GRACIOUSLY THANKFUL: DAY SIXTY EIGHT WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

What thoughts come to mind when you think of Thanksgiving? How about when you think of thankful giving? Different I hope. One is an American holiday with dead meat, corn, and celebrating the introduction to the ongoing exploitation of the Native American population, and the other is positive intended action that should be graciously appreciated and spark an inspiration to do the same. Exactly what this project was founded on. As I put in the research, effort, dedication, commitment, and create a positive intended journey, I hope to inspire others to search/give in a similar but unique personal way. So many of us stride through life without taking the time to understand we are not alone, life does not evolve just around YOU, and YOU are entitled to NADA, you don't deserve anything unless you earn it. Earning is not that difficult. It involves a foundational self-respect and for YOU and others, and a dedicated drive to love with LOVE. How do you perceive LOVE? How you do LOVE? What are you in LOVE with? What brings out the LOVE in YOU? Take some alone time once in awhile and lovingly ponder on the greatness of your LIFE, your gifts, the Earth's gifts, the amounts of abundance that is provided to ALL, the opportunities that the world has to offer, and all the wonderful possibilities we can choose. If you find yourself struggling in your ponderance or shun the opportunity, then feel how that reality feels? Enjoying the deprivation of appreciation? What are you grateful for? Do you think you can celebrate your potential all by yourself? What do you seek in others? How do you overcome elements in your life that you don't approve? Do you share appreciation? Do you live with a positive outlook? Do you tell others you are a realist when an optimist shares?I just believe life is so grand if you can walk tall with the confidence knowing you have the power to conquer anything that stands in your way by reaching out and facing life HEAD ON. Enable & Develop Your Way of Living where you are filled with the motivation to feel good about yourself and be grateful of all that you LOVE and PURSUE- rvb

LIVE MUSIC: DAY SIXTY SEVEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

There are some things in the world that leave a long lasting impression on the soul that are carried through a lifetime; enjoyed, celebrated, and appreciated. It is how the soul faces these emotions and reaps the beauty of their creations. It takes amazing dedication, sacrifice, and focus to master an instrument. It could be a scalpel, a crane, a banjo, harmonica, even our voice is an instrument. What has been your effort and adventure with understanding and playing an instrument? Do you have the confidence to share your progress with others or do you just keep it to yourself? What is your commitment level? How does your effort make you feel? There is something about the sounds and sight of someone swiftly swaying sweetly with the music that comes from their instrument. Throughout my life I have had the beautiful opportunity to have my curious ears and open mind be surrounded  with a wide variety of eclectic music ranging from the Beatles to the Beastie Boys, MJ & Bob, Creendence Clearwater Revival& Christopher Cross, Led Zepplin & Lionel Richie, James Taylor, Janis Joplin & Jimi, Mozart & ...much much more. My first concert was with my mama at the Universal Amphitheatre to see James Taylor strum his guitar and share his stories through Streamroller, Sweet Baby James & Carolina on my Mind. He has touched me ever since I discovered his gentle touching tune Fire & Rain (my favorite NOW) in the movie Running on Empty with the late River Phoenix. Then there is Ben E King's Stand by Me played at the end credits of my favorite movie with the same name. These are unforgettable instilled songs that are a part of me and drives my love for music and sharing. I love to get close and personal with musicians that know how to open up, tour, and stand up in front of strangers and play/sing away. What is your favorite LIVE ACT?  Would love to see the Stones, U2, AC/DC, Elton, I missed MJ,Whitney, the Doors, the Dead, and Queen but still have the opportunity to seek out future legends. I loved seeing Willie at Billy Bobs in Fort Worth and teaming up with Wynton Marsalis at the Hollywood Bowl. Natalie Cole is always a delight to see as my mama grew up with her here in Los Angeles. At live venues is a place to appreciate the feeling, be free, and truly let go of everything outside the moment while focusing with a gracious sense of discovery. I saw Dylan and Joe Cocker in New Orleans, Billy Idol in Vegas, and Dervish in Holland & Ireland. MSG awaits my presence for a live event as does Wembley Stadium, who knows where I will lead my musical mind next. It takes true talent, courage, and love to perform beautifully LIVE...Look up, stand tall, sing to the last row, utilize the stage, smile and have fun. Let Loose and Be in the Moment. Feel the Flow and Get in the Groove. Tap In & Touch your Talent. I would so love to hear your voice and feel your riffs. Where and who will be your next concert? Seek out local intimate venues. Get an up close view of hands traveling down necks of guitars and searching fingers up and down & around piano keys. What about music makes you smile and inspired? Bring more musical goodness into YOU and share your discoveries with others. RockOn- RVB

GET IN THE KITCHEN: DAY SIXTY SIX WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Do you have the capability to prepare and make the food that you enjoy the most? When you were little was there anyone that showed you the art of cooking? Did you have the desire to learn? What kind of progress did you make through the years? What is your relationship with food? I strongly believe we should ALL at least have the ability to create our favorite meal, be able to present/share with someone else, and truly be proud of our own unique cuisine. There is something so connecting in having the skills to make food for someone. What is your relationship with your kitchen? Every kitchen is filled with a wide variety of different elements. There is the space and the appliances, what is in refriegerator and who is holding space and creating in the kitchen. I love a wide open Light filled kitchen where I can roam, toss, chop, spread my elbows, and have access to all the wonderful special tools, utensils, bowls, mixers, blenders surrounded by sweet, spicy freshness where I can experiment, taste test, and get lost with my taste budding creativity of presenting an unforgettable item. My philiosophy of cooking is "Every bite is A New Bite; Sweet&Spicy" Some of my dishes have 15+ items all intermixed/smashed/collated, but will bring you a joy from the moment it hits your lips, making its way down the chute, and settling in your belly. My specialty is Mexican (tostadas, enchilladas, burritos, guacamole), Argentinian BBQ (asado & choripan), Sunday Brunch Scramble with Mint Fruit Salad and a wide variety of rice & grain dishes that will leave you asking for more. Since I am a dedicated vegan (Greens & Grains all Day Long) and cherish the beauty of SELF from the inside out, I do my best to reach out to quality fresh organic source foods that are grown with heart and good for mine and those I feed. Please don't fear your kitchen, throw away your mircowave, canned/boxed/frozen processed foods and seek out some simple tasty recipes and have a go at COOKING. Yes cooking people, what one does to eat. Have fun learning new things about you, your taste buds, and what yumminess is out there for you and your company. There is so much to discover in the kitchen. Cooking can be a science, a hobby, a delicious love, or a beautiful opportunity to share/celebrate. Have a picnic, cuddle on the couch, fancy it up by candle light, or provide service in bed with proper style & kick. Whatever brings you joy with food, be creative, and be memorable. Find your speciality and DIG IN. Bon Appetito- RVB

DIAL IN TODAY: DAY SIXTY FIVE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Do you recall life without a cell phone and the convenience of changing plans the last minute, calling to be late, or even making a phone call while driving? We are constantly adapting to changes, living in a society that constantly focuses on what others think, how to stay in fashion, on top of the norm, or even ahead of the game. There is way too much emphasis on being better than your competitor/neighbor/family member. Planning and preparing to be one step ahead of another person's move or decision. A successful business person might applaud/praise this way of acting and taking initiative, but I believe many of us get completely caught up in living in the wind, not thinking before talking/acting, and really deprive one another of true genuine living. I completely understand that there are moments in life where we have to jump at opportunities; meet me at the train station in 30 minutes and follow me to a new city where I will dedicate myself for the next three years and WILL establish you as a true professional of your trade. I don't encourage waiting around for your life to pass you by and let others dictate your path. I am all about proactive bonding and stepping up to the plate to face all that is in front of you. Just do your best to be TRUE to YOURSELF, and not lose sight of what you believe in, what grounds you, and how you want to be your own leader. Allow yourself to understand all that is within you, avoid consistent routine, develop new gifts, sculpt the ones you have, and let go of the things you KNOW don't work for you. I think many of us out there get drawn into circumstance that take us away of where we truly should be going. Sometimes don't give in to what ever one else is doing and establish your true ONE identity of living on your own terms, at your own unique pace, and realizing all that YOU are capable of doing for YOU in YOUR life. Be Your Own Cause Root of How You Live. There are too many times in life where we find our selves TOO dependent on the actions of others. I know in my life my current career path and living environment all truly out of my hands (MY CHOICE) and that WILL END...When, How, Where.....today I do not know, I should but I do not choose to face it as of NOW...Making the commitment to restrict, be aware, and make the best choices takes courage and dedication. It might even bring you out of your box, but life's challenges are presented to us sometimes in that manner. These are the times we have to STAND UP or even LAY DOWN, and LET GO, BE FREE, and truly DIAL IN to the power of being the TRUE YOU. We have to stop avoiding our true potential, going with the flowing norm, being shallow,and really hone in on our loving craft of celebrating the beauty of SELF. Put down the phone, open up your heart, listen from within, and make the desiring call counting on YOU to make the connection focusing on answering in the moment truthfully NOW.  rvb

RECONNECTION: DAY SIXTY FOUR WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Since we grow up in a world that requires or at least requests us, or I guess we choose, to GO GO GO, and GO some more. Living and running, running and Living all over the place by a certain time, for an allotted time, making time, fitting someone in, got2go got2go, see you later, not today but MAYBE, who created a rain check and what bank can I cash it in since I have won the lottery with all of them, call you laters that never arrive or goodbyes that last forever known when shared that it will be the last time, but too scared and full of fear to explain why. Ever encountered these feelings or have received these types of remarks from others that you believe in? We are so obligated around the time of the day; time management, last minute, half past this and that, see you there if I can get out of this on time, or lets meet half way and chat for awhile while my child sleeps for his daily afternoon mid-week time out nap. Now with cell phones filled with calendars, appointment books, different formatted clocks, alarms, and voicemails, we are constantly reminded and pressed for time throughout the heartbeat of the day. Yes even our heartbeat is affected due to how we deal with the progress of time. Ever spend a recent day with no determined sense of urgency, without a phone, and just have a peaceful, breathtaking chill day where you focus on feeling, receiving, and rejoicing all that surrounds just YOU? A day of reconnection, a day of exploration, a day of celebration seeking elements of your life where you feel whole or want to create wholeness, and a day that you are given/provide the energy to stride tall with pride on a wide boulevard or pass by a unique side street cafe? A huge part of this project has been breaking down the barriers of my past, reaching out, and bringing myself closer to both sides of my family. I have a huge road ahead that I am embracing fully, and so far have so so so enjoyed creating/having a meal with cousins, and sharing openly with them. It has been wonderfully fulfilling and so look forward to discovering more about my family. Both of my parents have huge loving hearts and like to believe that my Buchanan/Van de Kamp family are welcoming and accepting too. I just thrive to bring family back into my life. Due to the physical/emotional distance that has been forced into our family structure, it has been an ongoing battle finally resulting in JUST giving in selfishly to do my own thing on my own separate path, BUT NO MORE, NO WAY..there is too much love to share, much more to receive, and life is so much more grand/precious when involving/surrounding oneself with others that are willing to open up. I have a family that is very diverse, filled with great knowledge/intelligence, and all pursue aspects of living that inspire me to connect, reach out, and enjoy. I have cousins in great relationships, with beautiful babies, kind young adults, and live life to the fullest all over the United States of America. Can't wait to continue my quest of entering their households,creating delicious cuisine,celebrating our common bonds, and keeping in touch from now until the end of time. Life is all about Love. Family should Share Love. Keep Loving Your Family. Thanks to My Family- RVB

WHAT IT TAKES TO BE A CHAMPION: DAY SIXTY THREE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

The world of sports is an unbelievable creation that takes its spectators along a roller coaster of excitement and even times of disappointment. Many of us throughout our lives have had the unforgettable memory of experiencing up close and personal a championship event in a roaring stadium, on the radio, or at home in front of the television. Where ever it may have been created, living the actual result of a championship is like nothing else you will ever be part of again. It could be last second heroics or a slaughtering defeat, but during that pinnacle ending season or even career moment, one should and must ask, “What does it take to be a champion?”

In my life so far I have seen with my own two eyes over 50+ sports championships. From the World Series to the World Cup, to both Olympics and even the Stanley Cup Finals, I can say I was there to witness the crowning of true champions. I believe what people don’t realize is there are enormous amounts of dedicated time and gruesome effort endured to reach that championship moment. There is consistent practicing and unbearable training put forth in order to successfully have that day spent in glory or defeat.

-Attitude: How does a champion act and think?

-Schedule: What are the daily activities of a champion?

-Progress: How does a champion improve their skills?

-Intention: What force and desire does a champion possess?

-Adversity: How does a champion deal with the battles of becoming a champion?

It’s not just in athletics one can achieve the champion status, but its all about understanding what it takes to be a champion and the steps that are necessary to be called a champion. One must first have the dedication, devotion, and desire to take the hunger from within and strive onward with strong support towards common goals and consistent actions. The constant days of battling with the pressures, preparation, and priorities of focusing what it takes to be champion is a challenging task. How does natural talent come into play? It’s a positive building block, but that is only one of many that are needed to reach the top. Not all champions are winners. Someone is a champion if they can pick up the pieces of losing and work even harder to make it back on the pedestal. There are individual champions and ones that build with a team. Every champion has a support entourage that surrounds them and is much of the champions’ success then the athletes out there on the battle field. No on can be a champion alone! We have family, friends, teammates, coaches and fans that have a committed part of what is takes to be a champion. At that crucial moment, that last second, luck and fear can and does exist, but it’s the deliverable execution of a champion that got them there at that exact space in time for the chance of taking that desired champion status. I am always amazed at championship events analyzing why people lose. It can be lack of adaptation, coaching, and of course performance results. Most of the time there is always a precise moment, unless the outcome is decided in the last second, that an individual or team decides in their heart that the existence of winning is impossible. Its always a disappointing moment to view since it took so much sweat and practice time to get to the championship, but people give in and concede. It’s part of the game. In some sports losing champions are given the opportunity to return next season and fight again for the championship, but then there are others who will never make it to that pinnacle moment in their careers ever again.

True champions take their experiences and emotions and share it with the world since there is so much to give back and educate others what it takes to be a champion. Now it is my time to share what I have learned on the road of championship sports and creatively develop the Champions’ Road. It will be an opportunity for everyone with the curiosity and desire to understand the beauty of championship play. From January to December, the Champions’ Road will be open for people of all ages and cultures to join in on the victorious aspects and personal test of triumphant champions. Come out and join me on the road. If it happens to be the “Greatest Two Minutes in Sports” at the Kentucky Derby, or the “Greatest Spectacle in Racing” at the Indy 500, you will encounter what it takes to be a champio...on the Champions’ Road.

TAKING ADVICE: DAY SIXTY TWO WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I am the type of person/soul that loves to view and take part in the improvement of other people's lives by getting to the grassroots of transformation. The issue is flip flopping the reality of allowing others into my life/soul and listening to what others have to give/say for my progressive movement onward. Through all that I have done through exercise, meditation, self excavation, and getting to the root cell of what IS, I have truly done better with my development of peace of mind and taking advantage with the advice from others. We all can not and should not fulfill our potential and gifts ALONE. No No No. There is so many loyal caring supportive groups/individuals that like myself, have a Loving Heart that wants the best for humanity and willing/alble to see through the outcome for others, but struggle to spend the time/effort to follow through on the stability/security of ONE SELF. Of course it is always a battle to discover loyalty, integrity, and others sharing for the sake of others and not the self alone. What questions do you ask? How do you deal with doubt; face it/run away alone?? Who do you surround your life with and how do you manage your relationships? Define loyalty? There is so much promise and admiration to tap into, and the power of it's outcome can bring so much gracious joy, but to overcome the inner demonic attitude of fear and restriction, can cause an upfill battle to succeed fully. When you come across someone who shows the ability and care to reach out and show you the way, what initial feelings/questions do you face? Do you encounter a repetitive way of thinking? Or do you find the time/energy to overcome your fears and make the necessary progress to be more open to what others have to do say and want to give? How do you maintain these connections and relations? Any advice to provide? Do you want any advice? When you get up in the morning or decide to call it a night, recollect on your awareness, check in from within on your confidence and self-esteem with how you feel with your surroundings, your relationships, and how you can improve your active circle of living the Life. Don't forget the BEAUTY of YOU, the POWER of YOU, and ALL that YOU can Do for YOU, but with the unconditional love and support of others that truly BELIEVE in YOU. rvb

SPREADING YOUR JOY: DAY SIXTY ONE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

As we let go to let be in our ongoing days, what do we plan to do with ALL the openness we create and how will we bring newness into our souls? We can put forth the effort to truly carve out all that we don’t desire or believe we should rid ourselves, but THEN it is how we take the next sharing proactive steps forward that WILL determine the path that we will lead. As we discover the unknown and receive the motivation/inspiration to give, our actions we allow us the assurance of our TRUE fulfilling journey bringing others into our LIGHT. What drives you from sun up to sun down? What aspects of the world makes you shine in this chaotic universe? How do you tone down the chaos and allow yourself to be at peace? Once discoveries are made that drive you to share, how do you spread your joy and how do you get your message beyond your mind? There is so much I want to teach others that deprive themselves of all the world’s beautiful entities. I want to provide the opportunities to others and give them hope to traveling/exploration, seeking their inner soul, create a stable ground in the labor force with a positive/effective work  ethic, and to establish a wellness center where I can share my passions allowing creative curious folk to discover /mold their own driving force.  I believe the more I can strive to follow through with this vision the more the people I interact with will thrive and improve their daily lives. There are so many lost souls in our society. I am one of them, but putting focus NOW on getting grounded, sculpting my gifts/crafts, and sooner than never, will put BOTH my feet deep into the EARTH while making an impact with all that I pursue. I am filled with gratifying electricity and fire, but it is NOT a flame that satisfies me daily. There are days that I feel guilty of my non-follow through lifestyle, my here and there-over there- out there somewhere- sometimes focus. I have to establish a set of skills and discipline that I can soar onward with the help and love of others will similar passions and goals. A committed excellence is a must to get the message out to the willing and able. I have an abundance to listen and learn, and a Loving Light to give from my encounters/experiences. What arena or vessel do I desire to enter, where and when will I begin, and what will be the outcome of my actions? Too much thinking/over analyzing? Do it the Nike Way?  Or my sisters way of following something for ONE FULL YEAR? Some many faucets to tap from, with so much flowing sourced water to utilize. I am fearful with ashamed guilt at times with the feeling of wasting past time and unfinished projects, but have to learn that I MUST FOCUS on what I AM CAPABLE of DOING NOW, and how I can make an impact today for tomorrow. Live and Let Learn while living to give with a joy and spirit like no other. RVB

HEART SAFETY: DAY SIXTY WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I live2give, enjoy creating laughter, and unforgettable moments that can be enjoyed/thought of for a lifetime. Yes never forgotten always remembered within the intentions felt from within. It could be a cooked meal, a funny story, a warm gesture, but I thrive and strive to go above and beyond for the sake of others. Sometimes too good to be true in the heart of others that struggle to believe the kindness that comes from me, but it took getting used to, all the doubt,assumptions, accusations, and false predictions. Now I just present me and see where the breeze sends me. I am more cautious and aware of where I flow, how I spread my spirit, but I have learned through the years that it is a struggle entering into the aura of others and having others give me the confidence that I oh so deserve. All of us have our own battles, or own path, and our own story of going through that friendly flow, but it truly takes someone to realize how others feel, how YOU feel, and how you don't want to feel anymore pertaining to the the drama of DOUBT, DISHONESTY, and DISASSOCIATION with your TRUE SELF. I have heard we are all mirror images of each other, since we are ALL one. I understand that point to a point, but my point is that I give chances, do my best NOT to pre-judge, and to accept someone through their actions. I don't always succeed through that desire, but do my best to understand others, their passions, and heartfelt intentions. I do not and WILL NOT surrender to the VICTIM world of poor ol me, I had to go through this when I was this old, and I had to see that when I shouldn't/didn't want to... NO WAY...I have been dealt with a world that is part of me, I have made the choices that I have made a part of me, and today I write to all of YOU about ME...I always strive to learn more, do more, discover more, and share more. Yes my heart has been in and out of love, over the rainbow and down in the trenches, but remember our hearts are desiring muscles and have to strain a little, enjoy a great let-free workout, in order to graciously build up the stamina/endurance to be strong and mighty. My heart pumps with peace (45-60BPM=runners heart) calmness compassion creative curiosity, and a listening love so ask yourself where your heart lies, where it desires to lead you, and how will you utilize its LOVING BEAT to create/choose happiness in your enduring life. BeOpenlyFreeBleedWithGleeEnjoyTheBeautyofMe-rvb

READ THE FINE DETAILS: DAY FIFTY NINE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

If you would write a book about your life what kind of book would it be? Romantic Comedy, Mystery, Crime Drama, Action Thriller, Espinoage, or just a plain old biography? It is never too late to change your story or add sub-text or throw in a climatic shift in all that you pursue in life. Really though it comes down to how you feel about you and what you do in life, that results in the outcome of your legacy. Take the the time to know the TRUE you. Not the YOU that everyone sees or hears about, but the deep down straight to the bone YOU. It takes some work, asked questions, alone time, tears, and sweat to hit some solidness. You have to swim through the shallow end, take deep breaths along the way (what source of air do you use though?), and then take the plunge and kick with all you got to survive in the deep abyss to discover the world of YOU. How are your swimming skills? Endurance? Clean lungs? Flexibility? Willingness? Stamina? Can you even swim? What are the views of your tides and how do they make you feel? Rip current, smooth sailing, whirlpool? Beautiful analogy to face your life through the waters of struggle, fear, waves of wandering wonder, sink or swim, survive the tides with your pride. You like to get wet? What lies beneath your shore? What I really desire most is to take the plunge, but have more of an awareness and ability to absorb the finer details of life. Through all that I do; yoga, long distance running, meditation, eat, I really want to give more an effort to slow things down. Let Go More and not Bring Down So Much On Me...Keep the flow moving more gently and softer where I can feel a more consistent peace and control over my daily life. Take the time to read more often, less TV, get out in nature, ground myself in the natural beauties of the world where I don't have to hear the city noise, the complaining, the obesity, the poor diets/mouths, lack of exercise, too much this and that, and just surround myself with inspiring stories, or even create them, and discover a space and home that can be all of me. Yes a HOME that is ME. My Own. A living shrine of all that I believe in and so much more. Sooner than never? NO NO NO...It will be for me and oh so free...good stories and me for RVB

BE KIND TO YOURSELF: DAY FIFTY EIGHT WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

A little bit over four years NOW I have lived a sober lifestyle and committed to myself  to NEVER more put anything in my body that would be detremental to my well being. No more prescription drugs (I am debating getting on some ADD meds to see where it leads me since I struggle daily) even OTC asprin, no more drugs & alcohol, no more meat, dairy (recent vegan), no more soda, soy (some soy leictin), or products in a can. I have really honed in on the beauty of understanding the source of all that I enjoy. There are surely some aspects of my life that I desire to change where I feel are draining and/or should be faced and overcome; my living environment=stale, cluttered, dusty, over-welcomed, my career path=too much big picture and not enough focused commitment, relationships=not a quality flowing cirlce, stability/security=no job, no car, no smartphone, live at home with my papa...That's why I am hear to face all that I want to break away from and be truly GOOD TO MYSELF and all that I am capable of pursuing. There are too many of us that either hide from our gifts or just don't want to exert the energy to celebrate/utilize them. I am one of those lost souls. How are you good to YOU? What kind of personal thoughts do you share just with you about you everyday? Do you make yourself smile and laugh when you look yourself in the mirror? How much DOING do you DO? Do you follow through with your thoughts? What aspects of your life are you proud of and which ones do you desire to change or grow out of? We all have to understand the power of ASKING, POSITIVE THOUGHTS, PRAYER, and TRANSFORMATION, but we can't utlize these powers without the willingness and DESIRE to make a difference with oneself. Surround yourself with goodness; diet, exercise, water, friends, thoughts, activites, movement, cleaning, more water, newness. Present things into your life that are going to make you shine, feel at peace with inspiration, and provide you a sense of progressive accomplishment that will guide you on the path you visualize yourself striving. Action is a MUST. You can't sit around and believe things are just going to happen if you focus focus focus and believe all that you want will appear. Not that easy. By letting going and opening up with an awareness and Light things make feel easier, but you have to take the steps towards glory. Life is far from easy, but it is your style and approach that you have control over. Discover all that gets you excited and the things that hold you down. Understand your comfort zone and once in awhile step out and test the waters. I have to practice what I preach, take things slower, and get to the details of life to truly decide what is right for me. It are the little steps and choices we make that are the starting point up and over the mountain tops. So the important aspect is how we take those steps, our mind set, and what foundational decisions are set in stone, that can/will determine our path moving onward. Reach out to yourself from the inside out. Know your body, educate, investigate, and celebrate all that is YOU- rvb

THE INNER PRESSURE: DAY FIFTY SEVEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Where do your influences lie? How do allow them to influence you? Can you live and survive with the influences you lay with as you say goodnight or good bye in your day? There are so many distractions and ways to be thrown off course in this world. Time can be wasted, opportunities lost, and promises faded away. What style do you use to fight and face those inner demons, that inner push and pressure? Are you so grounded, secure, and confident you just flow through your day, or do you doubt, self-analyze, and dwell on what could have been if I did that, or asked her out, or left that person on this date when I was that old? Have to focus on the NOW and what works for you, and if it doesn't feel right then create a way to make it RIGHT. I feel a lot of pressure on me. Learned and was preached to this past weekend that I have to be gentle wityh myself. Is playing catch up with y'all being gentle...I am on the back stretch heading down, finish line in sight, with a little humid sweat around, have to pee, and with an overstuffed binged belly filled with carob covered almonds, rice & garbanzo beans with greens and grains all over topped off with tea+orange juice (not an Arnold Parmer) any names anyone? The point is my friends there has to be a way  for us to ease the pain, to tone down that surrounding buzz, and just be with pure focus and mite. I have beautiful days doing my thing, and then there are down days of not facing anything. Who says the down days are bad, but one shouldn't have to experience the guilt that is involved with DOING nothing. In my case I have this huge huge OPPORTUNITY POT to tap into. Enormous amounts of potential gifts to be opened up and celebrated. What I desire to do is to organize all what I see and visualize, and manifest all that CAN and WILL become of my soul. I have to start ASKING for help, guidance, and supervision. That is what I DO NOT have is supervision. With my ADD mind, and my way of doing business I desire someone to be my drill sergeant and get in my face respectfully and as my nephew said last Tuesday, "WAKE UP..." I am way overdue and have to start DOING, finish some things, and create a space where I feel wonderful about myself and my actions. I have made progress of letting go and feeling freely at peace with yoga,meditation, being in front of the sea, at a sports contest or watching one, visualizing what lies ahead, but I have to make a move, fold my cards or re-shuffle the deck, and just GROW UP! Deep breaths and cool spring water can only go so far. Taking trips and getting massages/facials are just temporary fulfillment, how/what/where/when/with whom WILL I DO to turn this pressure I put on myself from a draining element in my life into a motivation to finally get off my ass and LIVE MY LIFE how I SHOULD LIVE IT....get things out in the open, write things down, believe in your actions, and battle out there. There is a WAY for ME, for THEM  and a WAY for US and I. Really have to put in the time to break free and rid all that is bundled up, eating you from the inside, and let loose ALL that is ALL OF YOU. rvb

MASTERING: DAY FIFTY SIX WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Jack of all Trades? What keeps you busy throughout your working day? What true passions do you have within your soul to pursue on your career path? There is so much that races within my visionary mind that has guided me across this vast Earth. There is so much I want to share, there is so much I am capable of pursuing, and there is so much MORE to decide upon. Will I go the sport route, the musical way, or film creation. Can I shack it up and write write write like the little king (RYAN) I am and survive the results of my WORD? Or can I just do it all, pursue EXPLORATION CREATIONS and follow through with my ideal dream of opening up an international cultural development/wellness center? Deep down I completely understand that I can do what ever my heart desires. I am full of amazing gifts, wonderful wonders, and lots of years seeing/celebrating the world in my own unique way. I have to continue letting go, breaking down barriers, receiving the Spirit-filled energy, and be open to new beginnings in any way they will come my way. People that surround me fear that I AM NOT A MASTER of any of my passions. I have dibbed and dabbed, went here and there, and even stuck around, but NEVER truly committed ALL OF ME to anything in MY LIFE. I have participated 33 years of my life in the sports world. Is that my calling. Should I follow my original passion of becoming a sportscaster? Am I too late? Can my mind/memory keep up with all that requires to survive in the sports/sharing arena? Or produce an international sports travel show focusing on the Champions Road. Then there is my love and passion in the celebration of music and putting on a touring show to remember for the AGES. Boy do I have a love and knack for voice, stage color, presentation and how to reach out closer to the audience. Even though I have little experience in the music business. I did grow up in the musical theater in my dad's high school productions, my sister's Orphan Annie days, and my own work as a stage hand, stage manager, opera agent, and an avid music goer worldwide. I then can't avoid my lifelong love for film and the impact it has on my current lifestyle. As my step-father Chip constantly reports and it is oh so true, the entertainment industry is tough tough business. There is a lot of competitors, many players, and a variety of souls driving in all directions from the Valley to Malibu, to Universal to Sony. The opportunities are vast for sharing stories, voices, ideas, and dreams. A lot of writing to do,connections to be made, and barriers to conquer , but boy would I love to develop my vision. I am not a master of anything in my life. In the book the Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell , he discusses the 10,000 hour rule of mastering a skill, trade, or focus in life. The pursuit and accomplishment of 10,000 hours normally takes close to 10 years. Listen to Malcolm discussing this with Anderson Cooper http://www.faithandleadership.com/blog/02-20-2012/discuss-10000-hour-rule
and realize we have to be more patient, dedicate more grit/grim, focused sacrifice, and hone in on our craft. Where do I begin? It isn't late in my case. I can be 45 and a master writer, sportscaster, tour manager,film producer, creator/director of a center, but I better get going. I have to commit to my mastery, love what I am doing and put in THE TIME to live my great passionate potential. Please seek within and master your masterpiece. Ciao- RVB

MAKING VISITS: DAY FIFTY FIVE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

How many of you feel you are part of a neighborhood? Have a sense of community where you reside? I know it depends on your living environment and the locale of your residence, or even how close your neighbors live. What has happened to our neighborhood communities? Why are we all bundled up inside these days? What happened to the block party parade bbqs playing touch football in the street type of living? Why so much fear of the outdoors, the streets, the neighbors, intruders, strangers, walkers, animals, insects, explorers. Shame on your media, shame on you United State of America. Of course there are parts of this country where there are neighborhood traditions and openness to roam and play, but the invention of video games, computers, cell phones, and the television has truly caused the demise of our neighborhood energy and celebration. Due to lack of playing freely has resulted in the scalping of our nations voice, courage, knowledge, and dedicated work ethic that should be the foundation of a strong, loving world that we CAN and SHOULD enjoy the fullest. I know I have transformed through the technology age getting into the HERMIT MODE of living, even spending some days inside ALL DAY. There is so much the world has to offer with the Light-filled places to play, parks to hike in, mountains to climb, and cities to be discovered. People we have to GET OUTSIDE more, take the time to seek out others face2face, human contact/interaction can be so fulfilling, especially with our youth and wise elders. When I was old enough to enjoy and appreciate it I made the initiative to leave my Nintendo and board games for a bit, and discover some of my elderly neighbors by making consistent house calls in their homes for a warm tea/candy/cookie chat, or even a long sharing storied lunch. These were times where I felt free, honored/appreciated, allowing my caring creative curiosity to seek out wonderful memories from my elders. These were sweet grannies and grandpas that opened up their homes, kitchens, and living rooms to a young lost, but loving young man-boy that enjoyed yumminess and fun stories. Then as I got older my mama joined and volunteered for the wonderful program of Hospice. She was assigned to families where someone was given less than 6months to live. Whatever the situation she would come in and be a stress-reliever (shopping, visiting), a listener, a helper, and good quality humble visitor bringing love and support. Sometimes she would bring lil ol me with her to enjoy the festivities or to bring a bright filled spirit to the party. There is someone though that will be remembered in the hearts of my mama and I FOREVER, and that is ALICE. Alice was close to 90 I believe when we first met, and we were brought to her home since her husband (name not coming NOW) was put into the Hospice program. Alice was filled with such creative sweet loving Light. She painted, she cooked, she had a funny fascination/connection with pigs, and she loved to share stories. Wish I was more alert and aware of her amazing presence when I was with her, since I would have documented/absorbed more of who she was, where she had gone, and all the beauty she possessed. That's ok though since what I do have within me is a wonderful example of a true amazing woman who lived life to fullest. She loved to explore and boy she could travel. She hopped on charter vessels in Asia and would even bring a little California to the gardens of Europe by planting California Poppies secretly in places that would shine with Golden State Delight. She made the most delicious sandwiches and could entertain with the best of them. Down from her apartment balcony where we would have our lunches stood tall bamboo she returned with from Asia wyears ago. It was overflowing with abundance and decorating the parking spaces of Leisure World. Holding and celebrating space with those that you cherish and respect is so fulfilling. Listening and learning from your elders and realizing the strength and courage of past generations and how they managed,maintained, built, created, and lived LIFE on their own terms, is a true gift. Seek out grounded wisdom, take your time with it, spread your wings with intention, and soar like no other time in your life. OPEN, RELEASE, OPEN WIDER, REJOICE- rvb

HEALING HANDS: DAY FIFTY FOUR WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

There are parts on the body that stand out above the rest. Of course the head is above the rest and the toes or bottom of heal below, but everyone has their own preference and an be called either a "Boobs & Butt Man" or a "Chest Lady" or even "Hips and Feet People". We all discover beauty in different places on our bodies. I love faces and beautiful healthy curves. I enjoy a gracious unforgettable smile, loving laughter, and a sweet curious voice who asks questions. When I was 4.5 years old living in the San Bernardino Mountains in the town of Lake Arrowhead my papa ran a local high school called Rim of the World. As kids of the principal we had free range to roam within its grounds, open up gates, and utilize its facilities at our leisure. One weekend afternoon my papa introduced my siblings and I to the weight room. Under his supervision of course. I always being a curious explorer went around using the machines that I was capable of pushing, pulling, and lifting. My brother was sitting down using the leg press machine and announced that there wasn't enough weight and wanted to change its quantity. I was always doing best to better my brother and minutes earlier figured out the PIN MECHANISM on how to change the metal plates that were stacked on the machines. Little did I know what would happen next. As my papa always preaches, "No Good Deed Goes Unpunished." I knew how to wiggle the pin out of the weights, but didn't know if someone has the weights airborne and you take the pin out, then they will fall to their demise and crush/rip any little fingers placed on the bottom of their pile. I was always told it was 50lbs or so, my brother may tell you different. It didn't matter what the pounds were, my middle finger and ring finger of my left hand were flatten down to quarter width, split like bananas, and had crushed knuckles with a lifelong chip in one. We went to two hospitals that day; local emergency and down the hill specialist. My fingers were way too spit open to stitch up, so all they could do was wrap my little sausages up and hope for the best. The most painful  day of my life was the day after when my early-waking-for-work papa had to get me up and re-wrap my newly damaged hand before heading off to school. The 1980s gauze had stuck to the insides, my blood drained body was aching, and my hand throbbing. I had to soak that hand for 3 months in unforgettable smelling solution. My hand is fully functional, a little stiff with definite nerve damage, with a fat abnormal shape and lifelong scars, but I am typing here with you no problem. I always say GOD has cursed me through my hands. Being an athlete I had my share of broken/dislocated fingers playing catcher in baseball, center in AmericanFootball, and as an all-star goalie defending the enemy in futbol. Through the years though my reactive angry temper got my hands in the mixed up in some painful trouble. Put yourself in this situation as a jealous-in the Zone boyfriend who planned a whole romantic out in the town college San Francisco FridayNightDateNight, and then receives news that it will be a rain check change of plans. I was pissed and did my best to strike my right hand through a cement dorm room wall. The wall wall didn't budge a bit, but my fifth metacarpal didn't withstand the strike and snapped, changing my Friday Night into a night in the emergency room and an early Saturday morning on the operating table. The doctor put a cast on it originally, but the pinkie bone would keep slipping out. Therefore a beautifully crafted incision was made over the bone to re-set it in place and then a 2.5 metal rod with rubber out of skin handle was laid on top of the bone to keep sturdy for 1.5 months. Once again scarred for life, another battle wound, but I am not finished. If any of you know how pick up basketball works, then you are aware that if your team wins, your team keeps playing. It was the 3rd game at a local park where you play up to 13, and we were on the 12th point, so I was hurting with exhaustion, but always determined to win. I called a foul on my opponent who disliked the call and shoved the ball at my chest. Once again my reactive ego got the best of me as I proceeded to chuck the ball at the guys head as he was walking away. I was spot on and so was the guy who rushed me and got in some good ones real quick. It wasn't pretty. It had been awhile since I was engaged in a fight and I was on the court for hours playing intense ball. He caught me off guard, but I was saved since he was a long-hair and was able to run my left hand through his head and upper-cut him with my right. I was exhausted and gave in, gave up, and walked away wounded for life. I have a noticeable  knot on the top of my right hand just above my wrist. Another internal hand memory brought upon me by ego. I was reminded today that I must be more gentle with myself. Take life's decisions more slowly, more maturely and with gracious HEALING HANDS. Blessings Your Way- RVB

LAY LOW: DAY FIFTY THREE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I am the type of person that has been places at all hours of the day and night, been around and seeped into a wide variety of culture and ambiance, but it seems that I thrive and strive to know and experience more. Always exploring the unknown is on my mind, Where is my next adventure, a question that many ask when they are in the that speechless discomfort state of not knowing what to ask next. Instead of talking about the weather, people seem to ask about where I plan to explore next. The way I travel I do my best to put myself in places where locals would gather, enjoy a a busy lunch sitting at the counter or at a communal table. Seek out someone who usually doesn't get any attention, since most of the times, those are the types of souls that enjoy sharing the most, but of course due to that isolated head lay low lifestyle, sometimes it is the opposite and that person wants nothing to do with you. I am all about integration. Getting to the bottom foundation of life, cause root of all knowing, and a core understanding of what makes people do what they decide to do. I guess you would call it a anthro-psychology curiosity of the deep instilled knowledge that people have from within and the actions they take to share that spirit. When I go out into my day or leave to begin a long journey, my papa always gives me the advice "Hunker Down, keep your Head Down, and Lay Low." He isn't insisting I avoid or deprive myself of what is out their to enjoy, but to stray away from conflict, don't mess around within any unwanted grounds, or just to "keep my nose clean" of any future issues that would cause strife. The past principal/teacher within him always desires the best for me. A yes man full of history, love of people, and desire to fill his curious mind with newness. A sometimes stubborn soul, stuck, stale, and stiff at times, but all and all a lay low kind of guy that loves me always. So when you prioritize the time in your life to journey out beyond your city and you enter into a newly discovered dwelling change up your style of exploring. Observe with silence and a smile. Put yourself in uncomfortable situations while breaking down fears. You never know what will arrive in that space of yours, it might even allow you to meet someone you never thought would come into your life, or give you an idea to start a project that will make an impact. Create your own style, walk with pride, indulge with patience & alertness. Understand that the world offers loving gifts for ALL of us, just have to be open and willing to receive/utilize them to the best of your ability. Test the waters, drink and eat locally, be good to yourself ,and celebrate all that YOU ARE. Keep building, keep living, keep creating- RVB

THE STEP WORLD: DAY FIFTY TWO WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

There are positive and of course negative aspects of growing up never remembering a day in my life where my parents were together. My papa has this Nikon camera that was an integral part of my life since it was through his lens and his love to share, where he most of his photos developed into SLIDES. Through these slides I was given the gift of laughter and presentation of my early early childhood. That chocolate cake first birthday, my mamas gorgeous full straight brown hair, and family gatherings with fun clothes and smiles. When I was close to two years old though those SLIDES were all I have to remember what a family is all about. I envy big loving joyous open free families that thrive and strive to continue wonderful longtime legacies of tradition. Not that both sides of my Dutch-Irish family have long immigrating memories, its just that my immediate family was broken down years ago and is what I was dealt with moving forward. When you are a child of divorce a battlefield is created, and its i really up to the children to understand what lies ahead within its force. Also its' up to the parents actions to truly form its boundaries. Even at a young young age I did my best to play fair, have an even playing field, and really investigate the truth from both sides. I have established close relationships with my parents, but wouldn't say we are so so so deep and connected. I adore and love with ALL of me my papa and ma. They would surely voice the same about me. It is just that they come from families where there was a pretty shallowness means of communication, and a generation that doesn't enjoy conflict, and takes things pretty personally. Due to this I desire improvement on the grounds of relations with my folks, questions have to be asked, digging has to be done (not exactly about past issues) to develop a more openly sharing relationship that can motivate and inspire to DO MORE. There is a lot of repetition in how we interact, but through things I have faced in my recent life, I see there is slow progress. The result of divorce then leads to the name I just created THE STEP WORLD.....other men and woman brought into the daily home and lives throughout the years. I always say my mama married work-a-holics, men that did not have her on the top of their priority list, and my papa just married a lady that desired more that he wanted to compromise (simply/nicely put). Each parent always made sure at least in my eyes and world, that they brought in individuals that were passionate and willing to share/give themselves to the family. There was the gentle Lativian, competitive Lawyer, and now the Hospitality Man...all that I bond with, all that I love, and all that I have gracious thanks for being in my life. Not all perfect, not all true, but at least sacrificed for the sake of me to give me hope and LOVE. My step-mom was sweet, smiley, but very young and new being a motherly figure. She was thrown into a mix of mixed up kids in a mixed up custody battle. DAD v. MOM in the ring with the step parents in their corners to support and make the parents look like they are fit enough to raise the child with them in their home. I bonded well with all my step-parents. I have 3 step-Dads and 1 step-Mom. They put up with my issues, my mouth, my mind, and my maturity. I put myself in their shoes and applaud their patience, their support, their understanding, and courage. Once a step-parent always a step-parent. I always mention I have been a part of 4 divorces....and I surely suffered the pain and anguish of each one of them no matter how old I was. Witnessing defeat, failure, and pain in the eyes and souls of those I love, really hurts. Tossing and turning, packing and pushing, straying and sleeping on the way. Every other weekend parenting, meeting half way, storming off good byes, and ruining holidays due to the desire of confusing attention really puts a toll on any soul, let alone a Tough skinned toddler. Boy on the Mountain, Boy Cuddled Up Inside. Wouldn't be here without those challenging times overcoming all that was put on my plate. Hungry to let go of all that bottled up angry. I hit the ball fields, got on my bike, became local and state champ, now run, meditate, practice yoga, walk the RedRoad, and share with y'all. Have respect or at least be open to those that your parents bring into your life, who ever they maybe. We should all give people chances, hear them out, have a meal with them, smile & laugh, then can make decision upon character and actions. Don't be too cruel or put much time and energy into the process. Through your time you should know or at least have someone to turn to make you realize the real Truth. Keep sharing your joy!- RVB

SUNSHINE LOVE: DAY FIFTY ONE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Rise and Shine! Down with the Setting Sun! Seen the Green Flash anyone? It does exist. Just have to have the right conditions and view of the horizon as the sun melts like a Hershey Kiss into the sea. How do you embrace sunshine into your life? Do you run from it? Protect yourself from it? Cover up? Or do you kick off your shoes, gather up some loved ones, and be free with it? How many of you surround yourself with Light filled moments throughout your day? When you are presented with its power how do you allow it into your space? Many of our souls are gleaming with the essence of the Light. What is the intention of that Light? What kind of vessel holds its potential? Remember we are all Loving vessels that thrive on goodness of warm, uplifting Light that thrives to empower all that we desire, but its how our vessel dwells,acts, and shines. There has to be attention put forth in all of us where we can realize the beauty of bringing newness into OUR DAY. It can be huge or itty bitty, but just to have the flow of wonderful promising Light within OUR AURA can create opportunities, allow US to LET GO, and provide us the strength and wisdom to lead on a fulfilling path. So first check in with yourself and the welcoming mat within your soul. Is it clean and firm, or is it overgrown and fading? What kind of door does it protect? I understand that love can create complications, frustrations, and plenty of jealous assumptions, but it is really how we choose and accept love into our HEARTS. If we can break down the pattern/habits of how we bring LOVE and SUNSHINE to our souls, and clean out our welcoming vessel and our reaction to its presence, then I believe the joyful loving love we all so desire can exist. It is an awareness and a commitment to ourselves with how we want to be treated and celebrated with the glorious power of being loved, sharing love, falling in love, and choosing LOVE in OUR lives. This is a year of proactive cleaning in my world and I believe one has to spend the time to scrape, chip, shave away all that WAS, all that you assume WILL BE, and just be at a peaceful calm place where we can just be with LOVE. A relationship is not ALL about LOVE, but it is a wonderful foundation and inspiration once it can be honestly recognized and utilized. It doesn't involve work , but a dedicated effort of being TRUE to YOU and all that you DO. So when you feel that burning desiring eye wincing Light from above and really want to go out and share, take a little time for just YOU and enjoy the JOURNEY, deep breath SIGH, and then go out and discover those special EYES. Love To You- RVB

ASK: DAY FIFTY WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

How many of you spend the majority of your day DOING all that you DO by yourself? How much of your day are you alone isolated at work, in front of your television/computer, driving, exercising, or even eating? How many of you enjoy living life on your own terms, at your own pace, within your own space and NOT REALLY let anyone in your living presence. I know I have lived a great deal of my life being a lone wolf, exploring spontaneously, and even spending the day at the movies all by myself. There is a sense of peace not having to be entertaining someone else, or holding conversation. As you all know I LOVE TO SHARE, enjoy company, and learn from others. From a young age I raced away from my house on my bicycle  around town, never really had that wolf pack of friends due to me moving, changing schools, and just my demeanor to float around the social circles never really connecting with one fully. Then there is the trust factor many of us deal with and also how we communicate. I am a pretty open person, but when it comes to openly communicating on a consistent basis there is surely room for desired improvement. Another element that is huge is daily energy flow. I have a tendency to think ALOT, constant brain waves moving, and that puts a damper on the effort level one has to reach out to others. I live to give and enjoy being of service to others, so when I spend much of my times listening, giving advice, making sure others are up to par, I deprive myself of the self-attention that I want to improve with and then just shut down or walk away. We can not be our true self with our ultimate potential by doing what I have been doing for the majority of my life. I have to make drastic efforts to create a peace of mind and energizing balance within my soul in order to create time/commitment to ask others for advice, assistance and guidance on my path of transformation. Instead of taking all my energy and just DO DO DO for OTHERS or ME, I must discover a way to manage my priorities and bring people in my life that I can count on. Honestly since I am such a giving person I seem to attract people in my life that love to give to, but enjoy my giving more and eventually will turn into takers, or just not have it in them to welcome in asked favors. FOR THOSE THAT ARE IN MY LIFE AND ARE UNCONDITIONALLY LOVING SOULS THAT WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR ME, I am not including you of course, but through my life I enjoy doing things either on my own, or don't ASK others to help. I really desire a circle of committed loyal loving and fun friends that enjoy reaching out, asking for help, and have no problem to be a YES HUMAN with no fuss or questions asked. I really have a void in my life with quality relationships that I can count on, celebrate, and conquer the world by their side.Will do my best to uplift out of that void and keep my positive awareness open so I can truly get out of my current rut of feeling alone on this battlefield called life. I know I am surely not alone in spirit and that there are people in my life that I can reach out to, but it is just up to me to take the action to ASK them, be understanding, patient, willing, and overcome my inner fears of relying on the love from others to keep me on course. So take the time, YES FOR YOU AND ONLY YOU, but it is UP TO YOU AND ONLY you to take the ACTION to also find it within you to ASK: questions, for help/advice, for directions, for forgiveness, how to do something new, and even ask a stranger if you can lend a helping hand. Have fun with your asking attitude and effort- RVB

PLAY WITH STYLE: DAY FORTY NINE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I believe all of us enjoy feeling good physically, feeling good about ourselves, and feeling good with all the things we pursue. Truly what creates this goodness feeling? How do you make sure you have the openness to receive it, create it, celebrate it, and enjoy it to the fullest? A close loved one asked me a couple days ago, "Ryan how do you play?" A very calm but serious question. I took a moment to go through my actions, understand my intentions of those actions, and deep down I lack playing in my life. I run to release, I do laugh a lot which might be consider playing, I enjoy cooking, but my kitchen at home has restrictions and enclosed. I do not play enough. Is yoga playing? Writing? People watching? So I definitely have to bring more play time in my life. I understand I am at a long crossroads in my life, and some would say I shouldn't waste time to play, but I strongly believe that the Loving Soul has to bring some playtime into its Day in order to stay fresh, open, free, and hopeful. It is all about BALANCE in one's LIFE, time management, and the ability to smooth out all the rough edges. How can I play more? Learn to play the banjo that has been waiting in my room for years? Take some cooking classes near the sea somewhere? Get singing again? Follow a writing schedule? Take my brother up on his desire to teach me how to surf  into the Pacific?? Salsa anyone? So ask yourself the same question I was asked. How do you play and what do you think is it feels like to have play time? Once you bring some free time into your life or have a play date, really take the time to ENJOY all that you DO. Be patient, aware, alert, and follow through with this new commitment. As people age we stray away from taking the time to play. We forget about how to be joyful, playful, and fun. There is a constant sense of time, places to go, people to meet, things we have to do. NO. Allow yourself to discover an activity, a place, or even someone to indulge with, but make sure you identify the energy you bring to that moment, how you feel, and what intention you have towards your activity. If you already play, and it brings you wonderful memorable times then continue it. Also do your best to do other things too. Challenge yourself, pick up new skills, teach others how to play. There shouldn't be too many days or moments where we feel overwhelmed, TIIIIRED, spent, or just plain DONE. As I always preach; hydration, sleep, sweat, diet, and positive thinking. You are what you think, you are what you eat, therefore understand the power of all that you are, and all that you DO throughout your day. Do it with some STYLE brothers and sisters. Its all in the hips, with the sway, in the wind, from up above. BELIEVE- RVB

PEACEFULLY PRAY: DAY FORTY EIGHT WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Throughout your day, week, month, year or life how much time have you spent and put aside to pray? Where were you? What do you normally pray for? How do you pray? How do you feel when you pray? Do you pray out loud or silently? Alone or with others? I was brought up in the Catholic Community and before anyone passes judgement or switches their mind set because of that reality in my life, let me explain my experience with my faith and the art of prayer. Through my encounter with church, they started me WAAAAY too young. Being 7-8 and understanding the value/worthiness/honor of having the BODY OF CHRIST through the sacrament of the Eucharist, is quite mind boggling. Now I believe the age where children celebrate this sacrament is a little older, but it still is a relationship/ceremony that is intimate and think that children have a difficult time understanding the true nature of its meaning. I went to Catholic school until I was fed up with it, and through my life in my education I truly had the power to move on. When things weren't feasible anymore and I wasn't having the faith in my education environment, I SPOKE UP. Even at a young age I knew it was time to move on. I was a weekly church goer for years, forced/grandfathered in, but church wasn't all that bad. Always did my best to listen as much as I could, enjoy the music, even offer my services as an altar boy, but had a challenge to avoid the 'Yawning Powder" that I conspired to believe was falling from the manger up above since I couldn't avoid keeping my mouth closed. Through my church experiences I did though understand and willingly throughout my life cherished the art of prayer. I truly don't and never will pray enough, but recently through meditation, walking the RedRoad, and having the awareness of its importance, I have found the time and energy to reach out up above and from within. There are so many of us through the years that have dumped layer after layer on our souls with all that we have seen, all that we have experienced ,and all that we have overcome. Through prayer and proactive intentions we can unravel all that, and OPEN UP to accept newness and peace within our bones. Take a break once awhile, sweat, laugh, PLAY (have to do more of that for sure), read, run, BELIEVE, keep your faith alive by surrounding yourself with goodness and a beauty that can keep you grounded and ALIVE with LIFE. Create time to pray, hold time to pray, get away to pray, close your eyes to pray, say it out loud, hear your prayers, ask for prayers, pray and pray some more. Ask and you will receive. The power of the word travels far beyond you know. You are what you say, you get what you ask for (forgive me for saying it) and remember to take time for YOU. Discover a special place near by in your neighborhood, in your heart, but enjoy the journey you are on, be good to yourself, and rejoice the power and gifts that await your welcoming. Keep sharing your joy through your prayers. RVB

HOLDING SPACE: DAY FORTY SEVEN WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

The wonderful ability and beauty we have to LIVE LIFE is such an amazing gift that is presented to us humans. Yes that is ALL we are, HUMAN. We are far from perfect, make mistakes, can be selfish, over-react, not think before we talk, but we are only HUMAN. That can not and should not consistently be an excuse of how we behave though. WE are all brought up in different living environments, with a wide variety of styles/morals, but deep down we do have the POWER OF CHOICE. The choices we make determine exactly the perspective others or even one self may have on our character, but even more importantly its is our ACTIONS and how we adapt to those choices that mold us. Many of us lead a life stubbornly, close minded, and in my mind quite deprived since those types of souls truly don't discover the powerful opportunities ONE is given to grow, transform, and make an impact to those that surround US. Especially here in the United States where the daily lifestyle is quite fast paced, distant from effective/efficient quality, and a ME-me-ME survival attitude that can be found coast to coast. If we all could just slow down, eat with intention, drink more water, breath with passion, and just blossom our awareness more wider and often, we as a community could connect more easily with a broader understanding of OUR desires as a WHOLE. More gratitude, appreciation, and forgiveness which WILL result in a more peaceful sweet way of living. There has to be more examples created so some our young folk can reach out their searching minds and desiring hearts and believe in the cause, have faith in others, and demand change around themselves. We have to put in improved effort to HOLD POSITIVE UPLIFTING SPACE where ever we may celebrate and roam. As this space can expand and dwell with great pride, then the entrance will be more welcoming as the flock will flow within its borders. Currently there is not enough contact, celebration, connectivity, community, conservation, collective bargaining, and creative consistency. PEOPLE, as my nephew recently prayed to me, "WAKE UP UNCLE RY-RY WAKE UP" we can to unite together, let go of our fears, insecurities, dishonesty, and yes WAKE UP, Create some self respect/love understand who you are a little bit, develop/enable your gifts from the inside out and reach out to me for a change, Know your neighbor, call your loved ones or even better SHOW UP, HOLD SPACE, REPRESENT, and LOVE. Yes please love love love all that you can, all that you desire, and all that is wanted in ALL that you pursue and adore. There are so many lost ones out there. It is my passion and purpose to share what I possess with those that are willing and able to open up, listen up, and seek up for all that is possible from the Spirit, the Light, and the love that lingers and brightens up our days. Next time you find yourself in a rush to make that morning train, or you scarf down your dinner while driving to you next Parent Night, remember to take it easy, be aware of your intention at that moment, and believe in your purpose what ever that may be TODAY & NOW- RVB

STANDING UP: DAY FORTY SIX WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

What is the first thing you do when you get out of bed in the morning? It can't be brush your teeth, make coffee or take a pee, it has to be STAND UP...I understand completely some of us are uncapable of standing up physically, but will all rise out of our sleep into a NewDay allowing ourselves to open up and be free within our own unique world. What choices will you make throughout this new beginning? How will you guide your day? What new things will you learn or teach yourself? Keep your head up, look around, feel and BE TALL even if you are really not. Ever discover a small feisty dog biting at your ankles or even licking your feet  that THINKS BIG. Loves his/her space and prances around knowing that he/she does his best to run/sniff around all day to enjoy the journey. Do you ever feel like you can accomplish that same type of energy? Take a stand with all that you desire, break down your fears and just go after with a faith going attitude that you can conquer anything that stands in your way?  Ever discover a loved one, soul mate, best friend, man or woman, where you feel mind2mind, Heart2Heart, Eye2Eye you can overcome any possibility that you are proposed? Seek out those connections, or at least have hope in their exsistence since they are there for the taking. When you arrive to this opening you will KNOW it is oh so RIGHT. The issue is how will you react to the welcoming of its giving love? How will you make sure you utilize all that IT is and all that it CAN become? There has been too many times in my life where I am approached with information, or meet someone extra special, or for a specific reason, and I never bring anyhting to fruition, or I lay a gracious foundation, but never DO what I SAY. That will stop, DO what YOU SAY or just dont say it. Be Amicable to Your Word (1st Agreement of 4 muchas gracias DonMiguelRuiz). Strive to maintain a Strong Healthy Balance in All that You DO. Whatever the combo may be. Simple, Complex, Out of the Ordinary, but establish a tenderness within you to DO. To Do what you are capable and willing to DO. Get out and be somebody. Understand the True You, by truly understanding who You are, and how YOU and only YOU can provide YOU, to this ME ME ME World. "Take your Time, Think A lot.....You will always be here tomorrow, but your Dreams May Not" CatStevens/Yosuf Islam....RVB http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4cpX1ZjuaiA&feature=related

YELLOW BUTTERFLIES: DAY FORTY FIVE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Slow down your pace this hour. Think with a calmness where you can hear the buzzing of the Light, or nearby insects calling it a day, or even a faraway wind coming your way. Fix your posture, shoulders back, head straight. SMILE with a glistening joy that spreads out wide. Sway your head side to side with that welcoming wind. Be in the present moment, create a happy positive space for you to just stand and BE. Close your eyes, arms to the sky giving and loving exactly where you are right NOW. Realize all that is within you, mind & body, is eagerly anxious to be nurtured and transformed blossoming into a wild flower that has risen deep from the EARTH that you stand upon. Don't forget to breathe with intention, give thanks for this TIME, and ask yourself where would I enjoy adventuring today? How can I bring newness/change throughout my day where I can allow myself to be more open and provide myself a true sense of flowing freedom that just elopes from within? Take this alone solo time just for you to allow your mind to wander and wonder amongst your world. Take your hands heart center. Keep a peaceful slow breath with that glorious smile of yours, and be graciously grateful for all that you are, all that you desire to be, and all that you WILL be. Open your eyes slowly and then take a stroll with steps that are 80% slower then you normally go. Yes tip toe baby steps letting go of all your senses. Listen and Learn, Feel and Forget, Hear Happiness, Taste and Touch. You might even be aware that there are YELLOW BUTTERFLIES fluttering in your existence. Keep your awareness afloat and rejoice all that you are DOING. Look around, smile, and allow your DAY to be its best while remembering exactly what you have just become. Spread your feelings and just soar- RVB

WRITTEN VOICE: DAY FORTY FOUR WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

What is the most effective way to communicate? When I worked at Cisco Systems I was taught that the most efficient way to get connected with someone is the following; 1. Face2Face=InPerson, 2.ViaPhone=WithVoice 3.ViaFax=ConfirmationFollowUp 4.Email=Sent/ ReceivedConfirmation This was Y2K pre-text era when I was adapting to a co-worker full of ego, bad cigarette breath, but I wanted to make sure to satisfy her every desire since she was my mentor. I was inheriting her program and she made it a point how, when, and why one should communicate. Even though she eventually went behind my back and talked nonsense about who I was and how I worked, she instilled in me a sense of respect of communication and the style we should use in times when we want to get connected with one another. Nowadays its about daily adaptation of how we can reach the people we meet. I always ask someone when I have to communicate with them, "Are you an emailer, texter, or work better with phone calls or face2face?" I have got into the horrible habit of texting way too much. It has no tone of voice, can be misunderstood and its is just TOO EASY, uncourageous, and really can cause so many more issues than solutions. I know there are times in our day where talking is not possible, but out in this world there is too much use of text messaging and truly stripping OUR VOICE. Where has our voice gone? (Another documentary idea) I am going to do my best everyone to reduce my texts and share my voice with all of you. Call me, reach out, come to me, seek me out. Also since I was in fifth grade where I had a tough tough year dealing with DIVORCE #2 and Ms. Jephcott (CalAlum). She was a wonderful, patient, intelligent lady (hoping to share her with my film) that required her students to journal. She thought especially for me it would be a place where I could voice, YES VOICE, my opinions, my experiences, my pain, my passions, and that is exactly what I gave her. There were times I spoke directly to her, and other times I gave her a play by play of all that I encountered during the weekends I spent in Burbank with my papa at high school football games, dance, and events. I believe I still have that MEAD notebook somewhere since it was such a instrumental part of my life. It taught me to open up, be myself, and SPEAK UP what my heart believes in and desires. There is so much wonderful relief and inspiration in the art of writing down your thoughts. I am a true writer at heart and always love to share my stories and adventures by journaling. I write a daily journal for all my month+ long traveling adventures until just last year I broke that streak heading down to South America. I am  back here with all of you giving and writing on a year-long vision moving forward and along this way I will discover/create the TRUE GIFTED ME. Above on this computer I have FAVORITES list of all the writing projects I desire to complete. There are TV Shows, Novels, Films, Cartoon Animations, and even Video Games. Within my writing heart I will grace you with amazing laughter, loving relationships, overcoming adventures, and unknown newness that will brighten up your day and provide/guide your inspiring heart to reach out and DO MORE for YOU. When will I hone in and just be the wonderful writer that God has gifted me to be and become? I also have a vision to write comedy and STAND UP and get in front of that microphone and shine on that SPOT. As of today, WHAT IS MY PURPOSE?,- To live on the Central Coast share my writing soul, work on opening up my Exploration Center and come down into LA or fly across NYC or all over the world and share MY VOICE, BRAIN, as a creator of inspiring entertainment. Lots of more focus on ME in breaking down exactly where I will be going, how I will be doing it, and WHAT I will be pursuing. It is so exciting to have the wonderful opportunity, drive and vision to FINALLY make the decision of WHO I AM and WHERE I AM GOING this year. NO PRESSURE huh, but I will always write and share so don't forget that, since I want you to be there to listen/learn and understand/celebrate my energy. How are your writing skills? What do enjoy writing? Time to rest so I can write more. Love to Y'all from Hill Country Texas- RVB

DOING THE WORK: DAY FORTY THREE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

I was told when I left university back in 2000 that I would pursue close to over 10 different types of careers in my life before its all over. It surely isnt like the generations before mine where men and women committed to a lifestyle career where there job was truly part of their WHOLE life. There are career service men/women, police officers, fireman, stockbrokers, teachers, and even mechanics, but NOT ME. There has been so many decisions made in my life BY ME, that has driven/taken me to ALL corners of the EARTH. Will I ever be a CAREER MAN? Was also asked this question last year; "What is the longest thing in your life that you have done the most." Yoga-7.5 years, Drinking 16+ years (4 years sobriety Feb 18, 2008), Traveling- 28+years, Vegan 4+ months, WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE 42 days.....Attending Sporting Events 33+ years....It is a real shocker to think back, recollect, and truly understand where you have been, where you wanted to go, what you decided to pursue, and what you have ended up doing? Is this all a waste of time to remember and dwell upon? Can I learn from my mistakes? Can I take my life experiences and put them forth towards a valuable career in a world that will be accepting/welcoming and have faith in all that I want to give, teach, guide, and share. There are times I wished I did that, or didn't do that, or turned that way, or even just got out and left, but NO NO NO I live life with NO REGRETS..seriously NONE, can't dwell on anything I have no power to change. All I can do is gather up ALL that I have TODAY, and hope deep down that what I choose and do is going to contribute to the honest well being of who I want to become. I AM SO SO OVERWHELMED, UP&DOWN, so want to get closure, so want to write, sing, travel, make sweet love, provide a living environment for myself where I can feel oh so GREAT about MYSELF. What is exactly that balance? Is it on the road? How can I establish MY OWN HOUSE? Sacrifices, taking risks, celebrating my gifts, and allowing to continue to be open, but I MUST and WILL put my feet down and COMMIT to something. When, Where, How, Why, Who....am I supposed to be a journalist with those questions; international sports travel show host, producer of entertainment, creator/choreographer of touring bands, founder of international cultural development/wellness center, or WHAT? I am so filled up, so I have to keep letting go, push through, BE ME, and THIS YEAR (pressure pressure) create a strong firm plan and FOLLOW IT.....My state of mind as I write/listen is in NEW YORK (Billy Joel style)....love the Hudson River Valley...had a home base in the San Fernando Valley for 20 years....BUT PLEASE have to get control of my enormous brain and tame its racing running buzzing. Feel like a puppy sometimes with such a low attention span, completely out of control, shy/fearful, but so loving determined and capable of anything my heart desires. I am not tied down to anything. NADA. That is an amazing gift. No real ties, but also quite sad; due to my age? I am 35... I should be doing what? Have what? Who decides that? WOW where I go from here? Back to my cabin in Wimberley, Texas with my ambition to change the world and my abilities to TRULY DO IT.....Not conceded just confident to TRANSFORM....where should I begin? 'Deep Breath' just me and the running dishwasher and glowing lamp in front of me...oh and the awaiting ALMOST full moon and some Dippers in the sky up above on Little Bend Rd. I want to hug...tree & Me my only options as I have to go pee in the bushes or on a tree? Ciao- RVB

UNDER PRESSURE: DAY FORTY TWO WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Ever since I discovered the importance of being proactive and getting to the cause root of all that IS (w/the gudiance of practicing Kabbalah) I have come to realize that much of my stress and frustration is due to the constant/consistent expectations/guilt and pressure I put upon myself. I have a very repetitive inner-dialogue that goes in circles where somedays I have the energy to slow down, and others days just put it off for TOMORROW. A lot of this time I spend feeling BLUE with my ongoing non-action/undecisive way of life where I find myself lost, running away from my fears, and wasting days on things that just bring me down, drain my energy, and deprive the world of my vast potential. This past year with Maum Meditation and my yoga practice, I have developed a stronger peace of mind that is calm, focused, and completely aware of the urgency in my life to get my act on course. What is different from before when I felt this immediate desire to take hold of my life, is that I am more open, full of Light and with a determined strength that I completely believe in. I have to put a lot of the things that I started and did not finish behind me, and focus on the steps of what I want to accomplish, and not just go out there with a vision with no organization/follow through. I keep continuing bringing up my poor skills of following through and creating results. That WILL STOP since its a must for my success. There is a WAY FOR ME to reach my potential NO DOUBT, what exactly is that WAY. What road/path will I choose? Will that choice be the right one? Should I just leave it up to the Light\God\Spirit to guide me to paradise? There is so much I can do, give, believe in, and accomplish. I am filled with enormous gifts that WILL make a global impact. Is that too much pressure to put on myself having a clear magical beautiful vision where I will celebrate my passions by sharing them with others, while allowing them to discover there own. I believe I truly have to prioritize, plan, and use that plan to make a life for myself. Years have gone by as ideas have stayed idle; films, tv shows, books, projects....where do I begin? Deep down I desire a good reliable quality successful loyal mentor that is a billionaire that can stand by my side, feel/fuel my vision, and make a difference out there. How do you deal with your self pressure? What tactics do you take to face it and make the best of it? I feel pressured by my lack of asking questions as time builds up in me not speaking up, and opportunities passing by. I have to overcome these discomforted times and just reach out. There has been way too many times in my life where I stay quiet and just pass time. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOO please please please. Cant do this anymore. No mas por favore.....When I feel to say something and desire an answer I got to take a stand. Today I let one go by here down in Texas as I am here for my Vision Quest and have to get some answers concerning getting permission/discussing if I can film down here and share my experience within my film. Hours/days/opportunities of great footage has passed me by and I always come up with an excuse, "Oh I can do it that way, and get footage there, or do it this way..." as wonderful shots/images disappear. This is a year for being strong and following my intuition of things I believeare right for this project. Please reach out and provide feedback/encouragement and tell me how you are feeling, how you overcome your inner dialogue, making sure you are rewarded with ALL that you desire. I am excited and very grateful today. Full of wonderful loving inspired energy that keeps me going. Just have to continue this way of celebrating, speak up, and take the action I feel will benefit all that I want to do in my life. RVB 

GETTING GROUNDED: DAY FORTY ONE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Do you have your two feet solid with confidence moving forward knowing what direction you are traveling off to in a world that feels promising and fulfilling? How do you choose happiness in your life? What creates a smile in your heart? How does that smile feel deep within? When I smile and share I glisten & gleam with Light and a fuzziness that makes me smile even more. It is a wonderful reality of having the capability to sigh with gracious joy and say thank you to all that I adore and encounter. I have made huge strides with the transformation of my mental focus and energy throughout my day. I am so much more lighter physcially, mentally, emotionally, and know I have the power of ME and all that I desire to do and explore. I can breathe with an amazing flow that is so loving and wonderful. I am here each day praising and pleasing speaking of beauty and making an impact, but it has been a long windy road where sacrifices have been met, obstacles broken down, and a committed awareness/coolness that I stroll with pride. There is still a long long road ahead that thrives for my attention and follow through. I feel as though I am on icy ground, with gripped shoes, but still on a tough patch of ice that has me going here and there cracking on the way sending me doubt and ongoing distraction. The more and more I focus on letting go, making decisions, standing up to my fears, the more I feel closer to that grounded life I so desire to live. Even though I am a true explorer, I do desire some consistency in my life that I can depend on, and build a life that is full of abundance. There are some key elements that I have to take a stand with in order to reach the begining of becoming a strong grounded man in a society that will allow me to shine. I have to decide where I want to LIVE, what exactly do I want to pursue for a CAREER, and where do I BEGIN. I have to continue to throw away my ego, don't take anything personally, play it cool, respect myself, good diet/sleep, lots of fresh air/water, and wake up each day with a DOING attitude facing my inner demons and just be ME with complete freedom. I know I put a lot of pressure on myself. I learn from idleness, surrender that everything will turn out for the best, and continue to bring newness into my soul. How attached are you to our shady Earth? Does it's soul hold you close? Do you spend time to dig and discover from the inside? This journey of mine here this year is ALL about focusing on YOU. You have to understand what brings you the Light, what provides you hope, and who can give you the support you can always count on. Surround your life with a complete goodness. From the moment you wake up, to the time you call it a night. Focus on being more patient, change up your routine, and lead with a calmness that you can smoothly move through your day. LEAD yourself on a path that makes you feel good about yourself. A place that brings wholeness and a sense of peace that will lead YOU. Love to you- RVB

DISTANT YOUTH: DAY FORTY WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

Do you remember when you were first introduced with the feeling of being a kid in this world of ongoing challenges, crisis, and collaborations? Due to my roller coaster here and there, up and down youth, I recall that life has always been a heavy emotional ride. Overanalyzing, under estimating, self pressure, doubt, dishonesty, running away, and ineffective communication that was downright sad and difficult to LET GO. I would have to say that I never really felt like a true kid. You know that innocent, lovely, out in the neighborhood celebrating type of feeling where you feel WHOLE. I inherited a set of circumstances that I had to face and overcome. I should reach out more with the help of others, but can HONESTLY write today that I have made sensational amounts of progress and WILL always be a kid at heart with a loving, welcoming, free spirit who loves to listen/learn, be warm, and be your pal. I don’t feel sorry for myself, I don’t play the victim role, and I am proud of all that I have seen, explored, and created. What scares me the most and I desire to put a stop to it YESTERDAY is the lifestyle and choices our YOUTH are dealt with all over the world. I was brought up in a loving respectful environment filled with questions answered and an ALWAYS understanding there is ALWAYS someone that I can count on. Currently there is complete chaotic turmoil. No more neighborhood/community and sense of unity. Where has the voice of our youth gone? Have you heard it recently? Through our music influences, means of communication, daily diet, education system, and global knowledge, all these CHOICES have created a youth that is hunched over (change of posture) texting, give 3-word max responses with a tone of voiced shocked by our grandparents’ generation that fought wars, survived Great Depression, and understood what it took to raise a family. Too many babies having babies and more babies creating a never ending baby belly that is bigger then their boobies. Too much chips, soda, fast food, sleep deprivation, and not enough challenging elements that build up brain power to continue leading this world into the next generations. These are youth that will be running the world sooner than I want to believe. A sense of entitlement, ME ME ME, NO NO NO, WHY NOT WHY NOT WHY NOT. No living to give, selfish, self-centered days filled with packs of kids not talking with bangs over their eyes mumbling eating crap dehydrated with a sorry attitude holes, YES HOLES in ears and metal in lips…good luck running anything; race, job, family, the world; where you will be respected, listened to, and be given faith. SPEAK UP , STAND UP, LOOK UP, DRINK WATER, BE YOURSELF. Someone has to take a stand to reach out and give some guidance, open up the gates of awareness towards these lost souls. Set examples of how to treat one another with a respect and an understanding that can allow some positive progress put into play amoungst our stretched out circles. What has to be focused on is priorities, passions and gifts that are young youth possesses. How can someone like myself who has the desire to help and share, create the welcoming vibe into those circles and WAKE UP our distant youth? Have vision to create a motivational speaking circuit, or follow through with the opening of the Exploration Center- international cultural development/welness center, or just hit the streets and seek there? There is a long long road ahead to take back our world and get it back on course. There must be hope re-established, trust instilled, and an agreeable/welcoming plan that can be celebrated. Where shall we begin? Who's first? Who's next? Who wants in? What kind of style shall be used? I am so so so overdue people, how do you feel about coming on board? We all have to come together with common goals united with desiring youth and begin the rest of our NEW LIFE moving forward.- RVB

FREEDOM AIR: DAY THIRTY NINE WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?

It has been close to 8 years since I began my practice of yoga and boy have I grown transforming with an awareness that is near my heart/soul TODAY. I was living in Burbank at the time and was just gifted for Christmas a 24-Hour Fitness gym membership from my mama. When I was playing football years before, before each game the whole team would line up 7 wide 7 deep and we would stretch. Half way through our routine we would partner to assist one another stretching our necks and legs. My partner was Mr. Limber Himself our Knights quarterback Rob Fry. I was always so envy of flexibility, and asked him once how he became such the bendy one. Rob responded, “Each morning and each night I stretch on my back in bed.” Yes the bed does take the pressure off and provides some leniency. So years later, I decided to be proactive and conquer my years of living in a stiff not so limber world and seek out the spiritual art of yoga. I rode my bike from Burbank to Glendale early Saturday morning for a 12:00 class taught by David. If you have never been in a yoga class it can be quite intimidating observing everyone warming up, taking their bodies to places you never knew existed, but I was eager to get through the class and see where this journey would take me that calm open day. Remember this was my first time EVER witnessing yoga. I had absolutely NO EXPECTATIONS, NO UNDERSTANDING, and never knew exactly the power of the breath. It was an amazing life changing releasing experience. Just recently discovered David’s last name is COX who still teaches his marital arts style yoga on Saturdays same place same time (True Consistent Commitment). He has created a practice where you can really push yourself, make progress, sweat, work your core, legs and back. You leave a little after 1pm ready to conquer your day completely opened up, sore no doubt, but it is that gracious THANK YOU SO MUCH SORE. Nowadays so much of our days are spent bottled up in front of this device I write/share with you today, or receiving the nonsense news of the world on our televisions or just sitting around the house wondering how wonderful the Wonders of the World would be oh so wonderful in the wonderment of our minds. I know when I was a child I was an inside outside kind of kid riding my bike exploring around town in and out of neighbor pools, running around the outdoor local mall, and inside with Nintendo & dreaming at the Big Newporter movie theatre.  NOW that inside outside life has changed for our youth. It is more like stay up WAY past your bedtime playing video games of Instant Messaging with Facebook on the computer, sleep in late, and then spend the rest of the day doing the same thing that made them stay up so late the day before. Our world is so vast and beautiful. The Earth is filled with natural beauties, loving animals, endless seas, busy city streets, quaint countryside, and a vibrant free flowing air-filled energy that can uplift your soul and brighten your smile. There are few issues here of why our global lifestyle has changed. The main one is FEAR; the fear of the unknown, the fear of getting hurt, the fear of change, the fear of commitment, fear of responsibility, the fear of newness. Other issues include influences, communication styles, self-respect, diet, closed mindedness, work ethic, and so many more. Currently it is a sad sad mad mad world that is spiraling downward into places and crisis that has depleted our souls into worlds creating false hope/illusions truly ruining minds, communities, and our Earth. There were times in my life I was leading a repetitive, dragging, poor-ol-me, type of lifestyle. I even started getting a perma-frown on my face. Seriously wrinkles around my mouth heading south. I used to smoke, use drugs and alcohol, judge people (improving that), and have an unpredictable reactive temper. With the help of some beautiful people in my life, and so much self commitment/education/letting go and realizing that my mind body, soul, and heart are sacred entities. My gifts that lie within in me are waiting to be celebrated by the world, I decided to vow to lead a sober life (4 years), join the vegan way of living (4+mos) live to love & give, and smile more with a more proactive positive outlook on my path. I am outside as much as I can. I am an explorer with a loving caring heart that thrives to teach, uplift, and motivate others to seek and soar the open road, roaring seas, and truly discover the beauty the world has to offer. Get closer to the Earth, and understand the power of your actions and WORD. Bring light in the world of others since the more Light your Liberate in Their Lives the More Light You Will Receive. Keep on Breathing with Good Intentions- RVB