GETTING ATTENTION: ONE HUNDRED FOUR WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Throughout my life I have always shined under pressure while enjoying the mix up of what I have been dealt with, offered, and chose to do with my days. There have been many a wasted staying in bed, in front of the TV, and avoiding responsibility, but recollecting on ALL that I have seen and done I proudly can say I HAVE LIVED, ENDURED, and continue to BELIEVE in what I am doing. I am extremely hard on myself in many different ways, but strive to carve out a niche for myself SOON in order to lead a life that can make a difference in others. When I was young I was always provided homes with hope, love, care, support, and opportunity. I have YES parents that have always showed ME that they are by my side  in amazing ways, but deep down I would hope that they would have been more hard on ME then I myself. More encouragement, more "NOs you should do this, OR YOU ARE GOING TO DO THIS BECAUSE OF THIS," meaning from a young age I was given the power of choice. When times were not going well for me at a school I would tell them I was done with it, and move on, or when I changed jobs and came back home to live they opened up their doors. Don't get me wrong I deeply appreciate these acts since I was in a bind and things weren't going well for me at the time, but I believe I have had it TOO EASY, and wish I wouldn't have been given these options, resulting in me being a little tougher, clever, and independent. Hope you understand what I am saying. I wish NOW I was on my own, with family, creating a life of my own, in my own house, with a car, career, striving and thriving forward with someone and something serious. I have chosen the path of travel, sports, background, meditation, and in my mind takin it easy in life. Today I am going to make the excuse and call this period in my life the investigation/research segment in order to venture out on my own and create a worthy empire where I can service others and share my passions with them in order to discover their own. I desire to be in a spotlight where I can shine with delight every day ALL day taking action towards common goals with common folk that are superb and are willing to celebrate their own gifts with me. When, How, Where will I put my foot down and make the lifelong commitment of no longer avoiding my true responsibility of making it happen for myself. What is my calling? People strive in life for different intentions. Some are self serving to make them overcome all their insecurities. Early in my life I was not insecure, currently I AM due to the fact of not taking the actions I desire to move forward with while not providing myself that things I deserve. It will only take some key decisions in my life to wipe away my fears and allow me to really BE ME, the true me one with the universe, serving the people, and living life to the best of MY ABILITY. Only if you knew what my mind endures, all that I think about, all that I vision, and all I am willing to do. There is NO ONE out there like me, just like that there is NO ONE out there like you, we are all unique in our own ways, but ALL ONE in the same soul. So what will I do next for my desiring attention? I will continue to make others laugh, inspire others to seek and soar, and give them hope beyond the eye can see, but I MUST and I ILL focus on my quest of being a responsible loving strong independent MAN of the PEOPLE- rvb