GLORIOUS SMILE: DAY NINE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

The art of productive and proactive progress is surely a feat and action that has to include desire (not always of course), creativity, and a willingness to transform. In the past years I have made it a point for myself to engage in the education and discovery of newness to move progressively. I focused on my mental/physical health, a visionary career path, and to strive forward within a world that I find full of wonderment. As I sit and ponder, there is so much more that I have to, and WILL excel in and pursue full force. At the moment I lack security, stability, and a structural base that I have full confidence in. My self esteem is adequate (always room for improvement) and believe I could be doing so much much MORE. One of my big downfalls is the self guilt I  hold onto with things I started in the past, but didn't complete. I feel in my mind that I still have an obligation to see them to the end. Projects like EXPLORATION the Movie, INDY COWBOY, CHAMPIONS' ROAD etc...Maybe they will come to Light, but I have to prioritize with what I have TODAY. Take my daily choices, do the actions I want to do, and feel good about my accomplishments. For this project should I lay down a daily action plan? Probably YES! Will I, when will I, and how will I make sure it happens? I was once told ADD is a chemical imbalance. Within my ADD mind my brain travels through a disarray of emotions of ups and down, while increasing excitement and throwing you around the guilt wagon. How many out there understand what I go through each day? How many believe what I say or just think I am Mr. Excuse and that ADD is just a condition the medical field conjured up to see high powered overpriced Amphetamines/Anti-Depressants? I honestly struggle everyday on this roller coaster. Focus, Distraction, Memory, Priority, Losing, Forgetting, Draining, Frustration, a world of here2there, and then returning back not knowing where to start again.  Everywhere & everyday. Running and sweating has been a true lifesaver. Am I chemically imbalanced? An amazing beautiful soul told me NO once. I feel an imbalance, a physical one, a direct/instant change on the spot, night&day, but have learned the hard way, doing my best to not repeat mistakes, taking it slow, playing it simple, and engaging myself in activities that bring me peace, forgiveness, patience, understanding, and awareness for where I want to go. I want to do what I say & think for a change. ADD is a beautiful loving efficient gift. I know my capabilities and all the possibilities it brings forth upon me. Through this year I have to re-organize, throw away, let go, and re-build my structure that will allow me and all that surrounds me to be empowered to make a difference in all that I do, in all that I believe in, and all that I choose to spend my quality time on. Have to get out of Alhambra, have to create a home just for me, have to mold and shape an ongoing career, and have to build up a circle of support that can rise with me by my side. Positive Perseverance with a mind set of Productive Proud Pleasure with Pride. My glorious smile shines from sea to shining sea each and every day. I spread my sunshine and will continue on until I can completely feel free. There is so much more to celebrate in this wonderful world, so many places and people to discover and learn. I am so filled with the ambition and eager anxiousness  to get going, create my dreaming vision of providing and teaching within a place of educational worship where others can attend and discover that there dreams too like mine, are more than possible. That they can actually live them, and live them brightly, establishing a legacy that will uplift others. So this project is a continuing graceful movement of letting go, unraveling, letting more go, then taking these new discoveries/passions/dreams, and bringing them into a world that desires to live as ONE with a joy-filled harmony that we all can enjoy and prosper. SleepWell- RVB