RELATIONSHIPS: DAY TWO HUNDRED FIFTY SIX WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

The way I have lived, how I was taught to deal with the life that I was dealt, and what I have witnessed within the feelings of others, I have surely dealt myself a wide variety of crazy loving emotions within the encounters that I have endured so far. I have always loved to get attention through affection and curious asking questions by others that are willing to give and receive. There is always room for improvement within my interpersonal skills. I strive to be more grounded and create a respectful circle of friends. I have never in my life been able to establish a trusting brotherhood that can share, support, and love unconditionally and allow me to be there for them. Since I am a floating dreaming traveling non clicked circling thinker that draws in during times of despair, my friendships through the years have surely lacked depth. My constant moving up and down the Southern California coast and counties surely didn’t help in my pursuit of gathering up loyal troops in my corner. That surely means it is not too late to create that ongoing desiring friendly love within a group of inspiring and thoughtful individuals. I just think that I have to work on me first by making some major choices of where I want to be, how I want to pursue my life, and exactly understand the types of souls that I wish to surround this deserving transformation. I have been through four divorces, but never married which have taught me the importance of patience and the respect of this two family unifying sacrament that should be made with the power and beauty of integrity, openness, ongoing curiosity, adaptability, wiliness, yumminess, loving passion, eye2eye understanding, and the ability of creating oneness. The sustainability of RELATIONSHIPS (business, family, intimate, community etc…) is always an ongoing test for many. Through all what I have been through so far and encountered; failures, triumphs, third wheel, efficient, ineffective etc.. the success of quality bonding with others is all about communication, creativity, and compassion. Getting through to someone efficiently with clear understanding, respect, and the ability to listen, is important to the ongoing progress. If you can always discover new creative strategies to keep the spark alive it will provide both parties involved a constant feeling of hope to look forward to and an enjoyable energy to experience. Without an admiration and equal acceptance of the other party/half, it surely is difficult to establish a growing confidence moving forward and allow everyone involved a chance to excel to the best of their abilities. We cannot reach our full potential alone. So face your fears. Let go and overcome the depriving past by being cautiously aware and true to you. Forgive me for My Faults, My Choices, My Insecurities, My Big Mouth, My Selfishness…...

LIVING ENVIRONMENT: DAY TWO HUNDRED FIFTY FIVE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Honestly and seriously never in my life have I felt at home. A packed suitcase always ready to be made in less than 30 minutes for that next far away adventure or other parent visit. Every other weekend childhood shotgun passenger through the Southern California Friday freeway rush hour crush with a silenced Sunday stroll back up the mountain, towards the sea, down the Pacifc Surfrider rail, always returning to a wall decorated room that shared my passions or pictures of dreamed up wishes of leaving soon.  I am loved safely with quality sleep running water and great warm showered pressured, but never my own.  Not yet at least. How will my life change when I surrender to that independent dwelling just for me? How important is it for the future of my progress? Where will I end up? How can I provide the stability and security that I desire? What have I done to provide that reality? I believe in the power of visualization. Having faith in your ability to create all that you want is all for the taking. When one establishes a sense of home and a home base that inspires and grounds the soul, a freedom that empowers and relieves will disembark into a hopeful promising light . I admire the powerful mysterious sea breeze and the scent of mountain top trees. A sharing musical city life with a place of solitude and self worth is somewhere that makes me smile. Friendly open sharing neighbors that can cook and take risk with my cooking surely spark my interest to change where I live. Where we choose to reside and play sets the stage of how we begin to continue, or how we begin to start a new beginning. I just know I have to change my LIVING ENVIRONMENT or I will never ever be the man or person I know I am willing to be, and the leader that is within me. How is the flow within your home? Quality Light? Tasty Food? Inspiring Tunes? Optimistic Thoughts?  Creative Love? Quiet Sleep? Sunny Fun?

   

CAREER PATH: DAY TWO HUNDRED FIFTY FOUR WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I am one who grew up on ball fields with a stat filled geography mind for the people with a historic curiosity adventuring across vast seas with animalistic senses respecting all creations with an engrained cinematic musical ear and heart. There were childhood dreams and passions of entertaining with competitive stories or standing up for those that are victimized in cases that occur because of greed or disrespectful selfishness. My crossroad has been crossed, re-crossed, and at times feel lost prancing deerlike here and there fiercely focused on course at times, but way too many hours spent motionlessly caved in with a channel surfing changing television that glares distraction all around me with finished box of a Wheat Thins by my side. There are celebrated gifts to be unwrapped and given to others that await my glory to be honored with greatness. When will they arise through all the disorganized disarray and be grounded within me and all that I am capable of pursuing? What choices in my life have allowed me to be in this current situation? I have no regrets. There is pain, but so much promise. Accomplishments have been made with more ahead, but I have to stand up strong and commit to a planned and dedicated path that is realistically reachable and still challenging enough for me to transform and soar. My passions of music, sports, film, travel, animals are such a part of me. My early days of being the lawful sportscaster dreamer still lingers, as I love to compete, sweat, research, and pursue the passion of justice for others. Yes I am getting older, struggle with the mental sensory distraction of life, but there are so many moons in front of me to blossom. The self pressure is overwhelming, the guilt of non-completion, and my habits of waiting until tomorrow hold me back. I am so much better than what I choose to do. My CAREER PATH is always on my mind, just wished it was straighter and not so circular and confusing. When will you begin to write and become a daily writer like Gordie LaChance? Stand By Me please. Share your story through your passions. Tap into your true skills and gifts. Do what pleases your happiness. Complete and follow through what you started. Fight through the guilt, seek advice, and do what you dream and believe in. Don’t crutch yourself while depriving the world of who you are. Your heart may hurt, but take that heartfelt dream and overcome your pain NOW.   

PHYSICAL HEALTH: DAY TWO HUNDRED FIFTY THREE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

The ongoing flow of inspiring and motivating energy that allows you to stay open and optimistic with a confident clarity that will provide promise and a fury faith of loving liberty in your life for a lifetime is a constructive challenge to consistently conquer. There is a base foundation that we all deserve and it must be understood from within. Thanks to Ironman woman PE coaching teacher Leslie Skow that rocked my world with pull ups BMI ratings reaching out flexibility crossed armed certified Army sit ups while I lastly feared from behind everyone and sighed running the mile never under 9 minutes, but created the essence and power of muscle memory in my fitness journey. Where does your health stand in your daily grind? How is your water intake? Define diet? What nutrients do you gather in your body? How do you feel when you wake up in the morning? Does exercise exist in your mind? Can you push yourself to sweat? The importance of a respected awareness of your body and how it works is such a vital part of who we are, where we are going in life, and the opportunities that await our committed drive. So many of us in our indulge, surrender, and give in to the destructive world of tasty saturated buttery sugary yummy goodness that build bulging rolls, added chins, and hips that stretch out wide starting from our thighs. There must be a sense of educating control and the ability to be good to oneself through a well balanced lifestyle that includes hydration, some kind of exercising movement, quality sleep, and a diet that is not depriving but all that you are and eat. Before one can grasp a sense of goodness through their PHYSICAL HEALTH, one must believe they can provide for themselves in a progressive living and working environment that they can maintain what their mind and bodies desire. Through fighting weight, fat cells, insecurities, roller coaster Hollywood, endurance, sugar, I have endured in self experiments, cleanses, and extensive transformation in a lifestyle where I am a sober vegan. It is a daily dedicated commitment that I happily choose to live. Discover what brings your happiness, provides your ongoing replenishing inertia, and allows you a pursuit of a wonderful loving life that is full of abundance. Stop making excuses, stop giving into manmade medicines, drink your H20, sweat a little, and believe in your choices. A fair chance is a good start. It is never too late please