How many of you spend the majority of your day DOING all that you DO by yourself? How much of your day are you alone isolated at work, in front of your television/computer, driving, exercising, or even eating? How many of you enjoy living life on your own terms, at your own pace, within your own space and NOT REALLY let anyone in your living presence. I know I have lived a great deal of my life being a lone wolf, exploring spontaneously, and even spending the day at the movies all by myself. There is a sense of peace not having to be entertaining someone else, or holding conversation. As you all know I LOVE TO SHARE, enjoy company, and learn from others. From a young age I raced away from my house on my bicycle around town, never really had that wolf pack of friends due to me moving, changing schools, and just my demeanor to float around the social circles never really connecting with one fully. Then there is the trust factor many of us deal with and also how we communicate. I am a pretty open person, but when it comes to openly communicating on a consistent basis there is surely room for desired improvement. Another element that is huge is daily energy flow. I have a tendency to think ALOT, constant brain waves moving, and that puts a damper on the effort level one has to reach out to others. I live to give and enjoy being of service to others, so when I spend much of my times listening, giving advice, making sure others are up to par, I deprive myself of the self-attention that I want to improve with and then just shut down or walk away. We can not be our true self with our ultimate potential by doing what I have been doing for the majority of my life. I have to make drastic efforts to create a peace of mind and energizing balance within my soul in order to create time/commitment to ask others for advice, assistance and guidance on my path of transformation. Instead of taking all my energy and just DO DO DO for OTHERS or ME, I must discover a way to manage my priorities and bring people in my life that I can count on. Honestly since I am such a giving person I seem to attract people in my life that love to give to, but enjoy my giving more and eventually will turn into takers, or just not have it in them to welcome in asked favors. FOR THOSE THAT ARE IN MY LIFE AND ARE UNCONDITIONALLY LOVING SOULS THAT WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR ME, I am not including you of course, but through my life I enjoy doing things either on my own, or don't ASK others to help. I really desire a circle of committed loyal loving and fun friends that enjoy reaching out, asking for help, and have no problem to be a YES HUMAN with no fuss or questions asked. I really have a void in my life with quality relationships that I can count on, celebrate, and conquer the world by their side.Will do my best to uplift out of that void and keep my positive awareness open so I can truly get out of my current rut of feeling alone on this battlefield called life. I know I am surely not alone in spirit and that there are people in my life that I can reach out to, but it is just up to me to take the action to ASK them, be understanding, patient, willing, and overcome my inner fears of relying on the love from others to keep me on course. So take the time, YES FOR YOU AND ONLY YOU, but it is UP TO YOU AND ONLY you to take the ACTION to also find it within you to ASK: questions, for help/advice, for directions, for forgiveness, how to do something new, and even ask a stranger if you can lend a helping hand. Have fun with your asking attitude and effort- RVB
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