EVERY DAY IS A NEW DAY: DAY TWO WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Being in front of the camera was stomach quenching but I felt truly at home opening up, relaying my message, and really letting loose. I did it in the confines of my current living environment that WILL change through all of this. I again sulked in bed after a long night following through with my responsibilities to this quest. I rose up around 1030 or so and for the first time put on my red WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE? hat, sat on my bed, looked up into the camera and had a go at it. Today is my papa's birthday, 65 years ago in Oak Park, Illinois Timothy Scott Buchanan was born to Lorraine Little Buchanan and Dallas Ivanoe Buchanan Sr. The fourth child of five, all that we will meet. I headed out to do some birthday shopping since we had a deadline of 200pm to jump on the bus and head north to the city of Pasadena where father and son (camera in hand) hit the bus lines to enjoy a festive day discussing family, politics, collecting, but the best part of it was we were together, best friends, enjoying the sunshine of beautiful Southern California, a place I have called home for 34.9 years (35 on Feb 17). I have journeyed to 32 countries over 260 cities but have always returned to this Golden State of Eureka. It has been a place of entertainment, the Pacific Ocean, and a sense of home for me all these years, but in order for me to live up to my true potential, I believe I have to GET OUT. Recently been doing a SWOTI (Strengths Weaknesses Opportunities Threats Instinct) analysis of locations I desire to live and on my list is Los Angeles, San Francisco (lived for 2.5 years where I attended San Francisco State University) New York City (Lived there in a past life as a boxer in Brooklyn) or overseas (Italia or Holland)...but through this new beginning in my life I HAVE to move to transform. Back to today, my dad saw Meryl Streep wow him with her role as Margaret Thatcher (IRON LADY), as my dad is a fond supporter of her conservative views and her female courage within British Parliament. I being quite the liberal, and my papa on the other side, we have always seemed to butt heads as I always come in the house and catch him on Fox News and listening to Court TV, but he is still my father. He taught me how to make a difference, serve an unstoppable tennis serve, throw a curve ball, and show thanks with a consistent smile. I have always done my best to stay close with him throughout these years. Deep down I am his CONQUERING HERO, but my welcome under his roof is done. I am 35 years old yes, and many of you might think that I should be with family on my own kids career, but only if you knew my path, my decisions, my encounters, what my senses have gone through. I HAVE LIVED, I havent been responsible, I havent been independent, I havent done it alone, but I AM HERE desiring to change and discover that stable, secure, self confident lifestyle where I can completely call my own. After the show I took my papa to Tender Greens for a yummy meal  and didnt discuss much. I want to be a better meal mate, eat more slowly, good conservation, be a light to be around, since in my mind I AM ALWAYS striving to be more communicative, being open, gracious, but I believe I attract this introvert aura around me that I have experienced much of my life at school, work, around town, around everywhere...what is it about me that I feel like an outsider? Someone that doesnt fit in with the guys..is it my eyes, my mannerisms, body language, my over-excitement, my explorer-journalistic curious type of questions?? Maybe some of you can explain to me HONESTLY...always feel I am looking in from the outside..never pursued, rarely asked questions, never called (except by my mama) but I am content, strong with desire, and on my path to create a difference with all that I have, all that I have done, and all that I plan to pursue. As I have given up drugs and alcohol, joined the vegan way of living, I am IN with WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE? and plan to get up each day and celebrate my creations. Everyday is a new day in this place we call Earth. There is a vision from within for this project, but as you can tell I am opening up here with you and committing to writing when I am able, shooting where I can create light and ideas, and moving forward within this Year of the Dragon. Thank you as I am grateful for this opportunity to share and be myself here with y all. I am a writer, I am giver, I am a motivator, I love to sing...I want to be a singer, and I am an explorer at heart. Love to you all and may you take this journey with me and always strive to be yourself with your unique loving gifts. GoodNight but NEVER good- bye...Time to go sing Happy Birthday for my papa a long day for the birthday boy ending it at the Pasadena Playhouse taking the ride through ART...Time to take my art-filled creative mind to bed. Besos- RVB