, all that I have done, and all that I plan to pursue. As I have given up drugs and alcohol, joined the vegan way of living, I am IN with WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE? and plan to get up each day and celebrate my creations. Everyday is a new day in this place we call Earth. There is a vision from within for this project, but as you can tell I am opening up here with you and committing to writing when I am able, shooting where I can create light and ideas, and moving forward within this Year of the Dragon. Thank you as I am grateful for this opportunity to share and be myself here with y all. I am a writer, I am giver, I am a motivator, I love to sing...I want to be a singer, and I am an explorer at heart. Love to you all and may you take this journey with me and always strive to be yourself with your unique loving gifts. GoodNight but NEVER good- bye...Time to go sing Happy Birthday for my papa a long day for the birthday boy ending it at the Pasadena Playhouse taking the ride through ART...Time to take my art-filled creative mind to bed. Besos- RVB

THE BEGINNING TO THE REST OF MY LIFE: DAY ONE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

2012 THE YEAR OF THE DRAGON- A year of PROACTIVE COMMITMENT. I have finally courageously put my foot down, broken through some major commitment fears, and have decided to create a year long documentary called "WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?" Today is the beginning to the rest of my life as I plan to adventure into my artistic creative spectrum and truly begin a path that will be filled of amazing discovery of who I am, why I am here on Earth and allow others to celebrate the reality of honest living. There will be honorable obstacles along the way that I am willing and able to face.  I encourage and expect many others to join my quest along my side in facing their own fears of letting go from what is within. There is so much planning and doing that lies ahead and honestly I am scared, but I AM way over due to fight onward and make some wonderful strong decisions/commitments in my life. I possess amazing wonderful gifts and passion, but I WILL DO MY BEST to continue my self excavation and allow others into my inspiring world of the unknown, taking risks, and developing productive success. What is success? How does one excel? Listen & Learn. Enjoy the Journey. Patient Understanding. Fierce Focus. Do more and do some more. Fruitful Faith. Live To Give. So what does this path entail? Where will we all go? Where will this all lead us? How will we create positive long lasting results? The Daily Grind? Wake up with Wisdom. Euphoric Excitement. Sunshine Smilin. DreamSweet. It all begins NOW....a new beginning for me RVB. Time to blossom, open up to all, create my empire. Yes my empire EXPLORATION CREATIONS...the mothership that teaches, inspires, enables, motivates others by sharing and showing with style. Have contemplated for years where to begin and how to begin. Have to know WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE? I plan to get out beyond the city limits, re-discover the family dinner table, continue to meditate, practice yoga, rediscover my voice, write with vigor here with y'all, walk the El Camino de Santiago, complete Maum Meditation, travel the world spreading my joy hoping to return to all 7 continents by reaching out to the world and understanding the passions and purposes that lie beyond the eye can see. I am truly honored and grateful to have the opportunity to take this huge step in my life by following a path that I feel is right and will allow me to let go of what lies within, and open up the gifted gates that await to shine. I am filled with unlimited amounts of beautiful potential as my passions of music, sports, film, animals, cultural and so much more bliss, provides me with the spirit and fire to create anything I desire to do, but WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE? I want to thank all of you that have believed in me and have discovered me here. I am here for you too. To advise, support, and guide you along my/OUR journey to understand the abilities and gifts we possess. Where will this journey take us? How will we get there? What lies ahead? Who will we meet along the way? Take a deep breath with me. Come on.... IN YOUR NOSE and OUT YOUR NOSE. Close your eyes and visualize your path. Where are you NOW? Where do you desire to soar? I will be here as much as I can and will keep you updated with all that I pursue this year. The following are some highlights and plans of what I want to shoot/film during this uplifting/transforming year of the dragon.

Segments
-Back to the Dinner Table (Throughout the Year)-  Re-Unite with Extended Family by cooking and celebrating a meal with them in Southern California/Northern California, Colorado, Vermont, Boston, Washington DC, North Carolina, Boston, American Samoa, New York City
-Chinese New Year Parade in San Francisco (February 11th San Francisco) Interview Local Cultural Chinese Icon Explaining The Year of the Dragon
-Vision Quest in Texas (Wally & Glenda)
-Complete Maum Meditation in Korea- Interview Woo Myung (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Woo_Myung)  & Won Beck (LA)
-10 Day Silent Meditation in Thailand (http://www.suanmokkh-idh.org/)
-Complete the Road to Santiago
-Re-Visit and Shoot all Past Family Homes(22) /Schools (15)/Neighborhoods and interview current teachers, parents, principals, directors, citizens etc...
-Visit Ireland & Holland (Discover Family Roots) Interview Fr. Bill (Baptized me in Newport Beach resides in Ireland) discover family in Holland visit with locals in both countries.
-Move Out of my Living Environment (Within LA or SF, NYC or abroad) continue analysis of where the best place for me to live
-EXPLORATION CREATIONS BUSINESS PLAN COMPLETED
-UnPacking My Life in Boxes- "Organizing all my Images"
-Participate in the Kumbh Mela in India (February 10, 2013)- 
"The Largest Pilgrimage on Earth" http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kumbh_Mela
-Surface the Streets with WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?  
-Interview cultural icons, celebrities, musicians, athletes, spiritual advisors, common folk
-Face my Struggling Battle with ADD- Interview Dr. Edward Hallowell (Hallowell Center)
-Spiritual Empowerment- Interview Dr. Michael Bernard Beckwith (Agape International)
-Enable your Passions- Interview Bing Gordon (Founder EA Sports)


ITEMS I DESIRE & WANT IN ORDER TO COMPLETE THIS DOCUMENTARY
-FRIENDLY/PROFESSIONAL SUPPORT
-CAMERAS (bought HandyCam HDR-XR160 today) want more professional one to rent or borrow
-MICROPHONES (will go to sound house on Wednesday)
-LIGHTS for interviews and internal low light locations (dinner tables etc...)
-TRAVELING BACKPACK for Road to Santiago AND other Travels
-AIRPLANE FLIGHTS to Destinations
-GREAT EDITOR
-GREAT MUSIC
-BEAUTIFUL LIGHT, COSTUME, MAKE UP
-CREATIVE COLLABORATORS
POSITIVE FOCUSED DISTRIBUTION
-PREMIERE AT BIG NEWPORTER in Fashion Island Newport Beach, California USA
-CURIOUS CONTRIBUTIONS
-FILM FESTIVAL CONNECTIONS
-CONTRIBUTIONS OF ANY KIND (monetary, time, equipment)
-GOOD EASY SLATE
-CONSISTENT PRAYERS & FAITH
-NEW HOME
-WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE BUSINESS CARDS/RED JACKET

DAY 1 was a HUGE day for me contemplating in bed until 12pm about even pursuing this visionary action. No set plan or rules, but a vision of DOING and CREATING a finished product of the unknown as of NOW. Keep coming back here please and share with me your vision, your passions, and know it is up to you and only you to take the action. Japanese proverb states, "Vision without action is a daydream, and action without vision is a nightmare." My daydream is behind me, my nightmare begins. Keep striving, smilin and believing in YOU...and keep reaching out about
WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?- RVB