DEEP BREATH MOVEMENT: DAY THIRTY SIX WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

The feeling and strength of a fresh new breath of pure loving cool oxygen can travel to places that you never thought it could reach if you send it to those around the corner inside body crevasses. Enrich your life with a closed eye through your nose (HOLD  IT a beat) and theeeeeen out your nose slowly visualizing the sweet flow through your chest, mind, nostrils, and then out into your world filled with WHAAAAT? How do you lead your day? What do you present yourself with? What choices do you make? How do you react? What pressure do you put upon yourself? How do think you manage? Ever allow your breath to lead you throughout your day? Ever recognize its power and path? The smiling breath that glistens through our bodies is such an amazing discovery where one can fly and flow along our own personal path. It can make you smile, tear up, keep you going, bring you down, and even make you deeply recollect. It does take just a blink/glimpse of your space to realize/notice it. Enjoy a long slow inhale/exhale or even experiment with the powerful quick bursting/cleaning fire BREATH. Focus on your core/diaphragm in and out for three minutes quickly with vigor with your eyes closed gently. Be free, let go, and explore all the parameters of your BREATH. Welcome Accept and Introduce it with a delightful respectful love where it can develop and blossom in a world it can provide such sweet relaxing bliss. Listen and Learn from its smoothness. Smile sexy when it flows from head 2 toe. Yes yes yes so breathless, full of breath, breathe into me please please oh so please. The Breath of Life full of life just for you and me. Take some time timeless travels where it can go. How long can you hold it? Make a wish through an open tunnel, blow it out over your birthday cake. Don't take its sunshine flow for granted, just breathe, aaaaaaaaaaawwwwww si si si. Our Breathe Breathing Away or can I take it away?- RVB

PASSIONATE HEART: DAY THIRTY FIVE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Understanding and visualizing how our bodies work, move and flow, is so important to realize the strength and potential our souls possess. It is a must to educate yourself and have the passion to seek the truth of how we can survive in the challenging physical world we strive to be healthy in. For years I fought fat cells, and still do due, but through my diet, mental state, attitude, and exercise I have created a daily life that is filled with enormous amounts of ongoing energy. As we get older and our metabolism slows down, our bodies fight us more and more, taking more time/energy to keep the flow going. In fifth grade I was introduced to Leslie Skow (Ironman triathlete) that taught me about the body, and how one can become fit from inside out. You have to be good to yourself with a well balanced diet (what you eat everyday), consistent exercise regiment, quality sleep, and please stay hydrated. To completely rid yourself of all the toxins, stress, and ingested non-sense we fill ourselves each and every day, seek out places to sweat, stretch, scream, dance, dive, divide, detox, but have a focus on your HEART. Keep a positive loving flow of how you think, eat, and spend your time throughout the day. There are a a wide variety of wonderful things you can do for your HEART and blood that flows/retreats to/from it. Place your hand on it or put your cheek/ear on someones chest and hear it take action. Truly realize and take the similar action of staying on course with intentions that have meaning with ongoing results. This year for me is all about HEART, following through while DOING what I say I WILL DO, and then go ahead and do some more. I am going to lay down all that I have and explode with pure joy/confidence with some drastic transformation. I just have to keep my vision clear of distractions and keep my inspiring motivation blasting away. So please please have a HEART to discover YOUR HEART while utilizing that HEART with some HEART while seeking out my HEART with HEART-FELT actions- RVB

FAVORITES: DAY THIRTY FOUR WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

You know when you are in the stage of seeking someone's true soul, intentions, or passionate interests in life you ask them, "What is your favorite time to do this or what is your favorite way to do that or even your favorite time of the day to really enjoy life to the fullest. I ask favorites to many people I meet all over the place. On set at work in holding waiting for my favorite time of the day to go to craft service, or on the bus heading to my favorite type of exercise or I even recollect to myself singing my favorite song. Throughout the years I have asked so many favorite questions and answered them that I wanted to create a favorite list that comes to mind at this very moment of the night. Enjoy.

FAVORITE COLOR: when I was young it was RED since I was filled with a determined temper and ambitious heart, but now I love BLUE, lover of the sea and endless skies of wonder.

FAVORITE ANIMAL: I am so part WOLF striving to bring my family back together, surviving all that I am, with a mysterious, loving mind that thrives to create a progressive pack.

FAVORITE MUSICIAN/SONG: When the movie Running on Empty  came there was a beautiful birthday seen with River, Martha, Judd, Christine, and little Harry (character's name) and as everyone cleaned up after dinner  JAMES TAYLOR came on the radio playing his guitar singing FIRE AND RAIN. The movie ending goodbye finally letting go River's character to Juilliard, ended with the same uniting song in my heart. It made me realize the beauty of  celebration, creation, and the existence of the voice. My mom took me to my first concert at the Universal Amphitheatre where I saw JAMES TAYLOR play that song alone in front of thousands of people. We ended the night back stage with him, the shyest man I have ever met, but so humble @ peace. Through the years I have seen him many times and even wrote a part for him in my movie EXPLORATION. I have read his bio and found out that FIRE AND RAIN was written after he discovered a close friend of his named Suzanne committed suicide. Call me up sometime I will sing it for you.

FAVORITE CITIES (one on each continent): copy & paste websites
North America: NEW YORK CITY- was a boxer from Brooklyn in the 1920s. Energy like no other.
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South America: BUENOS AIRES-BocaBocaBocaJuniors in La Bombonera con choripan, Quilmes y spoonful de dulce de leche v. River Plate. Can't beat that mis amigos.
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Africa:  LUXOR- leaving this ancient city sailing on the Nile on a traditional fulluca was majestic.
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Asia: SAGION- arriving with the sunrise up the Saigon River then eating fruit deep into the Mekong Delta instilled in me a deep gratitude and appreciation of what all US the men and women service people had to endure during those challenging and trying times. Most importantly though how the surviving locals have stayed strong being proactively progressive in overcoming and living with a welcoming accepting forgiving souls.
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Europe: ROMA- Just walking around the corner after eating fresh tiramisu made out of ice cream and discovering Piazza Venezia. A sight out of this world.
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Australia: COOLANGATA- The only I have been in the world that had the feel of Southern California,
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Antarctica: WHALERS BAY/DECEPTION POINT: Man made resort created by the crew of the Bark Europa (www.barkeuropa,com) where volcanic thermal waters from within the Earth surfaced and provided a jacuzzi within the sands. It was so hot that there was Southern Sea water trailed in to provide manageable waters to enjoy living the resort life at the bottom of the world.
http://www.ronwalker.org/antarctica/graphics/bath.jpg

FAVORITE MOVIE: STAND BY ME- Truly love the quest to discover the unknown with adventure. Never had a true circle of friends to gather up and explore together.

FAVORITE CAR: ACURA NSX-  Was introduced to this car in the early 1990s in one of the first computer games I ever played Gran Torino...Love how it glides and the power it packs under its hood.
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FAVORITE FLOWER: Discover a LILY sleeping or shining near a lily pad graced with a sweet candy smell and make sure to share or give its sweetness to another or let it be so ALL can enjoy its loving presence.

FAVORITE SPORT TO PLAY: Hours and Hours of mastering my Birdesque long range shot or in the post moves on the block on the BASKETBALL court.

FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH LIVE: Tough decision but surely nothing like the anticipated roaring popular fans energy watching an international FUTBOL/SOCCER event in Argentina, Italy or even here in the US.

FAVORITE SOURCE OF EXERCISE: After almost 8 years of dedicated progressive focused core strengthening, there isn't any post-practice/exercise energy I enjoy more that how I feel leaving or completing a YOGA class:

FAVORITE BEVERAGE: Growing up in the mountains of Lake Arrowhead and tasting the fresh sweet crisp WATER right out of the tap had me hooked since I was a toddler. The most important liquid you can ingest. Please find a way to get it into your daily life.

FAVORITE DANCE: Even though I have never put myself in a circle to celebrate the Cuban traditional  RUEDA de CASINO type of salsa, it is surely a sight to see and feel in action.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQhbCjPcQEY



PLEASE ASK ME SOME FAVORITE QUESTIONS:

These are just a few of mine that I adore.- RVB

AT THE MOVIES: DAY THIRTY THREE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Once when I was close to five my papa brought home the Stephen King story/film of Cujo into my night. I remember a lot of rented VHS horror movies that lingered up in the mountains of Lake Arrowhead. Cujo scared me so much that I decided to sneak into my papa's bedroom and sleep on the floor at the base of his bed, but he decided to growl like a dog throughout the night to keep the suspense alive and force me sleep scared hot with the covers over more head. During those days to fight the fear of those movies he would tell me it was all "Smoke & Mirrors." That there were numerous men and women behind the camera creating the art of film. Once I realized the beauty of truth behind movie making I was hooked. It was a time where movies were focusing on the dramatic growth of relationships and action adventures. John Hughes was writing away, 1980s comedies were flourishing, and I was in the thick of getting myself to the movies to let go and free my mind of all the distraction that was going on in my life. I eventually struck gold moving to Newport Beach,California and having the wonderful accessibility to the BIG NEWPORTER. It was a theatre run by the EDWARDS family that was a well established huge chain of movies that was all about the experience. When I was first introduced to the BIG NEWPORTER it consisted of two theatres. There was a small one and then there was the mothership of all movie celebrations. A theatre that had long open carpeted rows with red-plush seats, and an open air feeling that on any given day would announce to you that you have ARRIVED. A welcoming accepting presence that filled you with the eager anxious excitement that once the lights went down, you were in for an unforgettable treat. At the time George Lucas had just introduced THX. You know that company that presents itself once the lights go down and really lets you hear what the surround-sound of sounds is truly like. That SSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRR AAAAAWWWWWWWWW  in your face WAAAAKE THE F UP type of sound. The screen was the largest screen west of the Mississippi at the time and I was 7 years old with an imagination and awareness like no other. It was a free space to just be me, RVB,and enjoy films like TOP GUN. AMADEUS, ROCKY IV, GOONIES, STAND BY ME, LAST STARFIGHTER, BACK TO THE FUTURE, and INDIANA JONES & THE TEMPLE OF DOOM (first PG-13 movie since Indy witnesses Mola Ram pull out a guy's heart through his chest) and many more. I loved Temple of Doom and Back of Future saw them both 20+ times, Amadeus 14x (used to stand up and conduct (knew all the motions/Mozart's creations), and Top Gun 10+ (unreal sound and fighterjet scenes). In the very front of the theatre there was a 3 feet high maybe 12 feet wide carpeted stage that was used for presentations I assumed. Since the theatre was so large and long no one ever would sit in the first 20 rows. Except on Friday for opening night of ROCKY IV (intensity & tension USA v. USSR). But when the showing's attendance was down I would creep to the first row, and then crawl out onto the stage, lay down like a snow angel and just open myself up into the screen. Watching Maverick dog fights against Russian MIGs, the Goonies running away from the Fratellis, or Rocky's jab vs. Ivan Drago was a feeling that will never be imitated. You have to try it to feel/understand it. When I first began going to the BIG NEWPORTER my mother would pack me a small lunch that I would sneak in (fruit, cookies, sandwich, drink, candy) under my shirt or in a backpack. When the movie was completed I would sneak behind the classic thick red curtain that protected the infamous screen and wait for the next film to begin before I sneaked back into the seats. I think I got away with that trick once or twice until Marco, the Mexican employee from Santa Ana, caught me and told me that I didn't have to hide from him or anyone. He introduced me to the freedom of facing your passions, no matter how long you want to spend doing it. Marco was the gatekeeper to my film world at the BIG NEWPORTER. At the door though he took a small fee of 1.00 DOLLAR, and my commitment/rent to assist with the clean up between each showings when I was up for it. There was also unlimited amounts of fresh buttered popped in your face popcorn that I would load up in a drink carton box, and delicious cold soothing CocaCola products. I was in heaven, free range of the place, allowing me to be inspired, and giving me the opportunity to understand the love of film creation. Wonderful stories, adventures, history, love, comedy, adventure, drama, all presented to me on a one of a kind screen, in the state-of-the-art theatre where in the back rows the seats would recline (unheard of back then). Most of the time during the day there was barely anyone there. I could stand up, run around, yell, stretch, and completely fall in love with movies. I am going to premiere this movie at the BIG NEWPORTER and come full circle with my admiration of the arts. I even got to see my face at on the screen at the BIG NEWPORTER during the 12 midnight premiere showing of Angels & Demons. I  cried my blue Irish eyes out never thinking I would ever see my own face on that screen. This was a place where I would leave at the door all my fears, all my outside/homelife anger and be free. Thank you Marco for being so loving and understanding of my passion and opening up my world of cinema. Thanks to the Edwards family for creating a space that truly pleased my soul and gave me the gifts of enjoyment. I love that it still exists and I can return to it like I just walked through the doors. Now, all the seats recline, but there is still the small carpeted stage, the empty first 20+rows, and the plush red curtain that introduces all eager/desired patrons the wide massive screen that is like no other that I have ever felt and never will. It is going to be an amazing night or day when I stand tall and proud to present WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE? to all my loved ones and all that arrives into the BIG NEWPORTER to enjoy my Year of the Dragon journey. I can't wait. IT WILL happen. I wonder howmuct it would cost to rent out during the day and watch Mozart conduct Don Giovanni, Tom Cruise, Anthony Edwards, Meg Ryan and Kelly McGinnis sing "Great Balls of Fire" Harrison Ford & Kate Capshaw get drenched with water by an Indian Elephant, or see Michael J. Fox with Christopher Lloyd go back in time with Hewey Lewis & Biff. Being at the movies for me is always a home. A place to release and surrender, a loving space where I can relate, be educated, and celebrate the beauty of living. RVB

FACE YOUR GREATNESS TODAY: DAY THIRTY TWO WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I believe many of us know, understand, and believe in the gifts that we possess, but the biggest fear we all have is the fear of being GOD. Meaning the fear of being great. Facing your gifts, giving them the undivided focus that they deserve, and truly create a spirit that is grand. So many of us don't manifest our true potential. So many of us live to survive and not live to be free or give. We have to LET GO and LET BE of who we truly are. Deep down I know what I am capable of doing and creating. What I am filled with is (YES) fear, excuses, distractions/vices, but I have the desire to break them down and overcome all that I am faced with, and put complete focus on what I was brought to Earth to celebrate. Too many of us give in to what we are expected to do or what our traditions tell us to follow and completely deprive our souls of letting be and giving one another the true greatness that we are. We ALL have the power of choice to lead our lives the way we want. What holds us back are those choices and the style we decide to lead. Currently my style has to change since I am not doing what I want to do. My gifts are so so so present and beautiful, but I am avoiding them like the plague y'all. That is why I am here to transform myself, face my fears, and create a life of mine that I deserve to share/give to myself and others. I am thirty five years old, have been all over the world absorbing, taking in, observing, I am so overdue to BLOW UP and get DOING. What gifts do you possess? What do you do to manifest them? How do you assure yourself and others that you are developing and utilizing them to the best of your ability? We are all unique loving souls that have the ability to shine and delight everything we put our minds towards. Understand that, believe it, and stop turning away from all that you are, can be, and should be in this vast world of ours. I have waited too long and now I will put focus/energy from within and release all that I have in order to create true fulfillment for all that I pursue. One must create a vision, speak of this vision, take action within this vision, and follow through with your vision to allow its power to continue. Too many of us satisfy too easily, give in, or even give up on what they are capable of doing. They take the easy way around the mountain. Get up and get over it, or even dig on through, but at least overcome all that you fear and do your best while bringing the best out of you and others. Life is so much more enjoyable when you can provide inspiration, motivation, and guidance towards others. A smile and piece of advice goes a long way, sometimes ingrained for a life time, but please please please STOP avoiding, putting down, and focusing on the negative. But "I am REALIST Ryan. The bottomline is...that I am this and that and my mom had this, and my grandfather always did it this way on the second Tuesday of the month and I HAVE TO AND I KNOW IT HAS TO BE THIS WAY OR ELSE...." no more thinking this way people. Become an Optimist=Understanding and believing in the power of creating goodness in your life by bringing in newness and manifesting one's greatness by being proactively gracious. Remember YOU know what you have, you know what you are capable of doing, and you know what puts that internal smile and sunshine within you. Take the action and be your own creator of your great world. See you out there- RVB

LOS ANIMALES: DAY THIRTY ONE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I was told when I was two I was over at a neighbor's house curiously intrigued by the family dog. I was trekking along following it around and pulling its tail. I guess I got too close into the space of the critter and it decided to take a little bite out of my right cheek. I don't know the extent of the injury, but it didn't phase me since  after the incident I caught again following the thing around pulling its tail. Every once in awhile if you look real close you can still see a slight scar on my face, but since I smile so much it just blends into my dimple. I see is as kind of a Harry Potter marking (just made that up) within my soul that there is a DOG in me. I do look down at my forearms and discover the two wolf tattoos that I received in Limerick, Ireland and Amsterdam, Holland (The Netherlands) since I am a Dutch Irishman. A mysterious, searching, surviving, exploring, hungry, prowling, predator, ambitious, fierce focused soul that thrives on the chase of the unknown and the conquering of its plight. I have a wonderful connection and understanding respectful bond with animals. Its best to baby talk them, get down to their level, feel their soul, look them in the eye and respect their existence. I am a vegan, respect the animal, but am no activist.  I respect people's choices and not one to preach, put down or judge. Remember I will even cook you up a delicious piece of meat if you want, fry up some catfish, bake you some chicken Parmesan. I just demand the kind courteous respect of all creatures. Understand their being and reach into their souls with a kind sharing demeanor that can be felt eye2eye, heart2heart, hand2hand. I love to embrace animals, and seek their energy. I love to learn from animals, observe their movement, response to sound, and even howl, hiss or bark with them. Once I was at the entrance of a heavily guarded secured dark Italian port, at least that is what it was perceived as, but little did I know what would happen next. There stood a fierce-focused canine, with a growl and bite that would scare away any predator or trespasser, but not me since I saw that he was wagging his tail when I started blowing him kisses through the fence. The German Sheppard wsa hungry for some love and slowly began to break down creeping towards the fence. Remember HE WAS THE head security guard at this huge seaside port in Livorno that was the gateway charter in and out of Palermo, Sicilia. So a lot was expected of him, and the future/safety of the port and even the country of Italia was put upon his shoulders. As he came closer and closer to the fence I got down to his level sitting on the ground. His growls slowly with hesitation turned into whimpers as his tail swayed and shook with love. He growled he cried. Once he started to do that I knew I had him and was waiting to give him the love and affection he deserved and deeply desired. He actually did a double take behind him and then found his way in front me behind the fence and completely gave into the moment. Remember he was supposed to be this mean,loyal guard dog soldier, but deep down he was just a plain old lovable pooch that loved his back and under his chin scratched. He got to enjoy that moment as much as he could until he realized what he surrendered himself to, and then he abruptly rose to his feet and violently began to do what he was trained to do, BARK BARK BARK, but I continued showering him with love, he continued wagging his tail, but he had to show me who was the REAL BOSS/GUARDIAN of this port by showing me his teeth. This is one of many wonderful animal stories that is within me. My mother had a wonderful sweet selfless Portuguese Water Dog named Belleza Quezar Neptune of the Sea (she was the runt of the litter but had crooked front teeth) so we were graced with her presence for 10+ years) we called her Beleza (beauty). She was a delight to play with, drink with, smoke with, and she loved to cuddle. She possessed an amazing loving heart, senses that felt pain, and a consoling soul like no other. She was kinky black with a front dash of white. Wasn't too fond of the water since we forced her into the pool at a young age and it wasn't the best intro to what she was born to do. She had web-feet, and in ancient times her breed was used to relay messages back and forth from ship to ship. I truly love the souls, minds, and intentions of animals. Show them respect, show them who is boss, welcome them, accept them, walk and run with them, feed them, share with them, and treat them as you would enjoy being treated. If you can't care for them, there are others that will. Take the time when you see one to be aware they too have bad days, aren't always completely aware, and can make mistakes too. Enjoy their life and love, and do your best to educate yourself about them by observation in the wild, reading, or seeking out others that know. Los Animales are a pat of our world too- RVB

FAMILY TIME: DAY THIRTY WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

How close are you to your family? How big is your family? How do you communicate with your family? When you do spend time with them how do you feel? I am the youngest of three, my mother the middle of seven, my papa middle of five. Was able to know and understand all four of my grandparents. With this project I have the desiring mission to cook & enjoy a meal with all my extended family. I have the desire to be close to my family, but ego and the past hold me back on all realms. This year I hope to face that, overcome it, and maintain/sustain a positive and loving connection with both sides. I am not here to relive, bring up, or put down anyone of my family. I am here to be open, share, and move on respectfully. No ones family is perfect (what is perfect exactly), and everyone is faced with challenges/disruptions along the way. What is really the foundation of a good quality loving family is how we face (if we face) these challenges (communication, understanding, forgiveness), and the ability to realize the faults/mistakes one can create, and do our best to stay strong. Within my family there is inadequate styles of communication, means of communication, and what is communicated. Who enjoys facing conflict? Who is proactive to put an end to it and then not focus on it again? How difficult is it to forgive? Is it possible to forget? What about the art of grudges. Currently there is a huge imbalance within my soul concerning both sides of my family and hope this year through this project I hope to sway it in a peaceful, non-confrontational way, and provide an uplifting sense of calmness during my visits. Enjoy quality conversation, learn some new great things about my family, and do my best to make ammends. Everyone has there own reaction time, own style of dealing with news/reality, but the actions one takes is how one perceives that person, and the affect that person has on one soul. Unfortunately due to to being stubborn, uneducated of the facts (ignorance), living with ego, being disrespectful, and many other issues, my family seems to linger on and not completely face all that stews within its masses. Both sides of my family consists of amazing, talented, loving, educated, sincere, and heart warming souls, but we are NOT ONE for many a reasons. Past actions, encounters, and communication styles have allowed animosity and heart-ache to build up and create distance. I desire it to stop in some way. How, when, where? I know where some of the falls/breakdowns have occurred. I have the desire to transform and move on, but can't do it alone. No one can change SELF, unless SELF has the desire to change. Is is too late? Can all the layers be unraveled? Is the ego too strong to be broken down? The selfishness undeniably unaware? Where do we start? When I say the word family I visualize a circle, a gathering meeting point of celebration, unity, and selfless love of togetherness. I see and feel My family as an unstable awkward shape all-over-the-country runny fried egg. We all have HUGE soft hearts, but put up our guards to let in and to share. To be completely honest I am speaking about my family as a WHOLE, both sides mama & papa. Many of my family who reads this will take their egos and want to know what I am speaking about, or what details I am focusing on. I am ONLY speaking on the foundation of my WHOLE family and what feelings come up when I visualize and feel FAMILY. The structure, communication, and foundation is distant. Not just physical, but spiritual too. There is no CORE anymore in my heart that binds MY family together. There is not a confident flow of sharing going on through my soul anymore. So that is why I speak and express the way I am, but it has to change through my personal relations with my family. I can not and will not speak for others about these matters. NO. Not here to cause anymore strife. Here to let go, and let be, and restore as much as I can the sense of family I desire to have by my side. RVB

BE GOOD TO YOURSELF: DAY TWENTY NINE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

How many of you create a day to pamper yourself? What ever it may be; mani-pedi, full day at the gym, facial & massage, run through town, quiet day in with warm books or great films. I think it is so important to prioritize some good quality quiet peaceful time just for YOU. A time that you can call your own without any phone, computer, or other distractions. A time where you can feel free, open minded, and truly bring in some free flowing Love for you and your soul. Seriously our world is so fast paced these days and so many of us forget to focus on the SELF. I don't believe we can love/provide others until we can truly love our SELF. Spend the time to focus on creating OUR happiness, OUR well being and peace of mind. In the last few years I have been doing my best to create that balance where I can come home after a day of getting a haircut, facial, massage, hike, yoga, meditation, YES ALL IN ONE DAY, look myself in the mirror Ali-style and say I AM PURTTY (no just kidding), but to stand tall and erect (no not that way) with pride, feeling physically and mentally re-charged and better about myself, a sense of peace and inspiring motivation that gives me the energy/positive intention to NOW go out and serve others. This whole journey of ME this year is filled with the purpose of grounding myself with the confidence and action to set an example. I want to guide others with my newness and open up channels so they can choose the same/similar path, but you have to be good to yourself, keep enjoying your journey, allow yourself once in awhile to adventure out on your own where ever it may be, and be free. Choose a freedom where there is no pressure, no distractions, no complaining, just intended actions that will result in your relief and rejuvenation. Life is much more grand if we can just relax and enjoy the sweet wonders that exist. Focus our time on experiences that can uplift our souls, and bring souls into our circle that can show us the way  or at least instill within us some positive skills that can enrich our daily lives. Break your routine and stale energy by changing and moving. Feel good about what your doing and be proactive. Create a mission, believe in your vision, and follow your intuition. Find or create a space in your life just for you. Enter it with good intentions. Let it be a space that you feel comfortable and ready to receive. We are all surviving hungry animals on a variety of different paths, leading us in all directions, where would you like to meet up? What kind of day can we crate? Would be honored to grace you with my presence. Believe it- RVB

SWEET & SPICY: DAY TWENTY EIGHT WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

"Food glorious Food, Hot Sausage and Mustard...." Opening song of the musical Oliver. One of the songs that is part of my internal RVB song list along with Stand By Me, Fire and Rain, Walking in Memphis to name a few. I heard that song from Oliver when my sister played the flower girl in the St. Margaret's production back in 1990 or so. Always find myself humming the tune while cooking or as I pass by a bed flowers on a sunny day. As I could remember I have always have had a fascination and love for food/eating. I come from a Dutch baking family, fight fat cells due to my yummy cravings, have been mashing/mixing my food since my high chair days, and cook with my own RVB style= "Sweet&Spicy as Every Bite is a New Bite." There is such a sense of fulfilling gratitude when creating a tasty meal. My specialties are Mexican (enchiladas, tostadas, tortas) Sunday Brunch (orgasmic scrabble=sauteed onions, mushrooms, yellow/red/orange bell peppers, sun-dried tomatoes, feta, topped with my spicy peach-mango guacamole, and Argentinian parilla/bbq (asado, choripan, morcilla). I know you might say how can I prepare and serve the last two if you I am vegan, well I have no problem celebrating the love of serving others my delicious creations since they are surely delightful. Its all about the preparation and good company. I also freeze-chill my beverages, use lots of Tapatio, honey, lemon/lime, spicy Lucas, marinate my meat in French cream, and taste test all my food to make sure it is to my liking since remember I have picky senses. If its too salty add a little honey, too sweet where is the Tapatio and limon? Also its a sense of peace to create a meal and in the long run it is more healthier and you feel better about yourself. Having the ability to entertain, share, and provide a meal to hungry folks is an amazing gift. Don't fear the kitchen. Cook or learn how to cook what you like and start from there. Educate yourself, ask questions, and get your ass in there with others that have the desire/ability to share too. Never have watched and followed any Food Network show, but the people I have have a served me a meal that do, sure have the skills since there are wonderful teachers out there. If it is just a few different types of dishes you can cook or want to learn, then at least you are a master of few, and not stuck saying, "Oh I can't really cook, just pasta, salad, and a good sandwich maybe." It is your choice as always though, but when the time is right, I would love to cook for y'all. Remember its all about desire, transforming, adding skills to your gifts, and enabling yourself to manifest them to the best of your ability. BonAppetito- RVB

TOP OF THE MORNIN: DAY TWENTY SEVEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Boy am a lover of sleep. My mama told me once how Pope John Paul II used to be able to rejuvenate himself by taking 5-15minute PopeNaps, and have always been fortunate to be able to take a little nappy anywhere since I am all over the place. I used to even sleep in the front row of Algebra II class as a senior in high school since I worked the night shift at an Irish Pub called Timmy Nolans as an asst cook ie. professional dishwasher. Damn dishwasher's hands. Back in the day when I was unaware that sleeping with your neck tilted to one side on your belly and with your arms underneath you was unhealthy, I would experience the art of my arms and legs falling asleep. The bell rang in Math, Mr. Krose thanked me for my alert mature focus in his class that day, I jumped up out of my seat and hit the floor immediately since both my legs were completely dead. I am mean plain dead. Drool down my shirt, books scattered, being the principal's son, great example of being a straight A student huh? What goes on through your head early in the morning after a night of snoozing? How much true deep sleep do you receive each night? Are you aware the real importance of good quality sleep? How do you sleep at night? What kind of pillows do you enjoy? Due to my racing and determined mind I fight getting into bed since I feel that I have more to do whatever it maybe; more emails or Facebook, more TV, more organizing, or back in my playing days, more basketball or NOW more running. Little do we know, just like eating we should do our best to keep these types of activities to a slight minimum or not at all about 2 hours before hitting the hay. It allows our brain and body to prepare for that deserved shut eye. When we are sleeping there is so much going on (half the stuff I will investigate another time) but I do know there is a lot of resting, digesting, and dreamin of course. Through the years I have been sleep deprived, dealt with recycling dreams, and when I was young used to hear my brother Patrick talk in his sleep so I would just talk back until he woke up upset that I was speaking to him. I have slept on train depot platforms in Monte Carlo since there was a train strike and in Torino during the Winter Olympics since I made it my home for a week. I even used a bathroom stall as my home for a week during one of my adventures to the Little League World Series but that is another great story to tell another time. I know when I get a great night's rest I am a new man. I am focused, alert, determined, dedicated, and sweeter. What I do struggle with though with my ADD mind is getting out of the house in the morning. Today I had my whole day planned to go out and meditate the whole day and then practice yoga into the night, but I am here catching up with all of you, dealing with the IRS, thinking about my preparation of my Vision Quest in Texas next month, and of course thinking about my usual day to day rapport with myself; future career, vision of the future, responsibilities, love, food..I guess all my vices/fears that I must face to continue my quest of becoming a grounded man in this world. So when you get up in the morning seek out some delicious water (hydrate first thing), freshin up a little, look yourself in the mirror, smile, take a deep breath, and be joyous/thankful/gracious towards yourself. Realize that you are a unique loving soul that can conquer anything you put your focus towards. No matter what others say you have the power to choose and create your desirable path. All you have to do is take the action and lead yourself into your promising/inspiring life for you and all that you adore- RVB

PLANES, TRAINS & AUTOMOBILES: DAY TWENTY SIX WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I have not owned a car since 2002. My last vehicle was a beautiful Ruby-Red Honda Accord EX fully powered and smooth. Since then I have trekked onward with many modes of transportation. I have fell in love with long distance running after a local restaurant worker stole my bike outside a Tea House Cafe since I was too eager to get inside for some tofu veggie soup and just locked my lock around the palm tree, depriving my bike of secure safety from a thief. I wanted to keep up my cardio regiment. How did I know it was a local restaurant worker who was the culprit? Four months later I found my Warrior bike across the street from where it was stolen, unlocked behind the Hop Woo Chinese joint, and decided to steal it back. I used to do my best to travel somewhere new every year and decided that having a car was just an unwanted expense, and didn't want to have to be responsible for a car payment, insurance, and yearly registration. I wasn't even home half the year. The last time I had a car I remember I used to go to this cheap gas station and buy gas for $1.27. Yep a buck 27....I haven't had to deal with the oil crunch, maintenance & repairs, but what I have had to deal with is a sore prostate (public transpo seating), long waits at night, energy draining people, and even though I haven't done the math possibly a hefty paid penny for all my daily passes, tickets, and a few lost friends who have judged me since I am without wheels. I have got it down though. Getting around all over the world utilizing the means of getting one place and back to where I want to be. I have been riding the rails back in forth along the Pacific Coast since I was 11 years old. Good ol Amtrak and LA Union Station have always provided me a way to unite with family, or escape from them, and even allowed me to cross the country through the MidWest, across Texas, up through Florida, into Canada, through the Rockies, over  Lake Ponchaterrain, into Penn Station, and up and down the Pacific Coast. I have been stranded with hungry hungover Marines, legendary tennis player Poncho Gonzales, angry babies, snorers, and many a times illegal aliens being deported by Immigration tied together with the infamous plastic ties. My earliest memory of trains is riding Amtrak in 1980 from Pasadena through Arizona and thru the Rockies finally ending up in Fort Collins for a Buchanan family reunion. I can picture of foto of me lounged over a wide leather seat with a big smile of mine as I was three riding through terrain that many have shared before me in search of gold, a new California life, and an endless view of the sea. Nothing like scooting and swaying around car to car by kicking the bottom of a train door to get it open. Just did it a few days ago as Amtrak took me back from the California Central Coast through the Central Valley along the fruit bowl of the world down into Bakersville. Do you know how to get to Bakersfield? I was thinking once of tattooing LAX USA on the bottom of my feet since for the last 31 years 90% of all my major traveling has begun and ended at the Los Angeles International Airport. Many a times came up early in the morning from Newport Beach in a Super Shuttle with my siblings, mama, and step father, and was in Maui splashing through the waves by sunset in Wailea. Nothing like waking up in one place of the world and ending it somewhere else, especially in a place as magical, cool, and pleasant like Maui. There I learned to snorkel (afraid of those surface water pencil fish), was taught to dive by my sister Megan in a pool near Kanapali, play long grueling-crying-throw-my racquet- at my brother paddle ball games, and enjoyed delicious juicy yummy papaya (the name of the family fish...therefore my porno name would be Papaya Matterhorn since ones porno name is first pet + first house street name (this is the first house I remembered living). When I fly I have rituals. Enjoy refreshing up before I take off. Always have to weave and hold my breath back to my seat so I can scoot by everyone that is still arriving or loading up their luggage in the overhead bins. I just enjoy to be cool when I sit and fly off the ground. When the pilot lays down the throttle and speeds down the runway I close my eyes, make the sign of the cross three times, visualize on a map my journey from start the finish, and put my seat back just when the plane lifts off. Its a letting go free feeling that prepares me just right for another journey. When the plane touches down I take a deep breath and 3x again give thanks to God for bringing me safe to my destination. I wish I would have kept a flying log of all my trips, but that idea like many others has gone to the wind, but man I have been up and down all over the place. Only once had to come down in a place different then where I was scheduled to go. It was due to the wings freezing up or something. Hardest landing was in New Dehli during an early early morning flight after an ingesting an Indian airplane breakfast omelette. It was like....Welcome to the capital of India....BAAAAM...SKID....BAAAAAM...I guess the shocks were pretty tight, since when we landed we just dropped and barely glided anywhere. Longest flight LAX to Sydney 14+ hours. Flying down into the Rockies is always an adventure especially in a puddle jumper heading into Aspen. Never flown first class or in a charter plane. I once flown over Disneyland in a private plane and remember that the Tea-Cups were teeny tiny spinning around in Fantasyland. Never scared to fly, but have had my fair share of dealing with the altitude and getting my ears back to normal. After 9/11 have always done my best to give thanks and remembrance by flying on that day. On 9/11/01 I was on a flight to DC for the first time and was on a tarmac in Charles Lindbergh Field at the San Diego Airport when the pilot made the announcement that there was a horrible tragedy involving the World Trade Center and we were ordered to return to the terminal. There I watched the towers fall thinking that thank God everyone got out since the implosion looked like an old Vegas hotel going down. It was too perfect, too clean to believe it wasn't planned and executed premeditatedly. I was stranded at the airport for awhile, conducted some interviews, shocked, angered, confused, saddened, and eagerly anxious concerning the reaction of our government of what would lie ahead. Two months later I discovered my 2nd favorite city in the United States of America by exploring our nations Capital for the first time. New York City is my favorite. Used to be a boxer from Brooklyn in my past life in the 20s. Want to hear about my first driving encounter? What was yours? Mine involved a B2200 blue Mazda truck, later to be known as the BlueBomb. Before the age of two that car had survived a few cross country journeys with my sister at the helm. All three of the Buchanan children drove that car for sometime. It was the summer, I was left at home as my dad supervised summer school leaving me with a wad of cash to enjoy at a local arcade. I decided I wanted to get there quicker and use the truck to make it happen. The truck was parked out below our apartment building behind the complex facing the wrong way. To get it out of the back I would have to make a 3-point turn. I knew nothing about driving. Only at arcades and go-kart tracks have I driven a vehicle and never used a break. How do I use that? I have been the passenger in the truck for years and have seen the turn made, but driving it on my own and pulling it off just didnt feel right or possible, but I wanted to get to the arcade. I got to the point where I had to make the turn at the end of the back driveway. In front of me was a brick wall, to the right garages of other places and to the left another brick wall protected by a tall tall tall hedge of newly planted bushing dick like trees. I made the initial turn and stopped, but just couldnt figure out how to back up and give myself enough room to make the complete turn around. To this day I have been cursed about seeing/feeling the sides of a car and having confidence in the space around the vehicle. My impatience decided to sweep around and get on my way, but ended up plowing through a few trees, scraping the front end of the truck and popping/destroying one of the plastic front headlight protectors. A huge pop brought out one of three homosexual chubby neighbors (that shacked it up together), who helped me put the car back in place how it was left. I called the local Mazda dealership to make sure a plastic light guard was in stock, and proceeded to spend the rest of my day on the bus to North Hollywood and walked all the way back to Burbank with a sunburned neck and that guard. Slapped it on and my papa never knew, but was a little skeptical when the neighbor came over one day asking for his 20.00 he leant me to help pay for the light. For almost blowing my cover, I sent him and his roommates a woman birthday stripper I found in the infamous LAxpress newspaper. Planes, Trains, Automobiles...a wonderful adventurous, frustrating at times film with two classic comedians. Miss John, and miss the Jerk soul of Steve. Two men that transformed and were truly natural on screen. Acquired humor yes, but great during their time. Thanks to John Hughes for penning the journey and guiding the cast and crew from NYC to Chicago.
CHECK OUT SOME OF MY FAVORITE SCENES
Remember Owen? (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qB84vzRjjMs)
Singing the Flintstones? (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gC1bayzNq2g)
What was the tune John played the piano smoking while Steve did his best to get some shut eye? (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EmpMqa89wx8) Can you get the MESS AROUND?

What ever way you get there, when you get there, and how you feel once you are there, I applaud you since I have probably been there too???? I encourage you to change up how you go places. Take a left instead of right, follow the back roads to the sea, or walk up a hill to see the sun go down. The mode we travel can provide more newness than you can imagine.
Do you know what a rickshaw is?
TAKE A RIDE (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUQ49W_xcIs)
or ever been in an Egyptian taxi: (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4YMhbsmiH6c)
how about sky dive above Monterrey Bay? (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4YMhbsmiH6c)
Enjoy your journey be good to yourself- RVB

ONGOING SMILE: DAY TWENTY FIVE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE NOW?

How many of you believe in the power of sharing? How about the power of giving and receiving a Light that continues on shining within from one soul to the other? Or even the power of faith that allows our souls to keep on giving? I have had the utmost enjoyment of truly seeking and discovering these powers and am constantly striving to stay on the focus course in order to reward myself and others of its amazing power. There is nothing like the beauty of rewarding oneself with a bright wonderful day filled with creative food, patient breath, and warm company. How we travel through our day, what thoughts we gather, and how we choose to spend it is a gift that can ignite far beyond we can ever imagine. Ever contemplate the effects of your everyday actions? Everything from a look, you opening up the door for someone, or even a glorious smile that shines from within? There is that ongoing energy that one sends out into the world each day that is felt by many, but maybe never thought how far, how long, or to what extent. The power of the mind, word, and action are thunderous. I know that I have begun to understand and witness the amazing outcomes of leading a daily life of goodness, newness, and joy by putting myself in places that provide hope, inspiration, and the motivation to continue my quest of grounded wholeness. I love to take deep breaths, practice yoga, meditate, laugh, smile, cook, run, swim, and do my best to learn something new every day.  I am the first to admit I am wrong, not always the best communicator, and never perfect. What is perfect? What is normal? I am far from those. What I do possess and am proud of is the awareness of my faults, the presence of unwanted ego and cruel reactions, and the ability of realizing the desire of transformation. I must begin to follow through the manifestation of all my dreams to transform. I want to lay the firm foundation of my life in order to begin the rest of my life. What exactly has to be placed into a firm foundation for the most effective results to be met? What doesn’t belong in its formation? I know currently I do not possess a confident foundation in my life for a wide variety of obvious reasons. Those would be uncertainty, insecurity, inconsistency, hesitation, fear, deprivation, and a little insanity. What elements do you believe you want in your life to believe in your foundation? I strongly believe to improve my interpersonal/communication skills, relationships, family connections, career path, finances, overcoming distractions, being proactive, time management, following through, and bringing newness into my life. I smile a peaceful loving smile as I write and celebrate a new day. I am thankful grateful and joyous for this body and mind of mine. I choose to be happy and open up my senses today and now with a hope to reach out and touch the lives of all that lead their life similar to mine.

SURROUNDING SUPPORT CIRCLE: DAY TWENTY FOUR WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Each and every one of us is dealt with an introductory path that includes a family of relatives and all that arrives with their existence. Whatever it may be, we have no control over it. Some are from single parent homes with no siblings, or others grow up with Tias, primos, abuelitas that line up outside the bathroom every morning and after meals.  All of our lives begin on a different playing field with a wide variety of different elements, barriers, and outcomes. As we begin to grow and understand the power of choice, our souls build up a surrounding circle of who we let in and who we keep distance from. How would you describe your ability to make friends or let others arrive into your space? Do you possess a confident reliable source of support in your life? How do you communicate with that support? What kind of support do you believe in receiving? I have always envied and never had a group of buddies throughout my life. Living in 22 houses and attending 15 schools I always seem to float and weave myself through my world. That is why my favorite movie is STAND by ME which is about a group of seeking young boys adventuring along the rails that lead to the Royal River near some blueberries bushes to discover Ray Brower and his final resting place. There are many factors of why I find myself on the outside looking in, or making the rounds uneasy at social gatherings not fitting in. I am a nomadic wonderer. It is in my character. Have always loved to understand the psyche of many, and not be part of a click that is deprived to just one type of music, clothing, sport, social group, or thinking. I am Random Ryan, little king who explores, a lone wolf, Dutch Irishman that wanders wondering the details of thought rather than staying in one spot building a repertoire. I have recently been focusing on the type of aura I share when I am present. I struggle with committed eye contact/focus, I have a tendency to interrupt, be sarcastic, and have the ability to make others laugh by putting others down. Once again I am not the most fulfilled with my outcome, so I am here to embrace change and the ability to improve my cycle of allowing others into my world. I have to listen better, keep my mouth shut at times, and do my best to keep in touch with those I believe will provide a selfless demeanor and loving heart. There are so many times in my life where I find myself giving and giving to those that aren’t leading their day with gratitude, but with a self-serving attitude of ME ME ME. I was told once that we are mere self-image/mirror of those that surround us, so I strive to glisten up my mirror smiling with promising potential of developing a foundational support in my life that will consist of a positive flowing consistent personal communication line, inspiring intentions with a sense of giving, and an ongoing focused understanding of the gifts we share. I strongly desire to be surrounded by greatness and strive to rally and gather around an environment that has the ability to be open minded, face fear, and provide loyalty. Where is your Circle Leading You?

PEACE OF MIND: DAY TWENTY THREE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

How many of you go out into your day with your optimistic feelers open wide and eager, with a cool calm perspective of embracing all that surrounds a wonderful and beautiful living environment, that creates an aura that you are proud to possess? Do you realize that the elements that are presented to us each day determine your reaction mode, your way of thinking and your energy level throughout your day? What motivates you to maintain a positive outlook on life? What uplifts your soul to keep on seeking and giving? What must your world consist of in order for you to feel just right and allow you to take your ideas and strength onward towards a new day? There are so many factors that can build this foundational mindset that will make you smile and sigh with amazement. It could be a roar of a city, a rushing river, or a park filled or empty, but with potential. Throughout the years my ideal desired living or day2day living environment has surely transformed. I have learned that I don’t always have to be entertained or always put in a city/home that is constantly  on the go. I would have to say that I have always maintained an ambition to never be bored, create an environment/day where I can be satisfied even alone at times, or enjoy a day JUST filled with exercise or meditation. I have grown up in a society where I always believe we are judged on what we become, or what we have, or how much we have accomplished. I like to focus on how I have done it; with those I have enjoyed it with, and what type of style I have pursued in completing my days. I have so much more to pursue and accomplish, and am so so not satisfied with my life at this point. I want to TAKE MORE ACTION, I want to LIVE MORE FULLER, and I desire to TAKE LIFE A LOT MORE SERIOUS. I will continue to develop my visionary plan based on my passions, my purpose and my peace of mind. When I arrive in that realm of my life where I am truly in the grooving flow of doing, doing and doing a whole lot more, then that’s where I will shine the most. It is taking ongoing patience, focus, and this YEAR COMMITMENT.  I recently just discovered the California Central Coast in Mendocino County while passing through the towns of Bodega Bay, Point Arena, and Fort Bragg. These are towns with character, heart, and a sense of community where its folk have a passionate interest in the well being of those that grace its presence within their borders. They are those that show curiosity, offer a lending hand, and have the ability to build, let go, and be a quality neighbor. I felt good about myself discovering the coastal roads and the valley inlets along the Russian River delta, and the Redwood Forrest near Navarro. There was the powerful crashing sea and the unforgettable evening sunsets. Drives along Hwy 128 in the Anderson Valley Wine Country, and daily eats at local produce stands and general stores. I built up my own General Store filled with dried fruits, vegan toffee, organic apple juice, and amazing delicious pico de gallo guacamole corn chips. I discovered a lot of me and who I desire to be within my visit and there is a huge possibility struck down upon me in returning some day and calling it home. What exact city it may be I cannot say at this moment. Point Arena is a full town full of life and comfort, Bodega Bay a seasonal sea life with great accessibility to the region, or Fort Bragg with a variety of those elements I seek in my life that are the foundational piece to keep me grounded and Living Life with Loving Thoughts- RVB

OUT IN FRONT: DAY TWENTY TWO WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I have always considered myself a leading man. I am one that takes charge, speaks up, and enjoys taking the reins when it comes to planning, guiding, and giving advice. As I deeply analyze my actions through the years hoping to discover all my proactive accomplishments, I have concluded that in order to LEAD a fulfilling life along the desired path I want walk, I MUST do a better focused job on leading with my heart. I desire TO DO MORE with my gifts while being that leading man I THINK I AM. There is so much I have seen and done so far in my life, but a true leader shows/lead by example right? What are the attributes of a leader? How does he/she wake up each day? What are the priorities of a leader? What are the different styles of leadership? What are the elements of excellent leadership? How does one justify a leader or follower? I believe a leader must possess the passion to lead, listen/learn from those they are leading, and provide inspiration, guidance, and the ability to take charge in all facets of his/her actions.  Thinking about that, I HAVE THE POTENTIAL and DESIRE TO LEAD, but at this moment I am not the true leader I will be. I have to take the committed leap, plan/prepare/prioritize my life in a way that when given the chance to be that leading man out in front, I will have the tools, energy, and motivation to soar and shine amongst all that I will have by my side. As I take this year-long journey and do my best to breakdown all that I am, all that I can be, and all I will be, I visualize a loving supportive family that will surround me looking up at me for the answers. This will be a family that will consist of people from all cultures and all ages with the determination to energize me along the way and understand my vision to make a difference in this world. I am truly excited to be the leader of this vast global family where I will constantly be following my heartfelt ideas/projects by seeing them through to the end assuring that what I say I will do, what I see I will create, and what I feel I will share. I am a visionary, I am a dreamer, I am an explorer, I am Aquarius YES, but I can do as I please and do what I want NOW. My world at this moment TODAY is a complete OPEN BOOK to write. The only one that is stopping me is myself. I have all the power to create/choose my happiness. I just have to take a firm and dedicated stand within a world that I can see/feel I can make an impact in. I will put myself within a crowd of listeners and seekers spreading my message of discovery, creation and exploration. I want others to understand their inner self by taking the steps of self excavation and indulge in letting go in order to open up the power of their gifts. I strongly believe that all of us have beauty and courage within, but many allow past burdens, judgments and fear to hold us back. I know that I have deprived my true potential throughout the years of not facing head on all my inner demons/barriers. With an everyday is a new day attitude and being openly proactive, I strive onward with a happy/determined heart of reaching out and living2give.

VICTORY LANE: DAY TWENTY ONE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Throughout my day my mind finds the time to fantasize and visualize a sense of beauty and idealization of what I am capable of creating. There is amazing loving potential that lies within my soul. I have wonderful gifts to give, and ideas to share. I have high hopes for passionate outcomes with dreamlike scenarios that are a future away. What I have found myself doing is giving in to distraction and running away from responsibility of creating a grounded secure life with a consistent play-it-by-the-rules lifestyle. Will I ever be able to provide that secure path for myself? I am taking this year and this project to assure myself and all of you that MY TIME IS NOW. It is my time to cement my focus, get to eye level, and excel with life changing results. I spend way too much time giving in to my distracting cravings and not enough time on ME. I am not a selfish soul completely. At times I use, abuse and exploit. No excuses. But one of the best qualities of mine is the awareness and desire to transform NOW. It is not my age, where I live or that I don’t have a career, house, car, lady, or kids, but it is a action filled lifestyle that I deserve and overwhelming capable of producing. I have the passion and purpose to give, share, and live in an environment where I can maintain a consistent healthy mental/physical well-being, and establish/maintain a strong reliable respectful support base that does what WE say. A life that leads into a victory lane where the day2day operations is constantly growing, sharing, giving, learning, teaching, and believing in the daily grind of creating. Life is too precious to waste, and too precious to deny its potential. I must improve my time management, my interpersonal communication, and my ability to stay focused with my ADD mind. Even though I feel down at times, I can’t stop fighting for the cause, collecting footage for this film, and understanding I am A GREAT LOVING SOUL.  A lover of the arts, film, sports, music, children, travel, animals, creation, newness, and a life that is wonderfully bright. What lies ahead is promising, but I must understand that I have to fight, dedicate, and commit to a lifestyle of following through. I know I can’t do it alone. I will struggle with all the distracting demons that desire to hold me back, and I reach out to all of you asking for advice, welcoming encouragement, and vowing that I will create a FINAL PRODUCT that will be entertaining, and hopefully filled with the inspiration to motivate all of you to follow your purpose filled path with a similar determination and spirit full of Light.

SUNNY SIDE UP PLEASE: DAY TWENTY WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

The way we all eat, our taste palate preferences, and how we indulge in our daily lives is something that follows us around while determining the progress of our daily energy. Our ability to be influenced from family, friends, and even our observances ,have allowed us to establish a living style that either stays stubbornly stable/idle or has the willingness to transform and explore. Many of us buy into myths of what effects certain things have on us. In my world I certainly have many things that I refuse to eat, refuse to inhale, refuse to drink, and even at times of my day refuse to think. I would encourage though through the advice of my mother, is to create a balance for yourself where all your beliefs are met, where your health is strong, and that your motivating heart and mind are willing and able to accomplish all that you desire to pursue. Lead life with an open mind, curious ear, and a creative soul that will take a stand and do its best to listen/learn, read/recollect, and prepare/prioritize.  More action and results is a must in my life. I put much pressure and expectations on my psyche, but have to peacefully breathe and do more at a steadier pace. Through exercise, a vegan diet, and a respectful way of living to the fullest,  I have made the choice this year to finally stand taller and take advantage of all the amazing opportunities/possibilities this year/world have to offer. I am engaging in a full life scan of understanding me from the inside out which I hope will result in some major life changes in my living environment, relationships, career path, mental health, physical health, passions, and spirituality. I strive to be true to my heart, lead by example, and create a new outlook soaring onward. I smile wide and proud, while sharing and giving. Reach out with all that you have done and become, realize that all that surrounds you is for the taking, and believe in your choices. Whatever those choices or preferences may be stay focused with vision, and take the faith-filled proactive actions on time and with completion, SunnySideUpPlease- RVB

BREAKING THE BUDGET: DAY NINETEEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

How many of you ever think about exactly where your money comes from, how you generate it, and how does your spending effect your daily lives? Do you have a tendency to save ever? Live paycheck by paycheck? Or do you pursue a life in survivor mode where you tensely are always striving to create a quick fix to get you into the next month, day or sunset? What kind or relationship do you have with your wallet or purse? What has been your journey with your finances? Do you fear its existence? Does it drive you to succeed? Do you over emphasize its power and priority? What kind of management skills do you enter into the mix of your pursuit of happiness? What comes to mind when you hear the word money? I would have to say that money and finances has always been in the forefront of my path. Being a child of divorce and dealing with custody, every other weekend encounters, and child support, surely put a damper on my outlook towards the financial support/survival throughout my life. As I matured and realized that one has to have a face2face and eye2eye bond with money, I have decided money will always be present in my life, I will never fall short of it in my surroundings, and will do my best to bring in funds where I can distribute the wealth according to my passions/interests/abilities to celebrate in my life. I am not rich, I have debt, I have declared bankruptcy, the IRS wants me to pay them, and I am constantly putting out and setting fires in the art of distribution of my earnings. I also have found a way in my life to weasel money out of situations where I either don’t earn it, or taking an easy way out in life where cash is available for the creative and eager. I am completely legal and legit, but just not utilizing the best of my ability all that I am capable of producing. I truly have to lay aside all my tricks of the trade, all the ways of making it easy, and all the time/energy I waste on making ends meet. I will lay a foundation that is worthy, strong, and full of life that I can be proud to pursue with all my heart. I have to take the risk of creating a lifestyle of money making and production where it is consistent, abundant, and always flowing forward without no guilt and games. I have to learn to let things go and walk away from my impulse buying and traveling in times where I have to hunker down and focus on what I should be doing. No more running away from responsibility, running away from the possible future, and no more running from all that is from within. Decisions have to be made, acted upon, and completed. I have to be disciplined, and do my best to not break the budget anymore. Or maybe I should at least create a budget? I don’t work well with restrictions that create deprivation. Many may think my vegan way of living is deprivation, but I think it’s completely exhilarating full of delicious nourishment that is fueling my ability to energize my day. A focused budgeted world just has to be a prioritized one where one can sit back and contemplate the total cost and value of one’s decision which hopefully results in effective positive results that will affect you long term. Focus on aspects of your life that will plant trees that will bear fruit for 10-20 years. Live in the Now with a Vision for the Promising Future- RVB

DEEP & INTENDED BREATH: DAY EIGHTEEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKE UP Y'ALL. Look around all that surrounds you. What do you observe? How does the energy feel? What was the last time that you moved things around or unearthed all the staleness that may lie within you? Clean & Conquer. Organize & Open Up. I surely have issues to pack things in. Physical objects and mental images that hold me down, BUT I don't approve of this downer feeling, and I can't put up with its drain any longer. I will organize a day within this recent journey to locate and track down all my possessions and rally them  together for a FIRST TIME FEAT. A feat that  will allow me to have ALL my things ALL together with me at ONE location. I have always had two households. My things here and there and over there. Its time for my independence and be on my own. Wake up in a living environment and completely feel free. Free to walk around naked, free to sing out loud, free to cook and shower with all the food and products I enjoy using. A world just for me, created by me. I know it will be a wonderful relief and satisfying accomplishment where I can finally be home. Close your eyes please, look within, smile and let go. Go deep within with an intended breath and allow yourself to wonder with a focus to ground yourself near a watering hole, rushing river, calm sea, or a quiet creek where water seems to hold the fort down. Get yourself wet, feel the water, and cleanse a place in your body or another's body while allowing the water to just flow through. Visualize strength and courage arriving to that intended spot. Be patient and keep breathing. As you completely clean, now bring in the Light from above, Light that Loves, Light that lingers, Light that never Limits what you want, how you want it, and what will become of your actions. As you slowly open your eyes continue breathing and choose peaceful happiness for a day that can say you traveled to an environment where you celebrated, cleansed, and became a part of something you believe in. Keep sharing your joy. RVB

PATIENCE IS THE KEY: DAY SEVENTEEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Here in the Western world life has evolved so much on speed, consumption, enormous quantities, and the size of everything. How big is your bank account, house, car, circle of friends, wallet, and even the size of calf muscles. The amount of time waiting in line for latte, lawn furniture, and laundry is quite absurd. Everyone is go go go, now now now, me me me, but is everyone really enjoying the journey? Taking the time to truly absorb one's surroundings? Where has the quality of work ethic, respect and patience gone? You know it only takes an extra 2 minutes or less to wait at that red light, or to arrive at work driving the speed limit. I know I can relate with my ADD mind that I am constantly being interrupted with my day with the notion that I have to DO more, at this pace, at this hour, under this time limit, and always am anxious thinking I just haven't done enough. Through the years I have discovered yoga, meditation, long distance running and a way to release and just let go of that eagerness to please others and myself. What I do is change up the routine, put the breaks on, get in my Tai Chi way of doing things where I open up my awareness, breathe and really just sloooow ME down. Doesn't mean I can't be efficient and pursue all that I desire to do, but I drop the blood pressure, think a little lighter, and move with focused grace. Through this way of my day I am allowed not to be so hard on myself, not misplace things as much, which results in less anxiety, more enjoyment, and lots of peace. We can't do it all just this minute. Even though everything happens within a minute somewhere, someday, somehow, but if you can create an aura for yourself where you open up your space and your senses to let in all that is around and beyond, I think life is a little more fun and you feel so much better & free. What are your intentions when you act? Are you  acting before you think? How is your reaction level? How often do you restrict before you act? What do you do to prioritize your time? How effective and efficient are your methods of time management/organization? What state of mind are you in when you go to sleep? Please understand all that we do spends inertia and it is how & what we do that allows our brain to sustain its flowing mobility to function with style. So be good to yourself and praise one another for quality diet, sleep, smiling and we got to laugh more and even cry. Get out there and sweat. Don't fear of getting in the groove of things and dance away into the night. Do things that you never thought you would ever imagine doing. Discover newness and expand your horizons. Dress Up or Dress Down. Sleep in. Learn to cook and share your favorite meal with favorite company. Chew not Wolf down your Food. Remember though everything is temporary in all that we encounter so please turn around once in awhile, stop and sniff the sunflowers. Indulge in the moment and just be you. BuenDia- RVB

PROMISING PASSIONS: DAY SIXTEEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I was told recently if something brings you tears of joy and exhilaration to your soul when you reflect or proceed with something passionate, then THAT is where you heart should focus and strive. I have a lead a life of complete exploring variety with a wide range of interests that have taken me across the worlds vast oceans, over mountain ranges, and through open roads ahead. I am blessed, I cherish, and I am fortunate to have the power of choosing faith in my abilities to seek and soar. I have lived and learned in places where I was present and aware of what I desire in life. I have allotted/prioritized wise time to completely understand what I truly find to be sacred in my life. Knowledge that gives me a sense of growth, reasoning, and energy to discover. From strikeouts to staccato and sincere animal souls, to South America and martini wide shot scenes, I have followed my heart through pandemonium stadiums, sold out theaters, drum circles, carnival cities, and La Gran Sabana. There are encounters in ones life that define and mold your character. Churchill put it perfectly, "It is not what you obtain in life, but what you overcome that defines ones character." Breaking Through, Digging Deep, Deep in Thought, On the Go, Spontaneous Shift, Focus Forward, Never Bye, Don't Use Hate or Need, Despise & Desire. Celebrate all that you enjoy on your grand journey. Realize the beauty and strength all that you spend your energy with will instill in you a powerful know how that will guide you onward. LiveNow & WorryLater. Indulge into the mix & a balanced way of living that can provide opportunities and expand your possibilities. Master a craft, play an instrument, learn a language, cook cleverly, develop your taste, dance a little or a lot, feel free flying high, glide while guiding. The Promising Passions that we hold so dear in our own world, allow us to be loud and heard, allow us to ground our being, and allow us to participate and put forth action within something we truly connect with. A wonderful way of doing it our way, at our own pace, and within our own glory with whatever we choose to manage. Mine were between competing lines, on airplanes, in the Big Newporter, or coming from my mama's cassette deck in her 1980s something Honda Accord named Emma (after one of her favorite Diane Steels novels). Remember if there are activities, people, places, or creatures that completely wow you, then create a respectful active rapport amongst what you believe in, and go bananas committing to absorbing all that they provide you. Exercise your right to ignite and add to your repertoire of all that you know and desire to DO, and then DO some more for YOU. Get to the cause root of your life and understand the source of all that you let go and let in. Your body/vessel is more than sacred. Treat yourself with the utmost respect and dignity. Constantly seek and share all that you  praise. Promise please that you will penetrate the true purpose of why you promote the passions that you pursue. Never cut yourself short with what you are willingly capable of conquering. Be Patiently Passionate and never forget all the loving gifts that seep deep within your abyss. Carve out and LET BE- RVB

OPEN THE FLOW: DAY FIFTEEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

What is the first thing you do when you wake up in the morning? Do you remember enough of your dream to share it or write it down? Do you encounter dreams often? How much sleep did you truly enjoy? What position do you sleep in mostly? What is the condition of your sleeping apparatus? Are you aware what your body goes through while sleeping? Heavy or Light Sleeper? Snorer, Silent,Talker or combination? Ever have to force yourself awake during a dream or feel you can't get out of a dream.? Ever think of drinking water the first thing you do when you wake up? Quality sleep is so genuine for the resting inspiring brain for its structure to be fed the right rest, oxygen, and nutrients to continue its amazing function it provides us humans. How much does your brain weigh? Do you respect it? How do you abuse it? How do you build up its strength? How do you celebrate its gifts? A well slept brain is much more capable than one drinking through the graveyard shift, or taking blows surrounded by flashing bulbs on  Friday Night at MSG. We have to understand how our bodies work, how we can assist in the re-building process, and how to maintain an on-going sustainability so that we can live a prosperous efficient life. Water is a must people. The majority of us are constantly de-hydrated due to our diet, exercise, and lack of water intake. Find a way to introduce its beauty down your throat and into your deserving body. A firm and secure base within your human structure of a well-balanced lifestyle that includes positive sleep, close to the Earth as possible diet, and a resting noodle that can realize its true potential by exploring all passions and possibilities by keeping promises and striving for the prize. What kind of prize do your eyes eye? How far is beyond the eye can see in your world? Does you world include the rest of the world? Please don't limit yourself to traditional stale easy going way of doing things that your family demands/requires/insists you follow. Lead your life with a curious & creative heart, that stands up for what you believe in, with assets that kiss ass, and an ass that is....well you make it what you desire it to be....I like mine to be as....I'll stop there, but folks life is such enormously challenging and filled with living moving obstacles. Keep the open flow of your gate though, by letting go and letting in the warmness and fluidity or newness, wildness, and the abilities that will teach, inspire and uplift your spirit. Create and Choose Happiness. Be Happy to Know & Educate. Sincere Smiling Graciously Provide Unforgettable Thanks. The Appreciation to Spread My Joy Brings a Sense of Light-Filled Love that Shines while Opening up My Gate of Fevering Desire to Receive. Share Your Signature by Supporting. Support Locally and Globally. A Global Perspective Perspires from within the Depths of the Great Valley Below. Where the paths keep on leading, the rivers run with intention, and the nearby mountains roam along side the rush to get to the top where ever that may end amongst the battle from the bottom. Bottoms Up!- RVB

ON THE BALL FIELDS: DAY FOURTEEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

The art of competition is such a powerful motivator if one can instill its true element of challenge by utilizing its passion of dedication, desire, and die hard attitude towards ultimate accomplishment. I am blessed to be raised by athletes. I am a natural athlete with an aggression to excel and take myself to limits that the mind would never think the body could be taken. I started young with T-Ball and Co-Ed futbol (soccer) within the great national wide A.Y.S.O. I could throw a a direct line drive no bounce from deep center field straight into the catcher's mitt with a thump. I love to break up those toddler soccer bee-hives and take the ball in for a score pass the goalkeeper between tow orange cones. I once scored 7 goals as a center forward in one quarter and was sent back to the goal where I spent the rest of my all star years aggressively defending the honor of my team while taking out forwards with my gloved hands. There is something about scoring, shooting, serving, and sliding that drove me into the ball fields, gymnasiums, basketball courts, and pitches across my towns that lead me to a life of athletics. I never mastered one sport, but could shoot anywhere inside or way out (Bird Style) on a basketball court, hit a ball deep right-center or be the voice behind the plate on a dusty diamond, or even send aces past you as I struggled with my racket-throwing-temper between the baselines. The smell of Saturday dew morning grass, chalked up grass under the lights on Friday night, or synthetic grass in a high-tech stadium, the playing fields of high-class sports to those of our youth, there is nothing like the sights & sounds of competitive play between determined guts&glory athletes. The strategies, schedules, stats, and sunshine that layer our games and are instilled in our brains, results in the amazing bond and foundational courage that is built within our participation. Friends & Brothers for Life, Coaches that Care & are Concerned, Play that is Promising, Careers that are Chiseled, and a lifestyle/way of life that is so filled with pride and perseverance. Winning is not everything. Perfect Practice makes Perfect. Leave it All on the Field. Take Charge. Go Hard or Go Home. Play with Heart. 110%. I was a Padre, GoldenEagle, Striker, SeaKing, Tiger, Fighting Irish, Yankee, East-Valley Trojan, Dolphin, Knight, and an Indian. Loved the Uniforms, loved to sweat, loved to motivate, loved to talk shit, loved the crowd, loved the pressure, loved to shoot, loved to protect, loved to catch, loved to bear-crawl, and loved to WIN. I wouldn't have been the competitor I was if it wasn't for my brother Patrick since he taught me to fight for space, to not give up, and to not take any shit from anyone. He taught me that since he never let me win, he beat me all the time, and would make it known that that wasn't going to change. My dad taught me all the basic skills of serving, throwing a spiral, and skiing, but on my own with many long hours under the lights and in a gym I was able to master my shot and thunderous first serve. There is always room for improvement NO DOUBT, I just wished I would have continued my career of playing baseball, basketball, baseball and/or futbol(soccer) in high school, but I just stuck to the grid-iron. Attending sporting events is a true passion of mine. I have been to over 50 championships events from high school to professional and even both Olympics. What does it take to be a champion? Who is a champion? What do they eat, how do they practice, what steps do they take to get to the top, why do some lose and some succeed, how do they celebrate, what does it take to become a legend? What kind of competition have you endured? How did it make you feel? What was the outcome? What kind of preparation was involved? Have you ever survived a whole season? Would love to get back and have a regular weekly tennis match, return to the pitch as a goalie, and even get on the basketball court in a local league. I have golf clubs and desire to complete a round of golf by the end of the year. That game of patience is something I want to pursue, but never had the time to focus on. I am thankful for my heart of competing in athletics and grateful for my parents of introducing me to team sports. What I learned, who I met, and how I played, such beauty and amazing moments in my life- RVB

KID AT HEART: DAY THIRTEEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Throughout our lives there are special amazing times where our day is filled with a sense of calm, glowing, peaceful, but energetic sensation where the heart pumps, the eyes open, and you feel completely ALIVE, ALERT, and full of AMBITION. A place in your space where you can accomplish, face, and proceed with anything in your way. It can be in a relationship, alone, during the work day, or in a foreign land somewhere out there with a windy breeze or humid warm sunset. When one can create that moment, or that moment can create you, smile, take a deep breath, and go with the furvor like a pumpkin farmer during the Halloween season. Stand tall, chest out, and get in the groove. Take positive proactive action and don't forget to enjoy the journey. It has happened to menumerous times. Once while working in the 26 Wall Street Standard Oil building in New York City as I took time away from the Silicon Valley to go out East and see the Yanks v. Mets in Game 1 of the 2000 World Series at Yankee Stadium. Another time I was in a zone on the road writing and researching for my film Exploration.  These past 13 days I am feeling the feeling of complete exhiliration of doing my thang, and visualizing the creation of this wonderful project. I have traveled and put myself through a hunk of complete here and there haywire. I am fortunate, I am blessed, I am smart, I am stubborn at times, I am ambitious, I am loved, I sure am. I love to share, make others laugh, dream, believe, laugh myself, explore of course, and follow my heart. I am working on standing up to my intuition which is more reliable than your instinct. There is just so much I want to share of ME with the world. It has been my biggest struggle to focus and commit to ONE career path. So with the creation and movement of my actions in the coming years, I will strive to lay down the gauntlet with full force. I believe everyone has a true transforming purpose within their soul that they build, develop, and hopefully discover at a time that they are ABLE, WILLING, and CAPABLE to excel with its power. We all have a unique mind that is constantly energized with vast amounts of knowhow, but it is what/how you manifest from that knowledge, that brings you full circle. I want and will make a difference in this world. I will NO MORE turn my back on the abilities I possess, and do my best to expand my actions/accomplishments for the sake/goodness of others. Is that my true purpose? As of now I  have to get more deep detailed orientated, and dig into the specific root of understanding that alluring question. That is why I am here, that is why I HOPE you are here, to truly take the risks, to break down what is within, and branch out within our world and rejoice joyfully. I am IN, I am HERE, Join Me, Believe in Me, Be a part of Me the RVB. I am such a kid at heart. It will be an aspect of me that will never hinder from my being, but I have to grow up and be a COMPLETE INDEPEDENT RESPONSIBLE MAN. As of now I AM NOT. That hurts, but it is true, and I have the courage to stand up to that reality with you here. The kid in me will always keep me motivated, smiling, laughing, and moving. It is like my heart beat, which is always working, thinking, and manuvering my flow. It is just time to mold that flow into greatness. I have high visionary Aquarian blood that streams from within, that is anxiously eager to meet all my expectations/dreams. DayByDay friends. BreathByBreath. ProjectByProject. Today is Now and Now is what we focus on.

OUT & ABOUT: DAY TWELVE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

This is a question I ask people when we first meet. It allows me to connect to them in a deep and cultural way. IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE TOMORROW TO A PLACE THAT YOU HAVE NEVER DISCOVERED, WHERE WOULD YOU EXPLORE AND WHY? The answer shows me passion, curiosity, creativity, desire, interest, and the ability to seek beyond the eye can see. The reason why allows me to understand the depth of that person's soul. For example, many people have told me, "I want to to go to Italy since I love Italian food," an answer that is flat one dimensional/sensational and lacks passionate drive, but when someone told me, "I want to go into the desert of the Middle East to Petrus, Jordan since it is ancient and full of amazing unknown history" NOW that grabs my attention since that is someone who takes risk, desires knowledge, and is an energy that inspires me to know more about them and encourage them to get there. Remember the world has unlimited opportunities for all of us to endure/pursue. The Earth has vast lands, rivers, seas, forest and jungles for us humans to explore and interact with all the inhabitants. There is a place for all of us for all the right loving reasons. Everyone possesses their own unique path, but we shouldn't deprive one another of sharing those paths with each other. Just last night I was traveling through downtown on the bus with a homeless man from Boston, Massachusetts swapping traveling stories. He had seen the United States through the big open windows of a Greyhound bus and kept saying over and over again.."Keep Doing, Keep Traveling, since there is no one else out there like YOU...Have to keep moving." It is an amazing thought and gesture with a little re-assurance that what I am doing does bring out the best in ME, it allows me to share, inspire and bring joy to someone else's heart. Even if its inside a METRO bus. Remember that we are all hungry, or at least I sure am, for learning something new that grabs our interests, or sparks ideas, but we can not bring more into our lives from the outside until we break down/face our fears. Our fear of commitment, getting hurt, feeling guilty, being let down, taking things personally, failure, unknown, and many more. Life is so grand and rewarding if you believe in your own message/beliefs/aspirations, and create a plan to take the proper strong focused action to bring all that you desire to Light. I have spent many a years dreaming, visioning, talking, writing things, but WITH NO FOLLOW THROUGH ACTION. That MUST and WILL stop NOW..or else? Or else I am not leading the life that I was put on this Earth to create. A life of true abundance, a life of celebration, a life of open heart free loving, a life bringing out the best in others, a life that makes a difference, a life of the arts, a life where my passions can be explored by all that desire to KNOW and ALL that want to improve and develop a growing path. But it takes patience, reasoning, understanding, listening, and striving towards a Light I believe is right for me and all that surrounds my world. So when I speak of all the travels I have been on, a glowing matter builds inside of me as I want to travel more and more and some more, but I have to take a step back and realize my reasons for my trips. School, Work and Play I always respond, but honestly sometimes I would travel to run from responsibility, pass time within another year and just go to a new land and have this great plan to write, but I would fall into a living environment similar to the one I am currently in fixated on the TV, exercise, eating, and just being RVB. No more, my passions will continue, but I HAVE to put forth some fierce action of responsibility and accomplishment when I go out beyond the eye can see. I have to take a vision of creating this film, with intentions in mind, and discover my true self. I am so so overdue of building a life for myself. I have to put an end to this OUT & ABOUT attitude and live up to my dad's CONQUERING HERO son. Not for anyone else, but for the sake of me. It was just an example of where I want to lead myself. Out of the lally-gagging world of talk talk talk, into a universe of immense dedication and positive results. Another great day under the sun. Always grateful and thankful for this body and mind of mine. - RVB

PRIORITIZE ORGANIZE OPTIMIZE: DAY ELEVEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Taking the peaceful silence to re-collect & reflect on one's life is a challenging task, but once you arrive at the exact moment of doing so, what actions do you take? How long do you encounter this alone time? Where are you located with this contemplation? Are you at peace? What are your intentions? Are you with fear? I believe understanding what is truly within YOU (past, present, future outlook) and analyzing what you have been through, what you were given, and what are your plans of utilization, is an opportunity where you can sort out your mental health, passions, and your driving dedication of creating fulfilling happiness in your life. We are all unique souls that are dealt with a wide variety of obstacles, barriers, possibilities, potential, and set backs that define our character. I get excited when I find myself gathering, thinking, and dreaming of all the places,people, and creatures I have encountered so far, but at the same time I fill with fear, excuses, and a dragging holding back energy that creates doubt/questions/hesitation of facing with the utmost courage to just take the risk and BATTLE. I have been wonderfully proactive with my physical health, mental health, but have the desire to improve more with my relationships (family & friends), career path, and consistent confident self. This year is a journey where I will surrender to this path of daily responsibility, follow through, and celebrate all my progress with ALL aspects of my life. I will create a daily balanced plan/process where I can become fully whole in my life/universe, resulting in a quality of living where I am able, will enable others, and lead a life full of newness, goodness, and sweetness. I can't stop smiling while writing here with all of you. There is a long road ahead that is a huge roller coaster of traveling, interviews, shooting, writing, editing, and I can not and will not do it alone. This project is all about inspiring, teaching, uplifting, and motivating one another by understanding FIRST who we are, what lies within, what are our gifts, and HOW do we desire to open up and share them with the world. Yes that is IT. So please prioritize some alone time throughout your day to really put some quality thinking about those questions of self evaluation/excavation understanding your instilled feelings/emotions and DO YOUR BEST to be free/let go and carve out all that is from within. Then take the courageous steps and celebrate all that you have, all that you want to give, and all that you are capable of creating. Organize your dreams/plans, take a stand and ignite with all your effort with a positive mind and open heart. Don't cut yourself short please, indulge in your passions, educate yourself or seek education, and always create a time for YOU. We must discover that true real life our soul is desired to seek & soar in, and allow others in to support and be a part of the glory that ALL of us deserve. Take your actions respectfully, creatively, vigorously, and with a visionary energy that can make you proud and full of optimization. There is so much to discover about YOU/US/ME and strongly believe if we don't understand our power/capability with a sense of stability and clarity, then it is even more challenging/unstable to live a FULL life moving forward in all aspects of our life: career, relationships, health etc.....So GO OUT TODAY and seek the truth, make time just for you, smile/breathe and just be, let be, and so it will be. YES. I believe, and boy am I gracious- RVB